a/n: heres the next chapter. This chapter is half Edward and the Cullen's and half Bella/Charlie/Jake. I would like between 195 and 210 reviews before the next chapter. Thanks again!
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This chapter is dedicated to BeingDazzledByEdward for helping me in numerous ways over the past few days. Thanks again for all the help!
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His Gift
Chapter 9:
EPOV
I just revealed the most shocking news of my life. I was still trying to accept that myself. I just told them my biggest secret. Right now, it was 'make-or-break' time. They could either reject me or accept me.
Everyone's mouth's hit the floor, that I expected. Esme looked like she would faint if she could, but Alice smiled, as if she knew this was going to happen sooner or later. Then again, she probably did know this was going to happen sooner or later, her having those visions all the time.
"W-what?" Rose stuttered, shocked. She probably didn't think that she would be right when she asked that question.
I glanced franticly from one family member to the next. There was no point in lying to them, was there?
"Yes. You're right. I found out Bella was pregnant because I could smell the difference in her." I confessed.
There were a few moments more of silence before Esme spoke up, "So that's why we left her? Because she was pregnant?"
I sighed, "Well yes…and no."
"Explain." Carlisle calmly suggested to me.
How could I? They wouldn't understand anyway, would they?
Carlisle noticed my hesitance and walked over to me, placing his hand on my shoulder, "It's okay, Edward. We won't judge you. Just explain what happened."
I looked up at Carlisle and instantly felt like he was right. I nodded, "Well, at first, it was because I was scared of the commitment. I could barely take care of myself, or you guys, or even Bella. I couldn't be able to take care of a baby too. Then I realized I probably could take care of a baby too, but then I was afraid Bella would hate me for it. I mean, I was the one who was supposed to have the control in that situation because she was taking those drugs for her arm. I let her down. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if she hated me, so that's why we left."
There was another moment of silence before I felt two arms wrap around me. I looked up to see Esme hugging me. I sighed and closed my eyes.
"Edward."
I looked up to Esme and blinked, telling her to continue.
"Edward, you have no right to think these things. Bella would never hate you." She smiled down at me.
"And, by the way..." everyone turned to look at Alice as she spoke, "…you make a fantastic father. Trust me." She winked and everyone laughed, including me.
"So you see Edward," I turned to look back at Esme now, who had released her hold on me and was standing a few feet away, "…you have no reason to be afraid. Everything is going to be okay."
I sighed, shaking my head, "I know. You're all right. I really do want a child, but do I deserve one? I am a monster. I'm a murderer. I don't deserve something this amazing."
It was Rosalie's turn to hug me, something I didn't expect from her. I suspected Rosalie to be jealous of me for having a baby when she could not. However, here she was, hugging me and trying to comfort me, just like the rest of the family.
"Edward. That's exactly what I thought. I thought that I couldn't have a baby because I was a horrible vampire. However, you are having a baby, which means that you aren't a monster. Even if you can destroy life with the flick of a finger, you can also make life. That in itself makes you not a monster."
And I believed her. Maybe Bella was right. Maybe I'm not a monster, but just something different than the norm. Maybe, just maybe, I'm a type of human too.
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BPOV
"No way." I growled, my anger showing though, "I'm not getting an abortion."
I stood up to stand in front of Charlie.
His eyes slanted into little slits. His face got darker.
"You have to get one!" He yelled at me.
I ground my teeth together, turning behind me to see Jake had left into the other room.
Some help he was, I thought before turning back to Charlie.
"Technically, Charlie, I'm over 18, which means I don't have to listen to you anymore. That means I don't have to get an abortion." I growled.
Charlie sneered at me, "So you're just going to keep the baby?"
I nodded, "Yup."
"You're ruining your life!" Charlie screamed at me.
"It's better than being a murderer!" I shouted back at him.
My outburst must have shocked him, because he took a few steps back away from me.
"Get. Out." Charlie seethed.
I blinked, shocked, "What?"
"You heard me." Charlie said again, "Get out. I'm kicking you out of this house. Go live alone. You've ruined you're life. Leave."
I felt my eyes tearing up as I nodded, turning around to leave the living room. On my way out, I faintly heard Charlie growl something. Something that broke my heart into a million tiny pieces.
"I hope you and the baby both die in childbirth."
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CHARLIE IS SO MEAN! Omg. Remember: I would like between 195 and 210 reviews before the next chapter.