Hey, guys. This fic is back. A little short, a lot of fluff and very vague rape scene in italics at the end. Thank you for still being here with me.
Enjoy!
"What is it?" Regina asks tentatively as she raises her eyes to meet green ones.
Emma raises from the bed slowly and starts pacing around.
"Can we do this? I mean... getting to know each other? I-I don't know how... to do it."
"And you think I can?" Regina answered quickly in a harsher tone than she intended. She mentally kicked herself for that. Internally berating herself, she continued in a softer tone. "I guess when one of us has a question, they ask and the other answers truthfully."
"Being honest is the way to go, yeah. But the truth hurts." Emma stated sounding so naive.
"Emma, the truth hurts indeed. And for myself, the truth will hurt twice as much. Believe me." Regina reached out her hand and waited for Emma to sit down on the bed again. "I don't want to cause you any more pain than I already have. Because, believe me, I know that my actions resulted in you growing up without a family. And that hurts me. Because you are the only person I regret doing this to. I don't care about anyone else and how the curse affected them. I care about you only. Emma, I love you like I never imagined I would." Tears streamed down Regina's cheeks when she finished her little speech. Her bottom lip shook and her watering eyes held Emma's gaze.
Emma was crying also. Plain and simple she was crying because she sensed the intensity of Regina's feelings due to their magical connection. It's was like she personally was feeling it. Though she knew what she was feeling was pale in comparison to what Regina was actually feeling.
"I... I love you too, Regina. But...what you did to me and the others hasn't really sunken in yet."
"You were too preoccupied when you were between my legs."
It was not snapping or clever remark but it felt like such to Emma. She even winced at the sentence.
"I was and I don't regret it." She says without missing a beat. "But it was mistake. And now we are going to fix it, right?"
""Yes, we are. Together."
"Together."
Then Regina finished her burger with the one person she'd ever allow to witness it.
"I have to go to the bathroom," Regina murmurs, almost regretting it. But she knows she won't be able to stand without Emma's help and it wasn't the time to be stubborn. It was the time for her to accept the offered hand. It was time she learned how to rely on someone else other than herself. And, there – standing at the edge of her bed, was the very person who was willing to be there for her. To aid her.
"Okay." Emma took the burger wrapping and placed it on the nightstand.
She waited for Regina to lift herself slowly from the bed into sitting position. She watched as the other woman grimaced at the pain she was feeling. There was no point of asking whether it hurt because it was obvious.
Emma snaked one arm around the other woman's waist and with her other she took Regina's hand.
Allowing the majority of her weight rest on Emma, Regina got out of bed fighting the nausea and the sharp pain in her lower abdomen. The bathroom felt like it was miles away but they reach it eventually.
Regina was pleasantly surprised by Emma's patience. The heat from the other woman's body eased the pain and made it all just a little bit better. Regina thanked her lucky stars or whatever for giving her a personal Savior.
Lost in her thoughts and guided by Emma she didn't realize when they reached the bathroom until she was placed on the toilet.
"Let me get the pads from the bag," Emma said and disappeared.
"Okay," Regina murmured to the empty bathroom.
Seconds later the blonde was back with a package of pads in hand.
"Should I give you privacy?"
"Privacy?" Regina threw her a pointed look. "That word was lost somewhere in between the sheets."
Both women laughed at the joke, and at themselves. For a moment Regina felt like she could stay in that happy bubble forever.
"Good one, Regina." Emma praised.
"Can you explain me the tampons?" Regina asked tentatively.
"Um... Sure." Emma shook her hands out nervously. Was this how mothers felt when they had to explain periods to their daughters?
She took a tampon out of the box. She looked briefly at the object before returning it and then opening another box. A smaller one.
"Why did you turn that back? What is the difference?" Regina questioned.
"I use the other ones on my first days when there is more blood. The size would be too big for you."
Regina lifts an eyebrow looking offended.
"You can barely take three fingers inside you. You can take it but you wouldn't be comfortable with that thing inside of you."
The care in Emma's voice doesn't go unnoticed by Regina.
"Okay. Thank you."
Green eyes meet brown. A look of understanding and gratitude passes between them.
"Pants down," Emma said smirking.
"Is this your idea of foreplay?" Regina teased as she stood to lower her pants and underwear.
"You know my brand of foreplay."
"I do know." A beat and then, "And I wouldn't have it any other way." Regina uses the opportunity to gain some brownie points with her lover while removing the used pad.
"Now, I'm going to put this inside you." Emma shakes the tampon unwrapping it carefully.
