Well, here's chapter 18! I know I didn't have any smut last chapter, but I hope I made up for it here! This one isn't AS emotional as the last chapter. but being that this IS the first time Liv has seen her apartment since the attack, it's a little bit emotional. But it's here! Enjoy!
The next morning, Olivia and Brian woke Calvin up and helped him get ready for school. Once he was off to school, she walked over to Brian and wrapped her arms around him. "Mmm. We have the house to ourselves for a while. We don't need to head over to my old apartment right away…"
He snaked his arms around her waist and pulled her close. "What are you suggesting?"
She giggled and ran her hands through his hair. "You, me, naked… somewhere other than the bed," she whispered, her mouth staying open slightly after she finished.
He pulled her into him, as close as he could get her, and gently bit her earlobe. He let out a soft growl in her ear and gently squeezed her ass. "We might as well christen it before we leave."
She let out a soft moan and looked into his eyes. "My thoughts exactly," she whispered and pulled him into a kiss. They were as close as they could possibly be with their clothes on, but they needed to be closer. They bit at each other's lips and their hands roamed the body of the other. They broke the kiss when they needed air and undressed each other quickly. Brian picked her up and carried her into the kitchen, setting her on the counter.
He spread her legs and stood between them. "Mmm. Should I enjoy my pancakes plain, or should I add toppings?"
She bit her bottom lip. "Whipped cream is in the fridge."
"You little minx."
She shrugged. "You know you like it."
He smirked and grabbed the whipped cream, putting some on her neck, licking it off. She moaned and arched her back. She felt the cold on her breasts and she let out a breath. The next she knew was his tongue was licking her breasts clean, and her head fell back against the cabinet. He spread her legs more, bending them, and putting her feet up on the cabinet. He sprayed a little whipped cream on her inner thighs and licked it off, gently biting the skin. He heard her moans and he smirked, spraying her warm center with a little whipped cream, putting the can on the counter and putting his arms under her legs resting his hands on her sides as he leaned over and started to lick her clean.
Her hand shot to the back of his head, keeping him in place. "Oh, fuck!" Her hips bucked.
He moved his hands to her hips and he smirked. "Easy, baby."
Her breath was heavy, her moans getting louder as he went back to licking her. He started sucking on her clit and she let out a high pitched squeal. "Oh, Bri!" She let out a whiney moan and gasped, feeling her orgasm wrack her body. "Shit!" He kissed her thighs, then up to her lips as she came down. He picked her up and carried her into the bathroom, turning on the shower and stepping in with her. She smiled at him. "You're too amazing, you know that?"
He smirked and pinned her to the wall. "It's what you do to me, baby."
She giggled and shook her head. "You're such a dork."
"No, I'm just in love."
She smiled and kissed him gently. "I like doing this in other places besides our bed."
He smirked. "Yeah?"
She nodded and raised an eyebrow. "Mmm. We should do it more often," she said gently, looking at his lips. She kissed him again, smirking. She felt him pick up her leg and wrap it around his waist. He pushed into her gently and she gasped, breaking the kiss. "God you feel so good," she whispered, gripping his shoulders.
He gently kissed her neck and smiled. "You're so perfect." He let out a groan into her ear and she arched her back, their hips starting to move in perfect sync. He kissed her passionately, resting his free hand on the wall behind her.
She broke the kiss and let out a soft, short moan, almost a grunt. She knew that even though he made fun of her for it, he loved it when she was loud. He loved her being vocal, because he loved knowing that he was the one who made her that way. He loved that he was the one who made her lose control.
Brian kept moving, resting his forehead on hers. "God, Liv," he moaned.
She arched her back and let out a loud moan. She looked into his eyes, her breath getting heavy. She was close. But she wanted to fall over the edge with him. She wouldn't let go just yet. "Baby, please! God, I'm so close," she whimpered.
He smirked and started moving harder and faster. He felt her start to milk him and he moaned. "Mmm. Just like that, baby."
His voice sent tingles through her body and she let out a breath. "God, Bri. Don't stop," she whispered. It wasn't long after that they were falling over the edge together. They were moaning each other's names as if they were the only words in the English language. She smiled and ran her hands over his chest and she smiled. "You are incredible, you know that?"
