Chapter 6

Losing The Reason

Spencer nervously played with her coffee cups lid. She was sitting at one of the tables outside of Lucky Leon's Cupcakes, waiting for her sister Melissa and her niece Taylor. It was a weekly thing they did to catch up and Spencer could really use the sister time. After telling Aria about her unplanned pregnancy long ago, she wanted Spencer to tell the girls too. Spencer agreed to, so she will today after meeting with Melissa, but telling Toby was out of the question.

Things at home weren't going so great either. Spencer and Toby have been becoming more and more distant. To be honest, it was more Toby that was being distant because he was more focused on other matters.

"Sorry that I'm late." Spencer didn't even realize that Melissa had arrived until she looked up to see that Melissa was sitting down.

"No problem." Spencer said before she turned her sights on baby Taylor."Hand her over, please."

Melissa gave her a small smirk before unstrapping Taylor from the stroller and passing her over to her her sister."She's actually not in a good mood today, but she seemed to perk up when she saw auntie Spence."

"Well, she is my favorite little angel." Spencer said as she snuggled Taylor close and gently kissed her head. She called Taylor an angel because of her pale skin and when she was first born, Taylor had blonde hair that was almost white, but after a while her hair magically changed to a brown color like Melissa and Wren's.

"She was very cranky last night and this morning. Wren kept trying to calm her down, but nothing would work."

"Come on, Melissa, she's practically a newborn and you will have restless nights."

"Well, if you love her so much, then how about I let you babysit her for a week. You'll deal with the dirty diapers, restless nights, endless feeding, crying, and etc. Are you up for the challenge?"

"Sorry, but I couldn't possible take my little angel away from her parents. It just wouldn't be right." Spencer teased as she kissed Taylor on the cheek before passing her back to her sister."How's Wren doing?"

"Wren is Wren, you know. He works long hours during the week, so he could spend the weekends with me and Taylor. You should see him interact with her when nobody's around."

"Oh, I know. He has conversations with her about not growing up too fast because he'll always want her to be daddy's little angel." Spencer said and she couldn't help the fact at how much she loved the way Wren adored Taylor."When do you go back to work at the firm?"

"I want to spend a little bit more time with Taylor, so I'm gonna give myself a few more months."

"That's understandable."

"How's everything going at home? How's Toby and Aria?" Melissa asked.

"Aria's doing good and her baby's healthy. Ezra should be home the week after next. Toby...he isn't doing so good."

"What? Why?"

Spencer always dreaded that question. It meant that she had to talk about Kate and then she would have to talk about Sky. She decided to paraphrase the whole story to make it shorter. Even then it still didn't suppress the look of surprise and shock from Melissa's face.

"Wow, so Toby could be a father and he's just now finding out after all these years?" Melissa asked just to be sure that what Spencer said was real and that it wasn't a dream.

"Yep, my boyfriend possibly knocked up two people in high school." Spencer said sarcastically, but Melissa could still hear the hurt in her voice.

"You still haven't told him about what happened with you?"

Spencer knew what she was talking about. After breaking up with Toby in Florida because of the whole Alison thing, she found out she was pregnant. She didn't tell Melissa, but Melissa found out on her own when she accidentally walked into the bathroom when Spencer got the results of the test. She was seventeen and pregnant without her boyfriend.

"I haven't told him, but I did tell Aria because once he told me about Sky, I went to Aria and we talked, then I confessed."

"Jeez, did you tell Hanna and Emily? Most importantly have you ever told Toby?"

"No, the girls and I are getting together after I leave from here. Toby's still in the dark about the whole thing. And I don't plan on telling him."

"Spencer-"

"No,"Spencer cut her off because she knew Melissa was going to try and convince her to tell Toby."I can not tell him about this now and possibly not ever."

"Alright, I'll let it go for now. Can we at least finish talking about Sky?"

"Yeah, because that what everyone seems to be doing nowadays."

"So, is Toby trying to find her?"

"More like obsessed with trying to find her. He's convinced that she's his, but just because she has blue eyes doesn't mean she's his."

Melissa furrowed her eyebrows."Are you okay with this, Spence? I mean, how are you dealing with this?"

