DISCLAIMER: I do not own Fairy Tail..if I did natsuXlucy WILL BE cannon

HEAVEN CAN WAIT

Where my dreams are

Lucy stood motionless with her hand outstretched and key in hand. She was frozen halfway through summoning. She didn't know whether she could face any of her spirits now. From Loki's letter it seemed that none of them were happy with her decisions or actions. Am I so selfish? I feel more alone than ever. I just wanted someone on my side for just this once-

In the Fairy Tail guild Erza was sitting at the bar nursing a drink while MiraJane stood wiping a glass in contemplation. MiraJane didn't know how she felt yet about Erza leaving Happy, her sister and the flame dragon slayer to trek their way back. She had a feeling it would not end well. She didn't want to chastise Erza as Mira knew she meant well. But she had to know that Lucy-

"Are you not going to talk to me Mira?", Erza asked with a half-pout that anyone else wouldn't have been able to see.

Mira stilled her hands. "Are you sure what you did is right? I mean Lisanna is still confused about Natsu. She doesn't know the person he has become now. She definitely doesn't know how Lucy and Natsu feel about each other. I am doubtful whether Natsu has figured out how he feels!"

"I thought it would reduce the confusion. The best way to solve a problem would be to confront it", Erza said logically.

"It's my baby sister you are talking about", Mira started shaking in anger.

Erza set her glass down with deliberate calmness and asked, "So you think I don't care about Lisanna?"

Mira softened looking at the hurt in Erza's eyes which was almost overshadowed by the more obviously visible anger. "I don't want her to get hurt. I am just worried"

"Mira, I think you know as well as I do that Lisanna is going to understand sooner or later about what Natsu feels for Lucy. I thought sooner the better... before she really starts developing feelings for him again"

"You think she hasn't started liking him yet?"

"Is the self-proclaimed cupid of Fairy Tail asking me of all people?"

"I'd tend to be biased because it's Lisanna…and you know it"

Erza shook her head with a half-smile, "I don't think she realises this but she is trying to put things as they were before she left. It's more about fitting in. so where is Lucy?"

I am done living my life waiting for approval but is Loki really right about my reasons for trip? Am I doing the wrong thing?

"DAMN YOU LOKI!", Lucy screamed attracting the attention of other passer-by on the street. Without waiting to see a few start to edge away from her she stormed back to the hotel mumbling obscenities under breath.

Lucy sat on a stone bench in the courtyard, slowly relaxing from her foul mood. Tracing a large curling 'N' on the space beside her, she absentmindedly smiled. Natsu, I want you to be happy. I know you care, you always have. I am the problem-I care and want more than I should. If I come back now, everyone'll realise why I left. I don't want to sour your relationship with Lisanna due to guilt.

"OPEN! GATE OF THE MAIDEN! VIRGO"

"Is it time for punishment, princess?"

"No.. I just want you to tell me whether you all agree with the letter's point of view"

"Princess as my owner I should tell you what you ask but please talk to Leo about this. We only did what we did because we care"

"Don't I need to become stronger Virgo?"

"Let's practise with the celestial whip for a while princess"

Lucy looked away from Virgo. It seemed Loki had covered his bases well, if Virgo refused to tell her she doubted any of the other spirits will.

After a gruelling few hours Lucy lay on the ground soaked with sweat. Virgo had provided a good target; one that held the element of surprise but yet protecting Lucy from getting bruised. Sitting down for dinner, Lucy rested her cheek on the palm of her hand and observed Virgo for a minute before asking "don't you ever get bored of wearing the maid outfit?"

"What do you mean princess?"

At this point their conversation was interrupted by the waiter talking their order. Lucy continued "Do you like wearing the maid outfit?"

"I feel like myself in it and I feel it expresses my personality well. Not to mention it helps when the princess wants to go undercover", Virgo said with a straight face.

Happy and Natsu entered the guild and immediately made a beeline towards the bar. Lisanna entered a moment later, seeing her hyper companions jumping about, she shook her head and went to hug her brother who was waving to her from across the room.

Natsu and Happy looked around for Lucy. Natsu deduced that she wasn't and hadn't been to the guild for a while, her scent was quite stale. Scratching his head in confusion Natsu asked "Macau, have you seen Lucy around lately?"

"I don't think I have Natsu. Come to think of it Erza was throwing a tantrum regarding it.. i think. Sorry I can't tell you more but it seemed best to stay away from her when she was in such a bad mood"

"Thanks Macau". Natsu's face looked troubled "Happy! Come on! We have an errand to run"

AN: sorry for the late..very late update. Thank you so much for reading! Please do review with your suggestions and feedback!

Thank you yet again for the reviews and the addition to your alerts/favourite stories/ author.. It made me want to keep writing instead of being a lazy bum (I am scared I am making the story very cliché)

A special heartfelt Thank you to all my reviewers for all the wonderful reviews! They make me smile every time I see them. I promise to have my next update ready soon (is it good enough to continue?)