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It took Jane about a minute to react, unfreeze from her spot and make a mad dash for the stairs. "Maura! Maura! Wait!" she ran up the stairs and towards their bedroom. The door was closed. She fought against pushing it open and decided it was smarter in that moment to knock. There was no response from the other side. After knocking a second time, she tentatively opened the door. Maura was sitting on the bed, her back to Jane. Her shoulders were shaking, and Jane could tell she was still crying. "Maura baby, please, let's talk about this. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry; I've been such a bitch lately. I know that… it's just… I have no excuse that will be good enough, I see that now. I've been a real idiot; please forgive me."
She went and knelt in front of a crying Maura and tried to get the blonde to make eye contact with her. Maura, who had been looking at her hands on her lap, looked up slightly and made eye contact with Jane. Her eyes were red and swollen from all the tears. Her heart was breaking because of the situation at hand… she never thought the day would come when they would need time apart like this… and she steeled herself for what she was about to say.
"I forgive you Jane, but that doesn't make this ok, and it certainly doesn't mean that I take back everything I said today. I appreciate your apology, but you still need to think this through. I was completely serious when I told you that you need to really sit down and think about what you're going to do."
"That's just it Maura, don't you see? I don't need to think about it. I want you! I need you in my life! You're my soul mate baby… I love you."
"I love you too Jane, but love just doesn't seem to be enough for you; at least not right now. Will it ever be enough for you again? You said it yourself. This next year and a half is going to be crazy with schedules. What's going to happen to us when you're working all night and I go to school all day? We can't even handle our relationship now, and we spend as much time together as possible! I'm sorry too, but I can't handle this, not right now." She went back to looking at her hands.
"Do you want me to leave?" Jane asked, dejected.
"I'm not going to make you leave, but I'm not going to discuss this any further at this time. This is your home too, this doesn't change that. I just have to do what I need to do, and that's get ready for tomorrow. You can stay or you can go, the decision is yours. Whatever you decide, just think about what I said. Please bébé, REALLY think about it. Take the week to do so… and I'll be waiting for your thoughts on the matter on Friday."
Seeing that there would be no more discussion for that day, Jane rose to her feet, looking depressed as ever. "I'm gonna go to ma's house for a while, and then go to the academy from there. I'll see you next week." She bent down to kiss Maura, who kissed her back. "I love you Maura."
"I love you too Jane."
Jane offered her a small smile, which Maura mirrored, before stepping away from the blonde and exiting the bedroom. She grabbed her bag that had been left in the study and got into her car, ready to have what was sure to be a good ear pulling before she could get advice from her mother.
"Jane! What are you doing here? I thought you and Maura would be visiting next weekend. Come in!" Angela ushered her daughter in the house and towards the living room. "Where's Maura?"
That question broke Jane's resolve and she began cry openly in front of her mother. "She's at home," she got out in broken pieces.
"Oh sweetheart! What's the matter?! What happened?!" Angela put her arm around Jane, who was still crying uncontrollably.
"We had a fight… an argument. She says we need a break."
"She said WHAT?!"
"It's not her fault ma…"
"Jane, what did you do?"
"She was studying, the way she does every Sunday… I was trying to keep busy with watching television and there was nothing to watch so I got annoyed. I picked a fight, it was me. I told her that we didn't spend enough time together and that she was always studying. She said she couldn't do it anymore; that she was doing everything she could and spending as much time as she could and couldn't give anymore than she already did."
"Jane…"
"So she told me to think about our relationship, and what I wanted out of it. She said I should think about what I wanted and if I was willing to see a future between us… that things weren't going to change for a while because of me being in the academy and her still having several years to go in medical school."
Angela sat beside her daughter, listening intently to every word out of the brunette's mouth in an uncharacteristically quiet manner.
Jane had her elbows on her knees and covered her face with her hands. "I don't know what I'm going to do ma… I need her. I love her."
"You need to get your head out of your ass, that's what you need to do!"
"Ma!"
"You know I'm right Jane. I've seen you with her these last couple of months. You two come over here every couple of weeks. I've seen the way she is with you. Maura has been nothing but supportive of you, of your decision to go into the academy and become the cop you want to be. She's been patient. She's been there for you every step of the way… and now you're telling me that you're not giving her the same in return?!"
"It's not fair ma! I barely get to see her, and she's always with her head in a book!"
"Jane Clementine Rizzoli… that's not true and you know it! You've said it yourself, she gives you all of Friday night and all of Saturday… that's not ideal when you have been spending a lot more time together the last few years, but that's what she can give now. You're away working during the week to reach your goal… well she is working all week also to get to her goal; her schedule is just more demanding than yours sweetheart. You have plans, she has plans, but don't you see? Those plans are so that you two can build your life together… they're going to merge down the line."
Jane sat and listened to her mother intently.
"It's not like she isn't giving you any time at all… or that she's cheating on you or spending time with someone else… if I know anything, it's that she loves you… you're her world Jane, that much is clear to anyone who sees the two of you together."
Jane started crying silently again as she listened to her mother.
"Don't screw this up sweetheart… not over something like this. You have your entire lives ahead of you to spend together… this is just temporary. You could do much worse than Maura Isles. She has brought out a completely different person in you Jane, I can see that. I thank her for that. I'm going to support you in whatever you decide, you know that. I'm your mother and I love you… all I ask is that you really think this through before you do something you regret."
"That's very similar to what Maura said," Jane said quietly.
"She's a smart woman," Angela teased.
"God I've screwed this up so badly…" Jane said as she buried her face in her hands again.
"Don't Jane, don't do that. There's nothing gained with you reproaching yourself… just make things right."
Jane did something she usually HATED doing: she leaned over and hugged her mother tightly. "Thank you ma, for the advice… for helping me get my thoughts together."
"You're welcome my baby. Now figure out what you want to do."
"I know what I want and have to do ma… I have a lot of groveling to do and a girl to get back."
My Pats are losing:( I could definitely use some cheering up! Thoughts?