"I can do that on my own, thank you."
"I know. I just want to show you how it feels like."
"Are you sure we are talking about the same thing?"
"No."
Laughs echoed in the bathroom again.
Is this happiness? Emma questioned herself.
"Okay," Regina cleared her throat after a while. "Let's get on with it."
"As you wish, your Majesty." Emma winked at the other woman and waited for her to lean her back on the wall behind the toilet.
She took the tampon in her right hand and brought it to Regina's entrance. She pushed just the tip inside when she met some serious resistance from the velvet walls. She waited few seconds thinking that it might be too much.
Regina's grimace confirms it at first. But then her features soften and she exhales.
It's Emma's cue to push more. She does it slowly, her eyes never leaving the other woman's face. All doubt disappeared when Regina moaned and rolled her hips.
"Fuck," she cursed through her teeth embarrassed by her body's reaction.
Emma stilled her hand and chuckled. She leaned forward to place a kiss on her inner thigh.
"I shouldn't be turned on so much." Regina admitted chuckling.
"Well, I'm between your legs so..."
"So you're saying its natural?"
"Am I not your best female lover?"
"You might as well be my best lover ever."
Emma rewarded her with another kiss on her thigh, this time closer to her sex.
"Don't get too cocky."
"You have no idea how hard my ego is now."
"I can only imagine. Is that it?"
"Yes, it's all in." Emma said as she looked down at the cord which fell naturally from between Regina's lips.
"It didn't hurt." Regina marveled. Emma thought that she was so used to the pain that she expected it to come from everything.
"No. But stay still for a bit, just in case you have some kind of reaction."
"What? Is it going to just pop out of me?"
"Nope," Emma chuckles. "You'll feel discomfort. You might even pass out."
"Why?" Regina shifted a little and that worried Emma.
"You okay?"
"Yes. It's not discomfort... It's just... I guess it is weird to have this foreign object in me." Regina explained truthfully.
"So that means toys are out of the question?" Emma winked.
"What kind of toys?"
"Sex toys. Please don't tell me that you didn't use toys in FTL?"
"We did. But they were solely for the royal's use. Plus, it's supposed to be secret."
"Yeah? What did you use?" Emma asked as she lifts herself from the floor offering a hand to Regina.
The other woman pulled up her panties and slowly stood up. She barely feels the tampon in her.
"Mostly magical dildos." Regina admitted with ease.
"So you can magic them? Can you teach me?"
"I suppose I could" Regina acquiesced
"Awesome." Emma beamed like a little child.
They moved slowly back to the bedroom. Regina sat down on the bed with her back against the headboard.
"Should I tuck you in?" Emma teased.
"I'm not Henry, Emma."
"I was going to offer a kiss on the forehead too but..."
"I didn't say I didn't want the kiss. But not on the forehead."
"You are insatiable." Emma said and placed her hand on the other woman's cheek.
"You are irritating but..." Regina is cut off by soft lips on her own. She smiles into the kiss and then opens her mouth in invitation.
Emma gets the hint and deepens the kiss pressing her body further into Regina's.
Soon the need for air parts the two women. Regina smiles panting. Emma moves down until her head is over the brunette's chest. The raise and fall of the chest soon evens, the steady rhythm sending Emma to sleep.
After a while, Regina falls asleep with Emma's arms around her. It just feels so natural and fuzzy. The warmth coming from her lover allows her to drift off.
It's night. It's cold. She is in her room. He is inside her again, tearing her young flesh once more. It's always the same schedule... twice a week. It's the worst and the pain is constant. Her body always aches when she walks the day after, when she tries to fall asleep at night, when she rides, when she breaths. It's ongoing. The pain is tattooed to her soul. Because her body is past the stage of actively feeling. It's numb and constant.
But now the memory is more vivid than ever. It's colored. It's live.
She doesn't fight. She just lies on the bed... Praying? No, it won't help. Waiting? Yes. Soon it will be over and she will be back to her alone time when she can try and heal herself. And he will be back to his own room.
She wakes up with a start, skin covered with thin layer of sweat. She looked around and sees the woman she loves with all her heart sleeping soundly next to her.
The realization hits her harder than she expected. She has earned the love she has now with all the pain she has suffered. Everything had to happen in order for her to be here. In this warm bed with the woman she loves.
She sighed, the dread in the pit of her stomach dissipating as heart flitters with happiness and love. She lied down once again and in a matter of seconds she was asleep again.
Well? *smiles shyly* Good? Bad? Suggestions? Criticism?
Till next time!