"I'm doing fine, but you can tell that things are different between me and Toby. Things are strained." Spencer said and her thoughts drifted back to how her and Toby interacted throughout the week."He doesn't do romantic things anymore, he spends all night on the computer searching, he barely holds a conversation with me, and the se-"

Spencer stopped short when she remembered that Taylor was in front of them."Our intimate time isn't very intimate anymore. It used to be passionate and fun, but now it's...I don't know, it just doesn't feel right."

"Wow, so it's really that bad?"

Spencer let out an exaggerated sigh and nodded her head."It's like we're not even in sync with each other."

"So what are you gonna do?"

"Honesty...I don't know."

"Hey, come on in, Han." Spencer said as she opened her front door.

"Are you okay? I got the S.O.S?"

"Yeah, I just really needed to talk with you guys. Emily and Aria upstairs having tea, go on up and I'll meet you up there."

"Okay." Hanna said before she started for the stairs, she stopped and backed up to look at Spencer curiously."Are you sure you're all right?"

"Yeah, I just wanted to tell you guys something and I wanted us to be together when I say it." Spencer said as she tried to put on her happiest smile, but there was nothing really happy about the upcoming news.

"Okay..." Hanna said warily."I'll go wait upstairs with Aria and Em."

Spencer watched her friend head upstairs to the guest room. She made her way up to the kitchen to get more tea. Something caught her eyes as she was walking past the fridge. It was a picture of her and Toby, last year on Valentines day. He had planned such a romantic evening with the carriage ride into the woods for a dinner under the candlelight and stars. He even pulled out his old guitar to play a special song that he spent weeks perfecting. She frowned because the man she loved is not the same man he was last year. And she missed that man.

"Spence, I don't think I have anymore clean shirts." Spencer snapped out her gaze from the picture to look at her boyfriend standing in the archway of the kitchen wearing only jeans and socks.

"Check the dryer, I just washed some of your clothes last night."

"Thanks." He said hurriedly before he turned to go to the laundry room.

She walked over to the stove, where the tea was already hot and waiting. She got some tea cups out of the cabinet and started filling them up. She was almost done when he came back into the kitchen.

"Alright, Spence, I'm headed out to class." He waved at her before he turned to leave again.

"Wait!" She said and stepped closer to him and wrapped her arms around his waist."Aren't you forgetting something?"

"Right." He leaned down to kiss her forehead before he moved himself out of her arms."I'll see you when I get home."

She watched him walk out of the kitchen and heard the door shut as he left. She quickly wiped away the tear that had fallen from her eye. It had gotten so bad that he didn't kiss her on the mouth or say the most important thing of all.

"I love you too." She silently whispered to him even though he was gone.

She composed herself and grabbed the two tea cups. She headed up the stairs to the guest room with Snow in tow. She opened the bedroom door and was immediately greeted with the concerned expressions of Emily and Hanna. But Aria just had a look of compassion on her face.

"You didn't tell them did you?" Spencer asked Aria, slightly hoping that she did because she didn't want to.

"Nope, it's not my story to tell." Aria said as she took her a sip of tea.

"Seriously, guys, what's going on? You've got me and Em worried sick because of the S.O.S." Hanna spoke up as she took the tea that Spencer handed her.

"I agree with Hanna. We want to know what's going on." Emily said as she picked up Snow and held her in her arms."Even Snow's curious to know what's going on."

Spencer took a deep shaky breath and sat down the bed with her friends."I have something to tell you guys. Something that I've been keeping a secret for a long time-"

"You're a lesbian?!" Hanna asked/blurted out, causing Aria to spit out her tea because of her laughter and Emily's mouth to drop open in shock.

"Hanna! No, I'm not lesbian. Why would you think that?" Spencer questioned and Hanna shrugged her shoulders.

"What I was taking a guess. My next guess would have been that you're pregnant."

Spencer and Aria exchanged knowing looks. But those looks didn't go unnoticed by Emily.

"Wait, Spence. Are you pregnant?"

"No." Spencer said quickly and ran her fingers through her long brown hair."What I'm about to tell you guys will make you hate me."

