DISCLAIMER: I do not own Fairy Tail..if I did natsuXlucy will be cannon.
HEAVEN CAN WAIT
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"Huh?..what?", suddenly sitting upright I am confused as to how I ended up in my bed.
I must have collapsed after a while and Loki must have tucked me in. At least he had enough self-preservation instincts to leave my clothes as they were. Thus reasoning to myself I start getting ready to leave for the mission with the Shadow Gear team.
Trying to stop thinking about the team that left yesterday is not working. With my thoughts running in circles I wonder…I wonder how they are doing. I wonder if they miss me. Unbidden, images of Lisanna being able to handle her opponent with ease, Erza and Gray agreeing that Lisanna was more useful and fun that I am, Natsu and Lisanna cuddling...
The urge to cry overpowers my senses yet again. My heart seems to have lodged itself in my throat. The room blurs through my tears. Natsu. I sink to my knees and cry. Natsu. The loneliness seems more oppressive than ever; it seems to tear my heart and make me whole body shake. Natsu. Am I that easy to push aside? Natsu. Do I mean so little to you? Natsu. Am I that easy to forget? Natsu. Is this pain forever mine?
Natsu.
I regain control over my limbs with snot all over my hands, my nose and lips swollen and my eyes red and burning. Standing up seems like something I haven't accomplished in a while. With my knees wobbling and holding on to the wall I clean myself up again.
I missed Natsu and Happy more than ever when I saw Jet and Droy waiting for the rest of us in the train station. Buying the tickets and boarding occurred without incident. I almost turned my face away when I saw the way Gazille was taking care of Levi. Just because I am unlucky in love doesn't mean I can't be happy for my friend. Isn't it so easy to say? Smiling at my temporary team I settled into my seat with a book.
As my mind drifts far away, in one single moment of clarity I realise isn't this what love is about? Wanting the person you love to be happy even if that happiness doesn't involve you in it; Even if it involves faking laughter and forcing smiles.
The mission was to stop the creature which was terrorizing the town and stopping them from accessing their water source. The offered reward was 300,000J. Splitting up into two groups-Levi and Gazille-Jet, Droy and me, we set off.
Gazille and Levi were the ones responsible for close combat with the monster. They must really think I am a liability in battle. But it is nice to know that they care.
The only contribution I could make was when the mayor asked us to bury the carcass.
"OPEN! DOOR OF THE MAIDEN! VIRGO"
"So you'll be away for a month?", the Landlady asked as she looked in askance at the small bag Lucy was carrying.
"Yes, I am leaving all my things here and I hope this will be enough to cover the rent till I return",handling over a small pouch with enough Jewels to cover the month's rent Lucy bid farewell to her Landlady
"Where are Happy and Lisanna?" Natsu asked Gray and Erza as he set a log on fire.
"Right here" "Aye" the missing two replied.
"Where were you two? " Erza questioned.
"In the forest" Happy replied as he grabbed a fish.
"I miss the weirdo. It's boring without her"
"Are you sure about this Lucy?"
"Yes master, I need to do this for myself" looking down at the floor she continued "Please don't tell anyone about this. None of the others know"
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