He smirked and chuckled. "I think you've mentioned it a few times." He gently rubbed her hip and kissed her gently. "I can't wait to call you my wife."
She smiled and wrapped her arms around him, pushing herself off the wall. "We still have a wedding to plan, don't we?"
"That we do. We can do that later if you want."
She smiled. "After we get back from Pelham? We could at least pick out colors… and the song we want to dance to."
He smiled. "Perfect. But we should probably wash up before we head over." He kissed her softly, then pulled away. "We smell like sex," he whispered against her lips.
She giggled and kissed him again, pulling him under the water. She broke the kiss and smiled. "If we don't stop kissing we'll never get to the house."
He smiled and kissed her again, pulling away softly. "The perils of being an adult." They managed to wash each other and get ready. She put on a pair of black skinny jeans and a tank top, with a black zip up sweatshirt. He looked at her and smiled gently. "You ready?"
Olivia smiled gently and shrugged. "As ready as I'll ever be," she said gently, looking into his eyes. "Thank you. You know, for coming with me. I just… I don't know what to expect."
He pulled her into a hug and kissed the top of her head. "It's okay. I'll be here every step of the way."
She rested her head on his chest and closed her eyes. "I love you."
He smiled and gently rubbed her back. "I love you, too. Come on, let's get the bad part over with."
She smiled and took his hand, and they walked out to the car together. They drove to her old apartment building and she closed her eyes, taking a few deep breaths.
"You want me to run up and get what you need."
Olivia shook her head. "No. No, I need to do this. I'm okay." She stepped out of the car and looked at the building and took her keys out. She opened the front door, holding it for Brian. She took the stairs; she needed to get rid of some of this nervous energy. She walked to her apartment and unlocked the door, walking in. It still smelled like the bourbon he forced her to drink, that he poured on her. It reeked of cigarettes and burned flesh. She heard Brian come in.
"Hey, I really wish you'd let me do this for you."
She took a deep breath and snapped out of it. "Yeah, I just wanted to open some windows."
He looked around. He saw her apartment after the attack, because he went to get her some clothes, but it seemed so much worse. "Oh my…" He saw her go over to pick up a chair and he rushed over to her.
"I got it, Bri. I'm fine. I'm okay." She went to work getting things picked up, even though it brought back the memories. She got together the things she needed and then walked out of her bedroom. "Get a cleaning crew in here to clean up the blood and alcohol…" she fought to keep her tears from falling, but she was unsuccessful.
Brian walked over to her and wrapped his arms around her. He felt her body start to heave with sobs. "Come on, let's get out of here. Go wait in the car, I'll get everything, okay?"
"Please don't leave me," she whispered, gripping his shirt.
He picked her up and carried her out into the hallway. "Okay, I'm right here." He held her tight and kissed the top of her head.
She took a few deep breaths and looked up at him. "I just… I didn't think it would hit me like that."
He gently wiped her eyes. "Hey, it's okay." He kissed her forehead.
She smiled and hugged him again. "I thought I was dealing better than this," she whispered, sniffling gently.
He rubbed her back and kissed her cheek. "You are dealing the way you're supposed to. You're going to get through this, Liv, and I'm going to be here, by your side, every step of the way."
She smiled and looked into his eyes. "I love you."
He smiled. "I love you, too."
"Um, I'll… I'll go wait in the car, unless you need help."
He smiled and looked at what she pulled out to bring. It filled a single box. He shook his head. "I'll be down in a minute." He handed her the keys and walked back inside.
She took the elevator down and sat in the car, looking at herself in the mirror. She saw Brian come back out with the box she put a few things in. He put the box in the trunk then got in the driver's side. She looked over at him and rested her hand on his knee. "Thank you," she whispered and leaned over and kissed him softly.
He smiled and kissed her back gently. He broke the kiss gently and touched her cheek. "Come on, let's go check out that house in Pelham."
She smiled and nodded. "Definitely." They drove out to Pelham and then drove up to the house. "It's even more breathtaking in person. I don't know how this didn't sell. It's been on the market for so long."
Brian smirked and parked the car. "Let's go check it out." He got out and walked around and took her hand and walked up to the door with her. He knocked and the realtor answered the door. "Hi, we're—"
"Mr. and Mrs. Cassidy? Yes, we've been expecting you."
