His Gift
Chapter 2:
I stood in the middle of the kitchen, the phone in my hand as I stared at it. I was going to call Jacob with the news I thought I would never tell him, or anyone else for that matter.
Yet, here I am, phone in my hand, frozen in a state of paranoia.
How was I going to tell him? I couldn't just blurt it out over the phone, could I? Would I ask to meet him somewhere?
I sighed, dialing Jacob's number slower than I ever had in my life. I pressed the phone to my ear, listening as it rang.
Riiiing!
Riiing!
Riiing!
"Hello?"
I froze when I heard Jacob's voice on the other end of the phone.
"Hello? Anyone there?"
I finally found the courage to speak, realizing that if I didn't talk soon, he would hang up.
"Jacob?" I nearly whispered.
"Bella? Is that you?"
"Yeah." I replied.
"Oh hey Bells. What's up?"
His voice was concerned.
"Ummm, Jake? Do you think I could drive over there? I need to tell you something." My voice cracked twice.
Almost instantly, I was bombarded by endless questions from Jake, who seemed very worried about me.
"Are you okay? Is something wrong? Are you hurt? Did something happen to Charlie? Is he okay?"
I almost laughed at how uncharacteristic Jake sounded. Almost.
"No one is hurt, Jake. I'll tell you when I get to La Push." I sighed.
"You leaving now?" Jake asked.
I nodded, and then realized he couldn't see me before answering, "Yeah. See you soon."
I hung up, closing my eyes and sighing to myself.
"There is no way I am going to be able to go through with this."
I drove up to the Black's house, trying to control myself so I didn't seem like I was going to break down crying, which I felt like doing right now. There was no way I was going to be able to go through with this. No way in hell.
I parked my truck, hopping out of the driver's seat and closing the door. When I turned around, Jacob was standing right behind me.
"Ahh!" I exclaimed, my hand flying to my heart, "Jake! You scared me!"
Jake smiled, rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly, "Sorry about that, Bells. So, what's that news you wanted to tell me?" I could tell he really wanted to know what my secret was.
"Umm, Can we go to the beach? I don't want to tell you here…" I nearly pleaded.
Jake nodded, walking with me towards the beach. We arrived not much longer, sitting next to each other on a log that had washed up on the beach.
"So, what's the news?" Jake asked again for about the millionth time since we started walking. He was very persistent, asking me every minute or two.
I figured it was time to tell him, "Promise not to tell anyone?"
"Cross my heart." Jake promised, making an 'x' on his chest where his heart is.
"And please, please, please don't freak out on me, kay?" I pleaded.
"Of course, Bells." Jake chuckled, "I won't do anything stupid and freak out."
"Good."
"So, this news?" Jake reminded me after we had sat in silence for a few minutes.
"Well, here it goes. Remember what you promised, Jake." I paused, gathering myself to reveal one of the most important secrets in my life. My mouth opened and I said it. I stared intently at the ground, saying the two dreaded words just loud enough so he would hear me.
"I'm…p-pregnant."
After a few silent minutes, I looked over to Jacob, who looked frozen solid.
"W-what did…you say?" He asked slowly.
"I'm pregnant, Jake."
He looked over at me, a new emotion in his eyes: Rage.
"Is that why that bloodsucker left?" He exploded, "He knocked you up and then left you here to deal with yourself! I knew he didn't have a heart, the stupid leech! I can't believe he would do something like this to you. Doesn't he understand what you're going though? That damned bloodsucking leech can go to hell!"
By this point, Jacob was on both of his knees in front of me, his hands on my shoulders as he stared into my eyes, "Did he…." Jake paused before continuing, "…did…did he r-rape you, Bella?"
I blinked, trying to remember that night. Charlie had to spend all night at the station for something. I don't even remember what it was now. But, either way, we were both at my house alone and we were lying on my bed and…
"I don't remember." I whispered.
"The leech raped you!" Jake roared.
"No, Jake, no!" I shouted, getting him to stop shouting and look back at me, "I don't think he raped me. He wouldn't do that." Would he? I thought.
"Then explain!" Jake shouted at me.
I thought back to about a week ago. I had fallen and hurt my arm during gym class. I didn't break it or anything, but Edward felt the need to give me pain killers, so he got Carlisle to get me Percocet, a drug which, unknown to either Edward or I, one of the side effects makes you slightly high. All I remember was being all loopy and giggly and then…
He kissed me.
Then I let my control go, influenced by the drugs for my arm.
Then he tried to tell me it wasn't the right time, but I convinced him and…
My face flushed, memories flashing past me. Damn that sex had been good.
"Bella!" Jacob exclaimed, bringing me back to the present, "Explain!"
"I hurt my arm in gym class and Edward got Carlisle to give me a pain killer called Percocet, and, unknown to either me or Edward, one of the side effects makes you slightly high. And so, influenced by my arm, I started…." I blushed darker, trailing off so Jake would get the idea without me having to say it out loud.
Jake blushed a light pink, "Oh." He said simply.
There was another pause, this one lasting a few minutes as we both stared at the ground.
"Bells?" Jake surprised me by starting a conversation, "I'll be there."
"What?" I asked, not really getting what he meant. He'll be there?
"In place of that leech. He's not here, but that doesn't mean you're going though this all alone. I'm going to be there with you, Bella. Every step of the way. I'm not going to let you do this by yourself; I'm going to be there for you."
My eyes widened at what Jake had said. Was he saying what I thought he was saying? Jacob Black, the one who fifteen minutes ago was ranting on and on about how horrible Edward was, is going to step in and take his place next to me? To help me?
I blinked, "You don't have to do this, Jake."
Jake smiled, "I want to, Bella. I'm going to be there, every step of the way."