Yay, She updated earlier this time! haha. Yes i did. it's only fair since you didn't get the second chapter that fast. i was bored so i thought let's start chapter 3. i love writing, i know my writing isnt the best and my english isn't either ( like i said English isnt my first language ).

Jane's pov.

Casey sits up. He looks at me with a question in his eyes. '' What's wrong ''

i sigh '' It's not because of you, you have to know that first of all, but this is not what i want. You are not what i want. I've fallen for a girl. I'm only telling you this because you know me better than anyone else and i love you.. as a friend. It's not fair to stay with you if i've fallen for someone else. ''

I'm not looking at him, i know he's mad. We've been friends for so long before we got together.

'' What is wrong with you? You're catholic! you can't fall for girls! '' he almost yells

'' Can you please keep your voice down? '' i ask him softly '' and i'm not Catholic, i don't believe. you do. and even if i was god would accept me for who i am. ''

'' You are crazy! You lost your mind! ''

'' i did not! stop it! Maybe it's not what you want me to be but i'm in love with a girl. With the most beautiful one. '' i look at him, teary eyes

He takes my hand '' we will survive this, you aren't really in love with her ''

i take my hand back '' Casey! i am. i'm sure about it ''

He looks at me '' if that's what you want, but i don't think we can be friends anymore ''

My eyes are getting wider '' why not? Casey, we've been best friends for like forever! ''

'' Can you please go now? '' He isn't even looking at me, he acts like i'm a stranger.

i get up of the bed and walk out of the house, not saying bye to his mom or anything, i want to be alone. I need to think. i keep walking and walking and i end up on the beach. i sit down watching the sea, it's getting darker and you can see the moon in the sea, it's beautiful

Maura: I've a question!

i smile, i can talk with Maura, maybe i won't tell her yet but we can talk

Jane: Ask me!

Maura: Will you be my valentine?

My heart skips a beat.. what? valentine?

Jane: What?

Oh my god.. if she feels the same for me then we can be togheter..

Maura: Like friends i mean, i'm not a lesbian or anything haha

Jane: yes, sure.

i watch the sea again while i turn my phone off, this is so not how i wanted it to be.

Maura's pov.

I'm laying on bed. i just lied to Jane.. i do am a lesbian.. But i can't tell her.. everything will change. i can't concentrate on my studying. Jane and i have been talking about her and Casey.. They seem really happy, i'm glad. Charlotte won't be here with valentine. i haven't told her about charlotte.. nothing really good to tell about us anyway. She's depressed and i stay up at nights to make her feel better. It's not that important.

Maura: so how are you?

i always miss Jane when we don't or can't talk.

Jane's pov.

Jane: i'm good, you?

Actually i'm not good.. but she's happy so that's good

Maura: good too

Maura: did i do something wrong?

Jane: no, why do you think so?

She didn't do anything wrong? why would she think so? i should have talked to her more.. but i needed to think.. and i don't have internet everywhere..

Maura: we didn't talk that much.

Jane: i'm sorry, Casey and making things ready for school next week.

Maura: oh haha

i just realized i can't even be here on valentine.. now i promised her and she'll be dissapointed..

Jane: sweetie, i don't know if i will be here with valentine...

Maura: But you would be my valentine! you promised!

Jane: I'm sorry.

i really am sorry, i did want to be her valentine.. but i've to go.. i can't really be here..

Maura: don't worry about it, will we at least talk a little?

Jane: i hope so.

Maura's pov.

I'm laying on bed, trying to stop the tears from coming. i was so excited to be Jane her valentine and now she won't be there. Actually it's not fine.. but she'll have fun with whatever she's gonna do.

Maura: are you doing something with Casey then?

Jane: no, i've to go with my parents.

Maura: I hope you've fun with your parents then, i've to go to sleep now, Friday tomorrow so still school.

Jane: okay, goodnight! i love you!

Maura: i love you too.

I check if my alarm is on the good time and lay down, studying biologie a little more before falling asleep while studying.

Jane's pov.

I can't sleep. i want to be Maura her valentine, i really do. i hate it that i always have to go with my parents even if i don't want to go with them. Maura probably thinks i don't want to be her valentine and lied about the fact i had to go to my parents. i can't even do something with Casey, we're not together anymore and he doesn't want to see me. i really hope Maura will realize i haven't lied to her about going with my parents.

I really wish i could be there with valentine. Holding her in my arms and holding her close to me. kissing her head.. hell maybe even kissing her.. if she let's me. She won't.. She isn't a lesbian.. but that doesn't mean she isn't bisexual.. oh why is love so hard?

i lay down again, looking at the ceiling. Thinking about how it would be if Maura would actually be in love with me and with that i fall asleep, a deep sleep. With an awesome dream.

So that was chapter 3 already!

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Yacintha