Olivia smiled. "Officer and Detective, actually."
"NYPD, well, we hope that you like the house."
"From the pictures, it's exactly what we're looking for."
The realtor gave them a tour of the house, they went over it with a fine tooth comb, looking for mold, cracks in the wall, loose wires. They didn't find anything. They ended the tour in the big, spacious kitchen. "So, what did you two think? Did it live up to expectations."
"That and more, but would you mind if we walked around one more time? We promised our son we'd take pictures." Olivia said, looking at Brian.
The realtor nodded and smiled. "Feel free. I'll be in here if you have any questions."
Olivia nodded and they walked back upstairs, into each of the rooms, taking pictures. She looked at Brian and wrapped her arms around him from behind. "So, what do you think? Could you see us raising our family here?" Olivia smiled and gently nipped at his ear lobe.
Brian smiled. "It's perfect. I say, we head down there and make an offer."
She smiled and turned him around, hugging him tight. "We're actually doing this." She let out a breath and smiled. "It's in a good neighborhood, there's a back yard. I just… never expected to have this happen."
Brian smiled and gently caressed her face. "You know what I noticed, you didn't correct her when she called you Mrs. Cassidy."
Olivia bit her bottom lip and smiled. "Sure I did, I told her it was Detective."
Brian kissed her gently. "You know what I meant."
Olivia ran her hands over his chest. "Well, in less than a year I'm going to be Mrs. Cassidy. It may be a little early, but I like being Mrs. Cassidy."
Brian smiled and kissed her forehead. "Come on, let's go make an offer on the house." They walked back downstairs and into the kitchen. "Well, you've sold us. We want to make an offer. We can give you the asking price."
The realtor smiled and picked up her phone. "I have a few calls to make, some paperwork to fill out, credit checks and what not, and then I'll call the owner."
Olivia took a few papers out of her bag and handed them to the realtor. "I got a jump start. We were pre-approved by a number of different agencies."
She smiled and looked over them. "Wonderful. I just need to do double checks, talk with the owner, and I'll get back to you in a couple days.
Brian smiled and wrapped an arm around her. "Sounds great, thank you for all your help Jodi."
She smiled and nodded. "No problem."
Olivia walked out with Brian and climbed into the car. "I can't believe it."
He smiled and grabbed her hand. "This is really happening. We really just found ourselves the perfect house."
She looked over at him and kissed him softly. "I know. To think, we could be moved in here by the end of the month."
They drove back to his apartment and walked in the house, smiles on their faces. They saw Calvin sitting at the table. Olivia walked over to him and kissed his head and hugged him tight.
Calvin looked up at them. "Did we get it!?
Olivia smiled and nodded. "Doesn't quite move that fast, we have to wait on a few things, and for the owner to agree, but it's as perfect as it looks online. You want to see your room?" Calvin nodded and Olivia took her phone out and showed him the pictures. "It's big, we can decorate it however you want, and you'll have your own bathroom, at least until this little one is old enough to use a bathroom." She smiled, her hand on her stomach. "Ok, so what does everyone want for dinner?"
Brian wrapped his arms around her from behind and kissed behind her ear. "We'll order out. You should rest; you go back to work tomorrow."
"Finally," she murmured. "I'm so tired of sitting around the house. I think going back to work will be good for me. But we still need to know what everyone wants."
Brian slipped his hands into her jeans pockets and whispered in her ear, making sure Calvin didn't hear. "You."
She looked back at him and kissed him gently. "Not for dinner, baby," she whispered.
Calvin looked at them. "I could go for Italian."
"Italian sounds perfect."
They ordered dinner and sat at the table and started to plan the wedding. "What do you think about teal and purple?" She pulled up pictures on her phone and showed them to Brian.
He looked at the phone and smiled. "They actually go really pretty together."
"You'd be okay wearing one of the colors?"
He smiled and kissed her forehead. "I'd wear polka dots if that's what you wanted."
She kissed him gently and rested her forehead against his. "I love you."
He gently caressed her face. "I love you, too."
"Now, a wedding song."
"Why don't we do Take My Breath Away?"
She thought for a minute. "I found this Harry Connick Jr. song that I really like. It's called Love My Life Away." She put it on from her phone and rested against him as the song played.
