A/N Ok I'm so sorry for taking so long. You guys voted for the last chapter in Edwards POV so that's what this chapter is, in case it sounds familiar. Also, by the time the next chapter is up the title will be changed to Jealous Much? Just a heads up. Thankx dazzle1901 for beta-ing. I luv ya!

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Edwards POV

Bella left the house running. I could have kept pace with her, but I ran a little behind instead. She ran right to our meadow.

How ironic. Our first "date" and last. I knew I didn't deserve her, but I still wanted her. When I came back to reality, I realized she was sitting in the middle of our meadow, curled into a ball.

I wanted so badly to go sit by her, or hold her in my lap, comfort her. How do you comfort someone when you're the reason they need comforting? I settled with standing behind her, only about 5 feet, close enough to feel connected to her, far enough to give her some space.

I felt oddly grateful that she was going to end it out here, away from everyone. They would probably find out, eventually, anyway. Alice had most likely seen it already. A light bulb went on in my head. She knew what was going to happen.

The sun sunk lower and lower into the sky, casting a beautiful pinkish glow on everything. It had been over and hour and Bella still hadn't said anything. I wish she would get it over with.

I couldn't stand the silence anymore. "So, are we just going to sit here all night or did you want to talk?" It was hardly more than a whisper, but I detected an undertone of malice and I chastised myself for it. No need to get her more angrier.

She made no indication that she heard me. I still couldn't read her mind and I still wished I could. I chuckled; hopefully it would lighten up the mood. "You know, I really wish I could read your mind." She still said nothing. I wished Jasper were here so I could at least tell what she was felling.

I gave up and keeping my distance. This might be the last time I see her, I wasn't going to spend it standing 5 feet away. I went and sat down next to her. I scrutinized her face, searching for any clue as to how this night would end. She closed her eyes under my penetrating gaze and laid down, almost like she needed more distance from me. I could understand that, but it still pained me.

"Sorry Edward. I'm just trying to sort out all my feelings." I was right about Jasper, and it looks like I wasn't the only one who needed him.

I laid down next to her, our arms touching. "Would it help it I told you how I feel?" She didn't say anything. Telling her this might make it worse, but I couldn't stand keeping her in the dark, thinking that I didn't love her.

"Isabella…Bella, I never stopped loving you, I left because I'm not good enough for you." She shook her head and I could almost hear her eyes rolling. How could she believe the lie so easily and no accept the truth? "No Bella, you really don't see yourself clearly. You're like and angel, so perfect and pure. I was, and still am, undeserving. That's why I left. So you could find someone you could be happy with, be human with, be safe with. That doesn't mean I stopped loving you. I guess now it's to late though. You found someone just like I planned for you to." I stopped my little monologue. I could tell she still didn't believe me, but it was worth a try.

"What!?" She sat up, looking down at me in anger, like I was an idiot. A part of me wished, and hoped, her next words would be, 'I still love you.' My brain knew that wasn't what was coming. I braced myself for impact.

"Love me? That's bullcrap! If you loved me so much then why the heck did you leave me? Hunh? If Leroy hadn't found me, I would probably have died out in the forest. Now you want me to come running back into your arms?"

"No. I didn't expect you to come running to me. I can see why you love Leroy. I'll just go now." I stood and made my way slowly to the forest. I had been expecting this, but it still hurt.

"Edward, wait." I might be crazy, but my imagination isn't that good. It had to have been Bella. My mind screamed at me to keep going, but my heart told me stay, obey her last wish. I went with my heart.

She grasped my shoulder. I hadn't realized she had walked over and it scared me. I still didn't turn around, afraid it was mind playing tricks on me. She turned me around, I went willingly, but kept my eyes down, afraid of what answers I would find in her face.

"Edward, look at me please?" I wanted to so bad, but I couldn't take anymore pain. She pushed my face up a little. I tried not to make eye contact, but slipped. Her eyes were happy for a bit. She liked hurting me like this. That sent another wave of pain though me.

"I get it Bella. You love him. Please don't rub it in." I won't be able to take it, I thought to myself silently. "We'll leave Forks, stay out of your life. You'll never have to see us again." It killed me to make that promise, but who knows what she would have said. That could have been worse.

Even though I didn't have to breathe, it was difficult. My lungs just didn't want to work. I needed to leave, find someplace where I would be free to go to pieces privately. I lowered her hand back to her side and headed back towards the forest.

"What if I want you in my life?" She paused, then continued on, her voice gaining volume and speed. "I didn't mean those things I said before, I just had a little bit of anger I had to vent. I was more angry at myself then I was at you. I always marveled at how you could love me, an ordinary human girl, while you were a sight of breathtaking beauty, a vampire.

"I was so torn up after you left, I wasn't even myself anymore. I attempted suicide once, while they were out hunting, because I couldn't take the pain. Like I said though, I was more mad at myself for thinking I could hold your affection for even that long and then let it ruin my life when I found out I couldn't, then I was at you for leaving.

"Leroy might have saved me, but he's no more then a close friend, much as he may wish." She paused, concentrating on something. This was not what I was expecting. It was a miracle. "You still have my heart."

"What?" I turned back around. Had she really said that or did I not hear her correctly/

"Edward Anthony Masen Cullen, I love you."

Oh my goodness! I couldn't believe it. I jumped for joy and ran to her, feeling ecstatic.

I grabbed her and we danced around the meadow. I had never been this happy in my life. After a while, I settled down and we laid next to each other. Her head rested on my shoulder.

I wanted her so bad right now. She didn't have any blood in her, but her smell was till overpowering. And her beauty. There was no word for it. I decided to try something. It would be risky, but I was feeling lucky tonight.

I rolled her up onto my chest. She propped her head up, putting more distance between us then I wanted.

"Unh, unh, unh. That's not what I had in mind." Something flasher in her eyes that I couldn't detect. I did notice a smile creeping onto her lips, though.

I pulled her head down to mine and hesitated. Was I doing the right thing? Did she want to take it slower? Did she lie to me and was I actually just going to be her plaything that she dumped in a week or so? If so, then this kiss would just make the hole bigger when she left. I decided to go for it.

The feel of her lips against mine was amazing. Wait just a second. She was a vampire! Bella's safety rules no longer applied. I crushed my lips to her and she responded. Her hand knotted in my hair. Her touch made my brain dizzy. I thought I would never see her again and here I was kissing her for all I was worth.

To soon for my liking, she slid out from under me, her eyes sparkling. I moaned. I wanted her, needed her.

"Come on. We've got to go to school/"

School, school. One day wouldn't kill us

"Oh do we?"

"Yes we do." With that, she took off running. I followed.

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