.
"I wish you could give me the cold shoulder
and I wish you could still give me a hard time.
And I wish I could still wish it was over,
but even if wishing is a waste of time.
Even if I never cross your mind...
I'll leave the door on the latch if you ever come back...
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat if you ever come back..."
Sherlock isn't coming back.
John's realised this and he's fine with it. Well, not exactly fine, per se, but he's learned to live with it. Because there's nothing he can do to change it.
He has started blogging again, although the amount of people who comment simply to say that Sherlock's burning in hell discourages him. He doesn't defend Sherlock- Sherlock would hate that- but he doesn't just read those comments and turn away, either. They swirl around his mind for a few days until he finds a better memory of Sherlock and his life to replace them and then he can smile again.
Still, it's the fact that he has to chase away those horrible comments at all that gets him. Most of the people reading his blog had known Sherlock and believed John in what he said, but there's those people that dither on the spot or downright show their distaste.
John decides to stop blogging.
The decision comes on the day that a box of belongings comes from Greg. It's useless stuff, really, but it makes him smile frankly when Greg drops it off. They're reminders, but he's alright with them now.
He doesn't touch the box again. He watches the DVD and Sherlock pulls a one-up on him again when video-Sherlock inadvertently tells reality-John that he'll stop being dead.
But he's dead.
There's nothing that can change that.
So, he stops blogging. He decides that it's not worth it to delete comments or reply to them or try to calm himself down through things stupid people say.
He's fine.
Sherlock's dead, but John's fine.
He had never thought that he would be... fine, that was. But he is.
Because Sherlock would want him to be. Mary wants him to be. And John wants himself to be.
It's taken two years... but he's fine. He's made peace with the idea that Sherlock is dead and he can move on.
Song: If You Ever Come Back by The Script.
Disclaimer: I do not own the song or Sherlock.
Because of course I had to recap Many Happy Returns in the day before The Empty Hearse. Naturally.