He looked down at her and kissed her softly. "It's perfect," he whispered.
She smiled and kissed him again, running her hands over his chest. She broke the kiss and smiled. "I figure we can play Take My Breath Away later on in the evening, but this song just perfectly describes how I feel about you."
He smiled and went in for another kiss and then there was a knock on the door.
Calvin got up and rolled his eyes. "I got it, love birds."
Brian stood up and smiled. "I don't think so. I got the money."
Olivia smiled and watched them. They passed out the food and ate dinner. They all went to bed fairly early. Olivia rested her head on Brian's chest and traced designs on his chest with her finger. "I'm so happy," she whispered.
He stroked her hair and smiled. "Me too."
She closed her eyes, and then looked up at him. "Good night, baby."
He smiled and kissed her softly, gently rubbing her back. "Good night, Pancakes."
She smiled and kissed him again, resting her hand on his cheek. "I love you," she whispered against his lips.
"I love you, too," he whispered into the kiss not wanting to break the kiss because everything was just so perfect.
She broke the kiss softly then snuggled into his chest and closed her eyes, his heartbeat lulling her into a deep sleep.
She woke up and looked at the clock. She noticed Brian was still asleep and she smiled and kissed him passionately, straddling him, feeling him start to kiss back, his hands moving to her hips. She pulled away and smiled. "Wake up, sleepy head."
He groaned. "Oooh, you're evil."
She smiled and kissed his neck, gently rocking her hips into his, biting his neck gently, feeling his hands grab her ass. "Naughty boy," she whispered looking into his eyes.
"I'm the naughty one? You, sexy, are the one teasing me."
She smiled and climbed off of him. "It's time to get up. We have to get ready for work."
He sat up and climbed on top of her. "Does that include me pinning you to the wall and fucking your brains out?" He growled into her ear.
She let out a moan and bucked her hips into his and felt him pin her hands to the bed, above her head. She looked into his eyes and smiled.
"I'll take that as a yes." He slipped her pants and panties off and took her shirt off. "So sexy." He pushed a finger inside of her and she gasped, arching her back. "So wet."
She smiled and tried to move her hands and pouted. "I want you inside me."
He pushed another finger inside her and started moving his hand, and she bit her bottom lip, trying to stay quiet. He pulled his fingers out and licked them clean.
She let her head fall back and moaned gently. "God, that's so sexy. Baby, please!" She begged. She needed him.
He smirked and took his boxers off and kissed her. He wasn't inside her just yet, he wanted to tease her.
She felt him on her thigh. She arched her back and bucked her hips into his. "Please, baby. I'm so wet," she whined. She felt him thrust into her, hard and she bit her bottom lip and let out a soft moan. She felt him start to move, he moved fast, hard, and deep. She seethed and strained her neck up and bit at his lips. "Oh, yeah baby. Just like that!"
He smirked and kissed her neck, biting gently. He felt her hips start to move with his. He lifted her leg up by his shoulder, allowing him to get deeper and he heard her moans get louder. He smirked and kept moving, feeling her tighten around him and he let her hands go. He felt her hands on his back, clawing at his shoulders. He smirked and kissed her, catching a loud moan in the kiss.
Her back arched, her toes curled, her entire body clenched and shook as her orgasm took over her body. She crashed back into the bed, feeling him on top of her. Her body was sweaty and her breath was heavy. "Oh, baby," was all she could manage.
He smiled and kissed her gently. "God, you're so amazing."
She smiled, feeling her body coming down from her high and she moved her head. "Mmm. I don't want to move anymore."
He chuckled and kissed behind her ear. "But you go back to work today, what you've been looking forward to for the past two months."
"Can't we just stay in bed all day, you inside me?"
"As tempting as that sounds, you know you'd kick yourself if you didn't."
She groaned. "I know."
"Come on, let's go shower and get ready."
"You want me to walk after you just fucked me five ways from Sunday?"
He chuckled and got off of her, slipping out of her. She let out a groan and he picked her up, carrying her into the bathroom and turning on the shower. He set her down; she braced herself against the wall. They washed each other's hair and body, and then stepped out of the shower. Olivia wrapped herself in a towel and did her hair and make-up while Brian got dressed. Once she finished she walked into the bedroom and put on a pink lacy bra and thong. He walked over to her and smiled. "You look so sexy in pink."