"Spence, we could never hate." Emily said and comforting patted Spencer's hand.

"Alright, I guess it's time for me to tell the truth. Back in high school, when Toby and I went to Florida and broke up, I found out something. I found out I was pregnant." Spencer looked around to see the facial expressions on her friends faces. Emily and Hanna looked shocked, but more than anything they had a look of sympathy on there face."I cried for days because I thought my boyfriend cheated on me and left me pregnant. I finally came to terms that this baby wasn't going anywhere and it was like a little miracle. I was gonna keep it, but on the day that I was gonna tell, I...I accidentally fell down the stairs and I...lost the baby."

After telling the story, the waterworks came out and she cried again like she did all those years ago. She didn't see her friends move, but she felt them wrap their arms around her. If only that could have done this on that unfortunate day.

"Shhh, Spence, it'll be okay." Aria whispered in her ear.

"Yeah, Spence, we're here for you." Emily said.

"We're sorry that we weren't with you before, but you've got us now." Hanna said and Spencer shook her head.

"No, I'm sorry. I should have told you guys or at least called you from the hospital." Spencer rambled off, but was stopped when her friends pulled her back into there big group hug.

That day had to be the worst day of Spencer's life. She'd accidentally fallen down the steps after tripping over her own feet. Ironically, when she fell, she was wearing one of Toby's shirts that he gave her. That baby was supposed to be something special for both of them. But she felt like she ruined it. She felt like, she failed him.

Toby didn't know what was up with Spencer. She was fine yesterday when he left her with the girls, but when he came home that night something was off. He got even more concerned when they went to bed and he heard her crying. When he heard her, he immediately turned around and pulled her into his arms. She slept more peacefully and Toby thanked the stars because he couldn't handle her being sad.

It's been a while since he's done something romantic, so he decided to treat his girl to something special. Early in the morning, he crept out of bed and went to make breakfasts. Of course, he made some for Aria too. He left the breakfast with a rose and note on the nightstand next to Spencer. He gently kissed her lips before he got ready to go to work.

"What do you think,Snow?" Toby said as he crouched down to show her his two choices shirts. He had a blue shirt and gray shirt, he'd usually ask Spencer, but she was sleeping.

He watched as Snow cocked her head to side, almost like she was actually thinking about it. He watched her for a moment before she moved over toward the grey one.

"That's what I was thinking too." He smiled and gently rubbed her soft head before standing back up to finish getting ready.

"Wow, Snow's picking out your clothes. Am I being replaced?" He heard her and looked over to see Spencer standing in the doorway. He thought she was asleep, but he was glad that she was awake.

"Hey, you." He dropped the shirts in his hands and went over to her and wrapped his arms around her in a tight hug."Why aren't you in bed eating breakfast?"

"I ate while you were in the shower. What's gotten into you today?" She asked curiously and he just smiled that heartwarming smile.

"Nothing, I just love you very much." He whispered huskily as he leaned to kiss her gently. He slowly started to back her up towards the bedroom. When her knees hit the bed, she fell back with him falling on top of her.

"I have a class in forty-five minutes." She said breathless even though she didn't want him to stop his attack on her neck.

"That gives us about twenty-three minutes, I can make that work. Can you?" He asked and to her soft moan as a form of agreement. He continued with his plans for earlier and made love to his girl like he promised.

After a second shower and one long kiss goodbye, Toby was heading off to work. He was walking with a little pep in his step because its been a long time since they've made love like that. He walked into his office, giddily waving at his secretary Nicole and she gave him a knowing smirk.

He took a seat at his desk and took a deep breath. He looked at all the pictures on his desk and smiled. There was an old family portrait with him, his dad, and his mom. Next to that one was a picture of him, his dad, his stepmom, and Jenna. And finally, it was picture of him and Spencer, sitting together in their backyard on the hammock.

He let his eyes drift away from the photo before they were stuck there all day. He pulled out his sketches for his latest project for Aria and Ezra's nursery. As soon as he began to work there was a light knock on his door before Nicole walked in.

