A/N: Hi there, here's a warning to say, this is sort of sad as well.
"In the land of Gods and monsters, I was an angel," Jane kneels, "that's what you told me Maura, that's what you told me," she touches the grass beneath her.
Her fingers glide slowly across the blades, the grass blades, "that's what you told me, that day when I killed him…When I stabbed a scalpel right into his chest, into his heart," she yanks out a blade, a grass blade, "I yelled I won but, I didn't feel like a winner, not at all," she pulls another right from the Earth, "I felt wrong, like I've lost, because I killed—I killed him…but you told me Maura," she drops the blades, hands pressed against the Earth, "you told me that in the land of Gods and monsters, I was an angel. That what I did saved lives, and that I saved your life."
Her tears seeped into the Earth, into the ground.
"Why couldn't I do it again Maura?" She whimpers against the palm of her hands.
She rubs at the scars; at the scars, formed from being punctured by her once greatest fear - Charles Hoyt - her once greatest fear.
"Why couldn't I have been an angel and saved you again?" She yells.
The wind blows past her; the blades, the grass blades rustle away.
"Because all I am now, Maura," she traces Maura's name, "is that, I'm living my greatest fear," she presses her forehead to the stone, "my greatest fear, of losing you."
"Of losing you," she repeats as tears continue to flow from her eyes.
"I'm no angel, I never was. I didn't win, I'm still lost." She grips onto her only support - the cool slab of stone she is kneeling before.
"Living in the garden of evil, screwed up, and scared," she says as she crumbles against Maura's headstone, "that's all I am."
She brings her hands to her ears, to cover up the sound of rustling grass, of rustling leaves. She brings her hands to her ears, to cover up the sound of blowing wind. For she will never again hear the one sound she wishes to still hear - Maura's breathing.
A/N: Hi there, thank you, for the time~
This was inspired by a post by gettingdesperate and the lines of "in the land of Gods and monsters, I was an angel" and "living in the garden of evil, screwed up, scared" came with the user's post - I merely did what I did with it, thanks to inspiration by the user's post.
Thank you, for the time =)