Olivia giggled and stepped into her black slacks. "Make sure you have something in your head to torture you for the next eight hours," she whispered and kissed him gently. She slipped into her red shirt and smiled. "I'll drive Calvin to school on my way to work," she whispered and kissed him. She grabbed her shoes and slipped into them and smiled. She grabbed her badge and her handcuffs, holding them in her hand. She put them on her belt, followed by her holster, and she took her gun out of the lock box. "I never thought I'd be wearing these again."
He walked over to her and kissed her gently. "You'll be great, baby. Just don't push yourself."
She smiled and ran her hands over his chest. "I should get going. I'll see you later. I love you," she whispered.
He smiled and pulled her closer. "I love you, too. Call me if you need me, okay?"
She nodded and kissed him once more. She broke the kiss and walked out of the bedroom, seeing Calvin. "Hey, kiddo, ready for school?"
He nodded. "Yeah, ready as I'll ever be."
She chuckled and wrapped an arm around him and walked out. She drove him to school then headed to the squad room. She took a deep breath and walked inside, dreading how her co-workers would treat her. She smiled as she walked in. It was awkward; no one knew how to handle her. She walked to her desk and smirked. "What, no cake?"
"We were gonna get you cupcakes," Rollins said, slapping her legs.
"Rollins, I was kidding… These are beautiful, thank you." She smiled.
Cragen nodded. "Welcome back, Detective Benson."
She smiled as she got a few more "welcome backs" from various other members of the squad. She walked into the Captain's office. "Hey, what can I do?"
"Well, it's pretty slow around here…"
"So, relax? Cap, I've been relaxing for two months, and I'm going crazy."
"Liv, there isn't much to do."
She sighed and nodded, walking back out to her desk. She organized a few things. She saw Rollins walk over and she smiled. "Hey."
Rollins smiled. "How you holding up?"
Olivia nodded and shrugged. "Okay, I guess. I'll be better once I have something to do," she said, waving her hand around.
Rollins grabbed her hand, looking at her engagement ring. "Liv, is this what I think it is?"
She completely forgot. She smiled a big, goofy smile and she nodded. "Yeah."
"Oh, so it's going well with Cassidy?"
She bit her bottom lip. "I'm living a fairy tale. I truly am. I don't know how I got so lucky. He gave me a dog, and tied the ring to the bow. I just… Oh and his eyes! Amanda, he has eyes you could sink into."
"Okay, Lady Di." She chuckled a bit.
"I can't believe you're old enough to remember that."
"I'm not that young, Liv."
They shared a chuckle and smiled. "We got a little planning done last night. We have a date set, colors picked out, and our wedding song."
Amanda smiled. "I'm happy for you."
She smiled and looked up at her. "Amanda, would you be one of my bridesmaids?"
Amanda's jaw dropped and she nodded. "Yeah, I'd be honored."
Olivia got up and hugged her. "Thank you."
Amanda hugged her back. Two years ago, this woman was just her hero, someone she'd kill to meet. Now here she was, two years later, this woman was her friend and she was going to be in her wedding. She never imagined this would happen. "It's really an honor for me."
Olivia smiled and looked at her. "I view you as a little sister. I don't have a lot of close female friends. I never thought this day would come. He's just… God, it's almost too good to be true."
A/N: I know some of you may be wondering why I didn't touch on the "Why wasn't Liv's apartment cleaned up when CSU was finished with it?" subject, so... here it is. I didn't touch on it because Julie Martin already answered that on Twitter. It wasn't cleaned up because CSU doesn't "clean up" when they're finished. It's not their job. If you remember, in True Believers, Sarah (the victim) asked the same thing ("They don't clean up when they're done?"), and her place was still a mess as well. Olivia, being a detective, KNOWS that CSU doesn't clean up after themselves, and I think the "shock" we saw on Olivia's face in Surrender Benson/Imprisoned Lives, was more one of her being triggered, and trying not to let it get to her too much.
ANYWAYS, I hope you liked it! Thanks for reading! Please review, here or on Twitter UnbrokenBarista :) Next chapter: Do they get the house? Who else will be in the bridal party? Liv tells Cragen she's pregnant, AND we find out WHERE the Bensidy wedding will take place!