"Mr. Cavanaugh, you have a Mr. Campbell here to see you." She said cautiously before stepping aside to let Andrew enter the room.

He walked in completely casual like nothing was wrong. He walked in like he never kissed Spencer. He walked in there like he owned the place.

Toby cleared his throat and nodded at Nicole."Thanks, Nic. Please give us a moment alone."

"Yes, sir." She said as she walked out of the office and closed the door behind her.

"You've got a lot of nerve coming back here." Toby basically growled as he stepped from behind the desk to get in Andrews face.

"I've got nerve, brains, looks, money, and power. Everything you wished you had." Andrew retorted back with a smile on his face before he said."And soon I'll have your girl."

Toby blandly chuckled before he he straightened up and pushed Andrew roughly, shocking him."Really? Because I'd like to see you take her from me."

"I will in do time." Andrew said as he regathering himself after almost being out through a wall."Face it, you're just a no good carpenter and I'm a doctor. I think the odds are stacked against you."

"Yeah, well we've beaten the odds time and time again."

Andrew seemed to ignore him because grin appeared on his face."I wonder what it would be like to be with Spencer again. What it would feel like to have her legs wrapped-"

All Toby saw was RED, he didn't even know what came over him. He just remembers hearing the pain filled screams of Andrew, broken glass, and stuff falling all over. When he finally got out of his hulk mode, he saw the damage that had been done. Stuff was broken and that's means a lot of stuff was broken. It didn't matter because when he looked down, he realized that he was towering over a blood mess, which had to be Andrew because he heard groaning.

"What the hell happened in here?!" Nicole shouted as she barged into the office with security in tow.

"Nothing." Toby said simply as he wiped Andrews blood off his hands."It was just a business meeting."

"What kind of business meeting?" She questioned and Toby just gave her a boyish smirk before walking over towards her.

"One that doesn't need to be mentioned to Spencer. Can you do me a favor and make sure that the janitor gets rid of all this trash. " He glanced over to Andrews curled up form and smiled before he said."And I do mean all of the trash."

"Sure thing, boss." She said as professionally as she could in front of security, but she still gave Toby a low high-five as he walked past them and out of the door.

He was walking to the bathroom to get cleaned up. That's when his phone rang in his pocket. He picked it up and saw the caller I.D. His heart stopped for a moment as he took the call.

Four hours and thirty-six minutes. He was that late. Spencer would have thought that since he made that breakfast for them that, he remembered their anniversary. But, no, he didn't remember and he left Spencer sitting at the restaurant for hours. She even called him and told him to meet her there for a special surprise. She rented out the entire restaurant so they could a quiet candlelit dinner with a little dancing and possibly get a hotel room for the night, but most importantly it would be just the two of them.

Angrily, she left the restaurant about an hour ago. She came home and immediately starting slamming every door she opened. She was grateful that Aria decided to stay the night at Hanna's while they were out because if she were home, then it'd be a night of talking and tears. She didn't want to talk, she just wanted to be angry.

She changed out of the new dress that she brought and put on some sweats. She walked into the kitchen to sit down and wait for him. As she was waiting, she found herself playing with her engagement ring. Was this really what a relationship was supposed to be about? Were they supposed to be fighting all the time? Was he supposed to be ignoring her?

She slide the ring off her finger with tears in her eyes. She placed it on the table and just looked at it for what seemed like hours. It wasn't until she heard the front door, that she picked it up and walked to the door. She saw him and he had a big smile on his face like nothing was the matter. His smile fell when he saw the serious look on her face.

"Spencer, what's wrong?" He asked and tried to step closer to her, but she held up her hand to stop him.

"Happy Anniversary." She said quietly and took her ring to place it in his hand.

He had forgotten and he was cursing himself on the inside for it."Spencer, I am so sorry! Please, babe, you have to let me make it up to you-"

"Toby, ever since you've learned about Sky, all I've been hearing is 'I'll make it up to you.', but this is something that's too important for you to forget. I'm tired of coming second." She said before she walked away from him to go the bedroom. He followed and his knees went weak when he saw that she had a suitcase on the bed.

"W-What are you doing?"

