Hello again, I want to thank you all for taking the time to read this story it means so much to me, I love getting nice little reviews it helps me out a lot , so I really appreciate it. I know you all are anxious to find out what the sex of the baby is, and I promise it won't be long, I'm planning on posting it Saturday, which is the day before I go to camp for two weeks, so that will be the last chapter before I leave for camp. I really hope this chapter is pleasing to all of you. Enjoy
Ten weeks pregnant doesn't seem very long to Rachel, at least not until she realizes that is a fourth of the forty week duration. Things are going pretty well with the pregnancy so far. Rachel's constant morning sickness has lessened to once a week, thank goodness, and she's starting to handle the weight gain a bit better, but once she starts showing all of that may change. Finn's back at work so Rachel's pretty lonely. She finds herself talking to the baby sometimes so that takes away some of her lonely feelings. Rachel finds herself wondering little things about the baby all the time.
"Hey, how are you feeling? You miss me?" Finn asks Rachel when he gets home from work
"I'm alright today, pretty tired but other than that I'm fine. Of course I missed you! It's so lonely in the house without you!" Rachel replies
"It's nice to know I'm so missed around here, and I told you I'd buy you a dog so you wouldn't get so lonely without me."
"I know, but a dog will be a little too much after the baby comes."
"So you don't want our son or daughter to grow up with a dog in the house? Come on Rach, it's classic!
"No, I just don't want one when our child is an infant."
"Oh okay, is this early maternal instincts or something?"
Rachel gives Finn a smirk. "Maybe?"
"So are you getting anxious to find out the sex of the baby?"
"Yeah, very anxious. Then we can go shopping for baby clothes, and decorate the nursery, and decide on a definite name, and-"
"Well isn't somebody one excited mommy to be?"
"I'm sorry, I can't help it, it is all so exciting."
"I know, I'm starting to get excited too."
"I'm so dreading showing though?"
"Why? You know you are just going to glow even more than you are."
"Because I'm going to be round like a balloon and waddle like a penguin."
"You'll still look gorgeous, I promise."
"But what if I look like a whale?"
"You won't, you're tiny, tiny women like you usually don't show as much as averaged people, I did my fair share of research because I'm kind of worried about you."
"Finn, I'm really sorry, I really should not be giving you this much to worry about"
"Hey, it's ok Sweetheart, you can't help it you're a hormonal pregnant woman they do this kind of stuff, it's pretty normal."
"Don't call me Sweetheart, you're making me sound like an ancient old woman."
"Okay, I'm sorry, I won't call you our normal pet names if it bothers you so much now."
"Thank you."
"Gosh you can be so silly sometimes."
"Yeah, I know, most pregnant women are like that."
"Good to know."
Rachel likes days like these, days where she and Finn act like totally goofy idiots, and she hopes that their child will get to experience and appreciate their goofiness someday.
"So how's the first week back to work going for you?" Rachel asks Finn.
"It's fine, but I get kind of worried about you." Finn replies.
"Because I'm pregnant?"
"Yeah, that's why, I mean, I'm scared to leave you alone, I just keep thinking that if something happened to you or the baby while I was at work, I wouldn't be able to live with that?"
"Everything's going to be just fine Honey, you can't protect me all the time, I understand that you'll have to go to work in order to provide for us and so will our child."
"You are the best, you know that right?"
"Yeah, I have been told that several times."
"So, you craving meat yet?"
"Who said I would be craving meat?"
"Pregnant women have beyond weird cravings, so I figured that meat would be one of yours since you don't eat it."
"Just because I switched from vegan to vegetarian when I found out that I was pregnant doesn't mean that I'm going to start eating meat now thank you very much."
"Okay then Rach, no need for all of this sass."
Rachel giggles. "I'm sorry."
"It's okay, I'm just messing with you."
The next morning is awful. Finn goes into the bathroom to get ready for work and he finds Rachel in there crying."
"Rachel Baby, what's wrong?" He asks even though he has a feeling what's wrong with her."
"I'm showing a little and I look so fat!" Rachel sobs
"Hey, hey, no you don't you look beautiful."
"You're just saying that."
