I wake up the next morning feeling worse than ever. I feel like a coward. My fear taking the best of last night in my attempt of self intimacy, if that's what you would call it. I threw the vibrator across the room and into the closet. I want my life to go back to normal.
I get dressed and walk out to the living room where Christina is waiting for me.
"Hey Tris."
"Hey"
"Four stopped by while you were asleep. He asked if you were here-'
"Did you say yes?"
"Well, he looked so desperate, so yeah I did. But I wouldn't let him in. He said to give you this." She hands me a folded piece of paper that I hold and just stare at for a minute. I unfold it and read.
Tris,
I can't tell you how sorry I am. I love you more than anything or anyone in the world. I wasn't thinking when I went into that apartment with Molly. You had gotten me so worked up and I didn't think we were going to do something like that anytime soon. I realize now that I was being selfish and stupid, better yet an ass. I'd ask to take you back, and I am, and you have every reason to never even speak to me again. I just want you to know that I love you. -Tobias
I re-read the note several times to process it.
"I'm really sorry Tris. I can't imagine what you're feeling right now."
"Let's just go to breakfast, I want to just clear my mind." We head towards breakfast and talk about what we're going to today. We both decide we'll go help with the infirmary again. We walk into breakfast, and Tobias is standing just feet in front of me. He turns and sees me and Christina in the door, He runs up and firmly holds my face in his hands and kisses me. I squirm but his grip stays.
"Stop! Four let go!" Christina is trying to pry him off of me. I push him off and slap him across the face.
"Who do you think you are? You think kissing me will magically make up for what you did?"
"Tris please just listen to what I have to say."
"I read your note, what are we? Sixth graders putting notes in each others lockers?"
"I needed some way to show you-"
I was so enraged, so angry that he had the nerve to do all of this. "Show we what? How sorry you were that you slept with Molly while we were in a "happy" relationship? You can take your note and get out of my life." I push past him and pull Christina along with me through the line.
"Wow Tris. You're a lot stronger than people give you credit for."
"Not me. I knew she was strong all along." I turn around and see him standing there.
Evan