"I'm gonna stay with Melissa and Wren for a few days." She said as she put a few pieces of clothes into the suitcase."I think we need a little space from each other."

"Spencer, no. You're not going anywhere." He said firmly as he crossed the room to take her things out of the suitcase to put them back in there rightful place.

"It's fine, I'll just have the girls come get my things when you're not home." She said as she tried to leave the bedroom, but he blocked her path with his body.

He cupped her face in his hands and kissed her. He kissed her with every fiber of his being and could have sworn that at one point she kissed him back."You're not leaving me. Spencer, please."

He phone chose the perfect moment to start ringing. She sadly chuckled before she said."Answer it. I'm sure it's someone important."

"You are important to me." He said, but he couldn't deny this call because it was his stepmothers ringtone and he needed to answer. He used his body to block the doorway before he answered the phone."Hello? Yeah, what's-"

She watched his face frown and his arms go limp. He dropped the phone and fell to his knees."Toby, what's wrong."

"My dad, he had...he had a heart attack."

Waiting in Rosewoods Hospital was not pleasant. Sitting in any hospital waiting room isn't pleasant, but his fathers life was on the line. Toby didn't say much on the drive to the hospital and it didn't bother Spencer because things were still fragile with him. She couldn't help, but be sad by the lost look and sadness in Toby's eyes. When they first arrived, Jenna and her mother were in tears, but Toby managed to comfort both of them.

He got them settled down enough that he'd convinced them to go get a coffee and he'd wait for any news about his father. It's only been a little while, but for Toby it felt like hours.

"My dad was always the strong one in our family." Toby said out of the blue, causing Spencer to turn to him."When my mom got sick, he was our rock. Even after she died, he still was strong for me because I was young. We had such a great bond. Here we are now and I didn't even know that he was sick. It wasn't supposed to be him, he's the rock of the family."

"Toby..." She said his name sweetly and wiped away his tears."He'll be fine."

"I know because he's a trooper." He said with a faint smile playing on his lips."Is it supposed to be this hard?"

She knew that he was no longer talking about his father, but was talking about them."I don't know. Couples fight, but things..."

"Things aren't the same with us." He finished her sentence for her. They didn't speak anymore after that and didn't touch anymore.

Toby stood when he saw Emily rushing into the waiting room.

"I came as soon I as I could." She said hurriedly as she pulled her best friend into a comforting hug."How is he?"

"We don't know yet. We're waiting on the doctors." He said.

"Hanna staying with Aria because she can't leave the bed, but they send there love. Caleb and Holden are on there way." Emily said and finally turned to Spencer and hugged her too."Hey, Spence."

"Hey, we're glad you could be here." She said honestly.

In a matter of minutes, a doctor stepped out and approached them. All of them stood and Emily and Spencer held Toby's hands.

"Dr. Clark, how is he?" Toby asked anxiously.

"Daniel Cavanaugh, is one of the strongest men I've ever met." Dr. Clark said with a slight chuckle."He pulled through and is expected to make a full recovery."

Toby let out a breath that he didn't even know he was holding."Thank you so much, Dr. Clark."

He nodded at Toby before turning and walking away. When he was gone, Emily pulled him into another hug. He let go of Emily and on instinct turned to hug Spencer next, but stopped short when he remembered their conversation earlier.

He leaned in and gently kissed her cheek."Thank you for being here."

"No problem." She said as nonchalantly as she could, but was breaking on the inside.

"I have to call Jenna and my stepmom. You should head out and get some sleep. Will I see you at home?"

"I think I'm gonna crash at Em's for tonight and I'll be back in the morning...to get my stuff." She said and Toby nodded his head, but he could feel the oxygen leaving his lungs.

"Alright. Goodnight, Spencer." He gazed at her for another moment before he stepped away from her and turned and walked away.

A/N- DO NOT PANIC Spoby is not broken up because you'll see some very very fluffy Spoby next chapter. I mentioned last chapter that someone was sick, can anyone guess who? Hint they were there in the hospital ;)

*The dog Tiger will make his debut in the chapter after the next one :)

*Sorry for the super late update, but school has been rough :/