"No I'm not, I'm serious, you are so gorgeous right now and you always will be. I know you don't like that you are gaining weight, but just think if you weren't the baby probably wouldn't be growing very healthy."
"I know and I don't want to hurt the baby, but I just feel so hideous."
"You need to realize how beautiful you are, ok? It's not you getting fat, it's this tiny life growing inside of you and that should make you feel beautiful."
"Will you still think I'm this pretty when I look like I am about to pop?"
"Of course I will."
"Finn, do you think I'm hurting the baby by acting like this?"
"No, but I think you need to quit being so hard on yourself, you're pregnant this stuff is totally natural, you shouldn't feel like you are doing anything wrong, you're doing perfect, and when the baby is born it's going to love you so much."
"I'm scared, I'm scared of something going wrong, I'm scared of labor, I'm scared of being a bad mother, I'm afraid of everything, I don't think that I can handle all of this."
"Don't be scared, you're fine everything's just fine, it will all be okay."
"But I'm still terrified."
"Sweetheart, I'm going to stay home with you today, I feel like you really need me here with you."
"Finn, you don't have to do that."
"Yes I do, my most important job is to take good care of you, and if that means I have to stay home from work to do so, then so be it."
"But I feel bad."
"Don't. You need me."
"I love you, thank you for doing this for me."
"No problem, I just want to make sure you're ok."
"I know it may not seem like it sometimes, but I really am excited about the baby, I promise."
"I know you are, it's ok to have bad days sometimes, it's perfectly okay."
"I'm sorry."
"You're fine, you are just fine."
It takes a few minutes, but Rachel has finally calmed down. She knows it's normal to be scared like this but somehow she hates herself for being like this.
"Thanks for staying home with me today." Rachel tells Finn.
"No problem, you need me more than those music orders and paperwork do."
"You don't like being department chair, do you?"
"It's fine I like it, it's just a lot of extra paperwork, but hey it pays a bit better so we have a little extra money coming in and that means we get to do some extra spoiling on our baby." Finn says with a smile
"Psh, we all know Kurt and your mom have that department covered already."
"Yeah those two are pretty excited, maybe even more excited than we are."
"I highly doubt that."
"Yeah me too."
"I still think it's a boy."
"Why have you always thought that?"
"I don't know why, it's just the feeling I've had deep inside ever since I got pregnant."
"So what's your favorite name so far?"
"Liam, I really like the name Liam, it's a really cute name."
"I like that one too, it's nice and simple."
"And then Lilly if I'm wrong and it's a girl."
"When are you ever wrong?"
"Good point."
"I'm still nervous."
"You are going to be just fine. There's no doubt in my mind about that."
"I love your optimism."
"You should let rub off on you, I don't like to see you worried so much."
"I will work on it, I promise."
"Good, I think it help you out a lot."
"I'm so glad you're here to take such good care of me."
"Where else would I want to be?"
"I don't know, doing paperwork in your office."
"No, I would rather be here with you, I love my job but I struggle with the idea of leaving you here by yourself everyday, I hate it."
"But Finn, you have to go to work."
"I know, but I hate leaving you alone."
"I'm pregnant, not dying."
"But this is a huge thing and I'm missing out on some of it."
"I just want my next appointment to hurry up and get here so we know that the baby is still healthy."
"Rachel, the baby is just fine, I promise, nothing strange has happened so the baby is most likely just fine."
"But you never know…"
"Rachel, Look at me, remember how strong they said the baby's heat beat was last time, and the time before that? That means the baby is doing really well."
"I know but it just gives me a lot to worry about, being pregnant I mean."
"I know, you can be nervous, just don't get too overwhelmed."
"I won't."
"Good."
"I'm really glad we are finally going to have a baby."
"Me too, I've always wanted us to have a little family of our own, and now it's finally happening."
"I just want to know what our baby is going to look like."
"I bet the baby will look like you."
"You think so?"
"Yeah, I do."
"I love you."
"I love you too, and I love our baby." Finn says placing his hands on Rachel's hardy swollen stomach, thinking about how in just a few months their baby will finally be with them and they will finally be a family
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