Song is "The Reason" by Hoobastank.
Sami stopped when she heard EJ call her name out. She knew that she should have kept going, but something about his voice always stopped her in her tracks. She couldn't leave after he spoke her name in that certain way. It was like she was tied to him by some invisible string.
They were standing in the dimly lit hallway. Although she'd stopped, Sami hadn't turned around to face him. EJ stood behind her, staring at her back, still not quite believing she was walking away from him. He had to try and fix this, however he knew how.
"Please, Samantha. Don't walk out on me."
Sami closed her eyes against the tears that were threatening to spill. "EJ, I have to go. I have to find out how my dad is."
EJ sighed. He'd always known Sami was quite stubborn when she had her mind set, but he was always able to work around that. This, however, was proving to be more difficult.
"Look," he said. "It's my fault. I know that. But darling, I'm not perfect. Just like you are not perfect. You willingly admit that, so why fault me?"
"Because, EJ," she said while spinning around to face him. "You knew!"
"I didn't mean for that to happen, though. How many times do I have to say it?"
Sami just closed her eyes and shook her head. She couldn't deal with this right now. She didn't want to deal with this. There were so many thoughts whirling around her head; so many feelings circling inside of her. She just wanted to end this conversation and go to her aunt's or sister's.
Without another word, Sami turned away and walked downstairs. She had just reached the dark and foreboding front hall of the DiMera mansion when EJ stopped her again.
I'm
not a perfect person.
There's many things I wish I didn't do.
But,
I continue learning.
I never meant to do those things to you
And
so, I have to say before I go,
That I just want you to know:
"You want to know why I didn't lie to you? Why I told you the truth about how Andre was in the house? It's because of you, Samantha. I'm not the same man I used to be, following my father's orders. I made a fresh start of my life. All because I love you, Samantha."
The tears were still threatening to spill out of Sami's eyes. Each word EJ spoke made it that much more difficult to keep them at bay. Sighing shakily, she laid the twins' carriers on the floor at her feet.
"EJ, don't do this."
"Don't do what? Try to keep you here with me, where you belong? Everything I just said to you is true."
I've
found a reason for me
To change who I used to be,
A reason to
start over new
and the reason is you.
Sami just continued to stand there, silently shaking her head, the tears slowly trailing down her cheeks. She couldn't look at him. He looked ready to fall apart.
"I'm sorry, Samantha. I'll never be able to tell you how sorry I am – for everything. Not just for this, but for everything I've ever done wrong to you in my life."
It was getting harder and harder for Sami not to walk out the front door. She wanted so badly to stay here with him and let him comfort her. But she kept reminding herself of the way Roman had fallen backwards, the blood seeping out through his shirt. And the reason why that had happened. She was so conflicted inside, she felt that she would burst. Her heart was breaking on the spot.
"EJ, I really have to go."
"No, you really don't. Stay here with me. Let me be here for you, like I always have been. Even when you professed to hate me, who did you come running to for comfort, darling? Think of that before you walk out that door."
I'm
sorry that I hurt you.
It's something I must live with
everyday.
And all the pain I put you through,
I wish that I
could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your
tears.
That's why I need you to hear…
"I always ran to you, EJ. I know that. But this is different now. I don't know why, but it just is. Please, just let me go."
"I can't let you go, Samantha. If you leave now, I swear I'll fall apart. You're the reason why I've become a decent human being. Can't you see that?"
"You were a decent human being way before I even considered divorcing Lucas. It has nothing to do with being with me, EJ."
"Yes, it does. Even when you were married to Lucas, I was still able to be around you every single day because of that dmn vendetta against your family. If you leave, then what? How do I get to see you then?"
I've
found a reason for me
To change who I used to be,
A reason to
start over new
and the reason is you.
Sami glanced away from him, fully understanding what he was saying. If she walked out on him, there was no reason she could think of that would lead to them seeing each other.
However, they were fated to be together. Sami knew that. She couldn't understand, though, why she was trying to fight that again. She fought it once and it was the biggest mistake of her life. So, why was she trying to fight it now?
She could feel a headache coming on. They weren't getting anywhere with this conversation. She needed to be alone and think.
"EJ, I'm sorry." She picked up the twins and again tried to continue towards the door. She got as far as opening it maybe two inches.
I'm
not a perfect person.
I never meant to do those things to you
And
so, I have to say before I go,
That I just want you to know:
EJ's hand appeared on the door, slamming it closed before she could take one step.
Slowly, she lifted her gaze to his. There were so many emotions flashing through his eyes that she couldn't read them all.
"Samantha, I turned my whole life around for you. To prove to you that I was worthy of your love. I went against my father's wishes, got disowned from him more times than I can count, almost died because of that, and you're honestly just going to walk out on me? Because of this, which was completely unintentional?"
I've
found a reason for me
To change who I used to be,
A reason to
start over new
and the reason is you.
Sami had no answer to that. He was right and she knew it. But she was too stubborn to stick around now. She wanted to get away.
"Fine," he said. He took his hand off the door and gestured for her to walk through it. "You want to go, go. I just can't understand how you won't stay here because of a legitimate accident on my part. But in the past, after I'd consciously lied to you, put harm to your family members, raped you –"
That caught Sami's attention. "You did not rape me. You know that."
He did know that. He hadn't meant to say it, either. He was just so buried under all kinds of sentiments, he couldn't stop the words from tumbling out of his mouth.
"You still stuck by me through all that," he said. "And I know that's because you loved me all along. So what went wrong now?"
I've
found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know,
A reason
for all that I do
And the reason is you.
