A/N: Yesterday's episode was awesome. It was so funny, and I'm enjoying the Lemonade dynamic so much! I also loved the ZW scene at the end. It's obvious they still have feelings for each other. I based this fic off of that scene. It's similar to Truly, Madly, Deeply, but this one is less of a reconciliation and more of an "admittance of feelings." Nonetheless, I hope it's enjoyable! This one was a lot of fun to write, and the song I chose is one of my absolute faves. It's on my Spotify playlist. Thanks for reading! :) XO.
Oh also, thanks so much for the reviews; I'm glad you guys are enjoying these one-shots as much as I am, hehe!
Disclaimer: I don't own Hart of Dixie or the song When You Say Nothing At All. I was quite ecstatic, though, when Brandi Bradburn followed me on Twitter. You can, too! I'm hrselovr101.
When You Say Nothing At All
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"So here's the thing," she started, avoiding Wade's intense gaze. "Seeing you with someone else kind of freaks me out…more than I thought it would. And I'm guessing it's not fun for you to see me with Joel, either. But, we have to learn to coexist, because let's face it, Bluebell is a small town, and we'll be seeing each other a lot."
Zoe stopped talking and glanced up to look at Wade. She couldn't read the expression on his face, but she could see in his eyes he wanted to try as well…at least that's what she told herself. He took a sip from the beer bottle and exhaled softly, loud enough for Zoe to hear.
"I know it's hard. We're both trying to move on…"
Wade adjusted his position in the wicker chair he had taken from Zoe last Christmas and ran a hand through his hair.
"I've stopped tryin'," he admitted.
His response caught Zoe off guard, and she gave him a look of confusion; all he did was smile, ever so slightly.
"What do you mean?"
She wanted to clarify things. Although, she knew that hearing Wade admit how he had stopped trying because he knew it would be hopeless would most definitely mess up her attempt to start something new with Joel.
"When I told you I loved you, I meant every word of it."
"I know you did."
"Yeah, well, when you replied with 'wow', it kind of ruined the moment."
"But I did say that I still had deep feelings for you."
"And then you said you were going to spend three months in New York."
"And then you said 'see you in three months, Doc.'"
She smiled to herself, reminiscing over the moment they had shared.
"That's right, I did. You know why? 'Cause I thought I'd see you in three months."
His words stung Zoe's heart. She really hadn't thought about how much she hurt Wade until this moment…watching him admit to her everything he was feeling…everything he had felt once she left Buebell; once she left him. It broke her heart.
"Once you didn't return, I tried so hard to move on Zoe, I did. I tried findin' someone to fill the hole in my heart that you left. I tried findin' someone that made me as happy as you did. I tried findin' someone that helped me become a better person. But you know what I found instead?"
"What?"
She made her way towards Wade and sat down right across from him, letting her hands fall into her lap.
"I found that no matter how hard I wanted to try an' move on, my heart wouldn't let me. It was still tethered to you. Sometimes I think it still is."
"Wow."
"Is that your response for anything sentimental I say?" he joked, smirking while doing so.
She easily let out a small chuckle.
"Seems to be, huh?"
He nodded.
"It isn't easy for me seein' you with Joel and all. I've learned, though, that tryin' to move on won't help. What I feel is what I feel, and I can't change that."
Zoe rested her hand on top of his.
"I'm not saying we're completely over, but, for now, I need to learn what it's like to be in a relationship with someone else. You hurt me, Wade, and I slowly need to re-build that piece of my heart...with someone different."
He looked hurt; she could see it in his eyes and face. She loved the fact that they didn't have to say anything to each other and so many emotions could be felt. They had shared those kinds of moments all the time…more so since she had returned. Zoe was slowly starting to realize she treasured every one of those moments. Even though they weren't together, she could still feel connected to Wade.
"I know."
She got up from the chair she was sitting in seconds ago, and crouched down in front of Wade, bringing her hand to his cheek. She could feel the warmth of his skin and missed the feel of it on her own. Leaning her forehead so it rested on his, she whispered,
"That doesn't mean that I still don't have deep feelings for you, though."
She smiled gently, and kissed him softly, letting her eyes close and her lips get caught up in the moment. When she pulled away, Wade reached for her hand.
"Don't go, Doc." His voice was barely above a whisper.
"Wade, I have to. I need to figure out who I am, without you, before we can start something again."
She let his hand fall out of hers as she turned to walk away. Tears were starting to form in her eyes—she knew this wasn't good-bye. They both needed space and time. Zoe had no doubt that in the end, she and Wade would be pulled back to each other. The middle was yet to be determined. She would appreciate every moment she spent with Joel but would treasure every moment she shared with Wade, when nothing would be said at all…until that day came. As she was leaving, Zoe looked over her shoulder and connected eyes with Wade. She smiled, and Wade found the look in her eyes to be familiar and comforting—he knew Zoe was the girl for him, and she would never leave him. They would fall back into each other's arms when the time was right.
The smile on your face
Let's me know that you need me
There's a truth in your eyes
Saying you'll never leave me
The touch of your hand says you'll catch me whenever I fall
'Cause you say it best when you say nothing at all
