A/N Ok sorry this has taken so long. I had it written a couple of days ago, but I have just now had time to type it, not that you guys care or anything. I'm pretty sure I said this previously, but I'm going to say it again just because some people need reminding. This story takes place about 100 years after New Moon. Eclipse never happened. Also, pretend that there is no new technology, bands, buildings in Forks, etc. Only the people have changed, ok? Two more things. I have 1700 something hits and 37 reviews. That's kinda sad. Just review for me please! And lastly, I don't own any of this except for Austin, Cami, and Leroy.

Bella's POV

I knew that if this didn't go as I planned for it to, I would pay. He had ripped me once, he could do it again. We ran silently, not quite side by side, to our meadow.

I sat down in the middle of the meadow and curled my knees up to my chest. Edward stayed standing about 5 feet directly behind me. We stayed like this for almost and hour, watching the sun slowly set, and the sky turn dark. It would have been really romantic if it wasn't so awkward.

"So, are we going to just sit here all night, or did you want to talk?" His voice shattered the silence even though it was no more than a whisper. I didn't move or talk, trying to think of how to put this.

He chuckled, "you know, I really wish I could hear your thoughts." I still said nothing. He came and sat next to me and stared into my face intently. I shut my eyes and laid down.

"Sorry Edward. I'm just trying to sort out all my feelings."

He sighed and laid down next to me, our arms teouching. "Would it help if I told you how I feel?" He apparently took my silence as a yes,

"Isabella…Bella, I never stopped loving you. I left because I'm not good enough for you." I shook my head. What lies. "No, Bella, you really don't see yourself clearly. You're like and angel, so perfect and pure. I was, and still am, undeserving. That's why I left, so you could find someone who you could be happy with, be human with, be safe with. That doesn't mean I stopped loving you. I guess now it's to late though. You found someone, just like I planned for you to."

"What!?" I sat up in disbelief, staring down at his pained face.

"Love me? That's bullcrap! If you loved me so much then why the heck did you leave me? Hunh? If Leroy hadn't found me, I would probably have died out in the forest. Now you want me to come running back into your arms?"

"No. I didn't expect you to come running to me. I can see why you love Leroy. I'll just go now.

He stood up slowly and loped back towards the forest. "Edward, wait." He stopped, almost as if wondering if I had really said that.

I stood up and walked over to him. He still hadn't turned around. I put my hand on his shoulder, he flinched at the touch. I turned him around to face me. He stared down at my shoes, avoiding my gaze.

"Edward, look at me please?" He still didn't move. I lifted his chin upward with my finger. His face was so sad, he would be bawling if he were human.

"I get it Bella. You love him. Please don't rub it in, I don't think I'll be able to take it. We'll leave Forks, stay out of your life. You'll never… have to see us again." I could see how much it hurt him to say that. His breaths were coming short and ragged. He got quieter and quieter, until he almost mouthed the last line.

He reached up grabbed my hand from where it still held his chin up, and lowered it to my side, then turned and resumed his walk towards the forest.

"What if I want you in my life? I didn't mean those things I said before, I just had a little bit of anger I had to vent. I was more angry at myself then I was at you. I always marveled at how you could love me, an ordinary human girl, while you were a sight of breathtaking beauty, a vampire.

"I was so torn up after you left, I wasn't even myself anymore. I attempted suicide once, while they were out hunting, because I couldn't take the pain. Like I said though, I was more mad at myself for thinking I could hold your affection for even that long and then let it ruin my life when I found out I couldn't, then I was at you for leaving.

"Leroy might have saved me, but he's no more then a close friend, much as he may wish." I apused. "You still have my heart."

"What?" He turned around, amazed and confused. This was not what he thought he would hear. This is not what I had planned to sya, but my heart won over my mind and there was no turning back now.

"Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, I love you."

He jumped and ran to me, picking me up and twirling us around the meadow. I had never seen him in such high spirits before. At the break of dawn, he finally settled down. We both laid down next to each other, this time my head rested on his shoulder/

He rolled me up so I was laying on his chest. I propped up my elbows on his chest and held my head up with my hands.

"Unh, unh, unh. That's not what I had in mind." He moved my arms and pulled my head down to his. He stared into my eyes and waited for a moment, just like the first time, then he kissed me.

It started out slow, careful, exactly as I remembered it, then he realized I wasn't breakable any more. He grabbed my back, holding me to him, almost as if to keep me from leaving. There was no need though, I wasn't going anywhere.

My hands greedily ran through his hair as he rolled us over. His scent still made me dizzy. I broke away, with quite a bit of difficulty. His eyes were black and he moaned, almost growled, as I slipped out from underneath him.

"Come on. We've got to get to school."

"Oh, do we." His voice was low and rough, but still music to my ears. His tone, questioned, and mocked, me

"Yes, we do." I took off running, knowing he would follow.

A/N Sorry it that got a little scandalous, but it was sotra needed. It shouldn't happen again, but I'm not making any promises. I also have a little problem. For my next chapter, should I rewrite this chapter in Edwards POV or move on? It's your decision. I need votes!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to start writing Friday morning, so you have until then. Thankx for reading!!!!