Falling Apart

Solo queda mi lamento. Y decir "te quiero de verdad".

Toni's dig for spanish music had started to take over him, especially the ballads composed by a spanish singer by the name of Dani Martin. He was hearing his music while waiting for Jack in the cafeteria, playing with a napkin and keeping the waiter away.

Jack was walking slowly-his face could scare a bear away-but in his deep blue eyes, the sadness could be seen from miles away. He stumbled onto Eva Marie and Jojo, who asked him what was wrong, but he growled them off. Why would they care? They just don't speak to anyone else besides the total divas. Sighing, Jack made it through the door frame of the cafeteria.

Antonio looked up and smiled at the sight of his friend. He was starting to think that he wouldn't come. He waved at him so he would notice him. The blonde made his way into the table and sat down. Looking at his bald friend, they both shared a moment of silence, their eyes telling more than words could express.

Me muero si no estas, y ya no estas. Te pierdo y te me vas, te fuiste ya.

Sighing, the Swiss man broke the silence. "I'm sorry." Jack, by this time, was looking vaguely at the window; he didn't move his sight from there.

"For what?" he answered.

"Well, that Zeb's gone, and that we're no longer a tag team." The waiter came back, taking Jack's arrival as a cue to a possible order. Jack just asked for a glass of water, while Toni went for a green tea.

"It's ok, Antonio...You will get a push." Jack sighed and gulped, trying to keep his tears away from the border of his eyes. "While I sink…" The bald man was speechless, he didn't know what to say.

"Stay positive. Maybe things will be different," were the only words he could think about. The waiter came back with the tea and the water; Jack drank it quickly and then emitted somewhat of a growl.

"Antonio…" Jack sighed. He was sure that he never had such a friend like the Swiss man. He had been there for him all the time, and maybe the negativity shouldn't get in the way.

"Maybe you're right." Antonio looked up from his cup and smiled. "It's a day off according to Stephanie, and I heard that there's a carnival in a park near here. Wanna go?" he suggested. Jack nodded, smiling. He was hurt-he literally could be crying in his room right now-but he was a mature male...that, and he wanted to spend his day in something worthy.

Paying, Antonio left the cafeteria with Jack close behind him until they were pacing at the same time. They left the hotel and reached the park soon enough. The laughs from children running around, the smell of popcorn and cotton candy flooding the air, the colorful tents and people dancing samba around, made the place have an enjoyable environment. They walked around the granite trails, seeing all of the things the tents had to offer. Food, games, and prizes were the most seen articles.

"Want some cotton candy?" Antonio asked, trying to break the silence they've walked all the time in. Jack looked at him and nodded, attempting a smile that partly failed. Toni bought some cotton candy and signed the shirt of the male who was selling it before he came back to Jack, who was sitting in a bench, looking down. Antonio pouted before nearing the blonde and kneeling in front of him. Jack breathed heavily before looking at Antonio's brown eyes.

"They had your favorite color," Toni said with a warm smile, handing the blue colored candy to his friend. This time, Jack's smile did succeed, taking the cotton candy and palming Toni's shoulder.

"Thank you," he said.

Porque ya no te tengo, eras mi vida y ya no estas. Y sé que ya no estas. Que me castige el cielo por si algo hice mal.

The rest of the day went flying by; Antonio and Jack played darts, water pistols, and they even stuffed their own bear, all to make Jack feel better. It was late afternoon when they headed to a rollercoaster. Toni suggested to get a ride, and Jack accepted quickly and brought the bear he made. He felt like such a child doing it, but it actually helped. The bear was one model called "Papa bear" and had a similar beard to Zeb's. He couldn't help but to choose it.

Paying the tickets, the real americans made their way into the last seat of the rollercoaster. Jack was laughing at some nonsense Antonio said before the machine started functioning. They both held tight to the security that kept them from falling, and when they reached the tallest peak of it, the carts stopped as part of the ride. Everything could be seen from there. Jack looked at Toni while he was amazed by the view. He thought about the night they had a few days ago; so improvised, so...unexpected. Antonio looked too mannish to have kicked with the left foot, but he...he didn't know what to think. There was always this feeling of enjoyment whenever he was with him.

The wheels of the machine began to function again, and there they went. They shouted happily and their air was stolen by gravity a couple of times. The kids in front of them were shouting like they were about to die while Jack's shouting was always interrupted by laughs.

After the ride, and avoiding some lost vomiting child, Toni took Jack to one of his favorite carnival games: "The Octopus". They both got in their seats next to each other, and the man in charge secured them. However, this game allowed more movement along the ride. The octopus started to spin, and Toni raised his hands and closed his eyes, enjoying the ride. Jack laughed a little and then did the same, adding some "wooos", which were contagious and soon enough, the real americans were shouting like little kids. They laughed in the middle of the ride and lowered their hands. Toni wrapped an arm around Jack, who did not notice, but ended up getting closer to the bald man.

It was eight o'clock when the two men decided that it was time to go back. They walked along the park's green areas that the white public lights illuminated. At some point, they ended up under a tree.

"So that's why Sami Zayn is a complete dork," Antonio finished and turned to Jack, who backed off and collided against the tree. He looked at Toni's eyes briefly before smiling and letting out a small chuckle.

"I see..."

Te llevo tan, tan dentro que ni el tiempo barrera y no se va a curar…

Antonio's face turned serious, those charming eyes of his making Jack confused and a little unsettled. "Jack," Toni said, walking closer.

"Yes?" the blonde asked meekly.

"I love you." Jack's eyes turned soft.

"I love you too." The Swiss man's lips were inches away from the patriot's.

"No," Jack blurted, pushing Antonio away and getting aside. Toni tilted his head to a side.

"Why?" Antonio asked, pouting.

"I'm not like that," he said coldly. "And I'm sure you're not like that either." Antonio was at a loss for words.

"But I thought..." he mumbled before harshly being cut short by Jack.

"What happened a few days ago meant nothing. Men are different when they're horny." Jack didn't know why he was doing this; every word that he had said hurt him, and he had no idea what he was doing to Antonio's bull heart.

"Oh..." was all Toni managed to blurt out as he did his best to stay serene.

"Go home Antonio. I...I will stay here a little longer." Jack gave his back to the Swiss man, who looked at it for some good seven minutes before he understood it wasn't a joke. He slowly backed away and went back to the hotel, his eyes begging to cry but not letting them.

Es que ya no te tengo, y perdón si no te supe amar...

Author's Note: The song in this chapter is "Mi Lamento" by Dani Martin. I hope you feel that truly speaks to Jack's feelings as much as I do. If you are enjoying this fanfiction so far, please let me know, and don't forget to leave a review on your way out! See you all in Chapter 4!