Okay, chapter 32 is here. Just a little note, if you don't know what "jujjing" means, it's slang in New York and New Jersey (where I'm from) it means a few things. If you're talking about your whole person, it means to dress up and look snazzy. If you're talking about your hair (in this case) it means to run your fingers through it and mess it up a little, giving it a little volume and texture while still having it look neat and styled. I don't know of another word to more accurately describe what Olivia was doing to her hair, so...
Here it is, Chapter 32
Olivia and Amanda were in Victoria's Secret getting a few pieces for Olivia's honeymoon, and they picked out Olivia's outfit for her wedding night. It was a white lace bra and panty set; it had purple bows in strategic places, and on the back of the boy shorts was a small veil. She looked over herself and smiled. "With my wedding shoes…perfect." She whispered and changed back into her own undergarments and put her clothes back on before walking out of the changing room.
Amanda smiled; a few things she picked out for herself were in her hands. "Find it?"
Olivia nodded. "Brian is going to lose his mind when he sees me in these." She laughed. "Then again he loses his mind seeing me in tight jeans, so…" They shared a giggle and walked up to the counter, paying for their purchases and then walked out of the store, their bags in hand. "Want to grab some lunch? I haven't gotten a call from Bri yet asking me to come home to change the baby, so I'm assuming that he's doing okay with her."
"I could go for a bite to eat." She smiled and they walked to a nearby diner, sitting in a booth.
Olivia took a deep breath. "Amanda, I want to give you something. Just… hear me out okay?" She took a box out of her pocket and slid it across the table.
Amanda furrowed her brow and looked at the box and then up at Olivia who nodded. "Liv, what did you do?" She opened the box and gasped, covering her mouth, feeling the tears spring to her eyes. "Liv, what…?" She held the gold 'Fearlessness' pendant between her fingers.
"I wear mine all the time, Amanda. I've worn it for a long time. After everything you've overcome, everything you're working through now, you deserve it. It's an incredible reminder. Sometimes, when I feel hopeless, helpless, like I just want to give up… I take it in my hand, and it just… it's like it radiates strength." She whispered softly, trying to keep her tears at bay. She reached across the table and took her hand. "It's going to get easier, Amanda. You just need to… keep holding on, believe."
Amanda bit the inside of her bottom lip. "Thank you, Liv. I…" She shook her head and looked down at the necklace. "I can't thank you enough. This means so much."
Olivia smiled. They ate and had friendly conversation, bringing home lunch for Brian. They walked in the house and smiled, seeing Brian walking around, bouncing Charlie. "Bri." She walked over to him and kissed him softly. "I love seeing you like this."
"Like what?"
"In Daddy mode." She kissed him again. "I'm going to hide my lingerie. I'll be back down in a minute; we can talk about our dinner plans. Oh, and we brought you lunch." Her lips formed a smile, and she ran upstairs, hiding the lingerie in the closet, and taking out a little number she bought so she didn't tease him too much. It was a simple, chocolate brown lace bra and panty set, with a light pink ribbon that ran through the boarders. She slid into her tightest pair of jeans and a low cut top and walked back downstairs.
Brian saw her come back downstairs and his jaw dropped. She swayed her hips as he walked up to him and kissed him gently. "Hi," he whispered when he pulled away.
"Hi," she whispered, noticing Amanda wasn't around and neither was Calvin. She took a now sleeping Charlie from his arms and set her down in her bassinet. As soon as she put her down she felt Brian's hands pull her back against his body. She let out a breathy moan and smiled.
"You're such a fucking tease, baby," he growled in her ear, making sure there was no space between his hips and hers.
She let out a moan and moved her hips against his, grinding hard against him, feeling his erection against her ass. "Mm, you like?"
He seethed, turning her around and pinning her to the wall, his lips crashing hard into hers, his hand skimming over her hip under her shirt. She moaned into his mouth, pulling him closer and biting on his bottom lip. He broke the kiss. "Fuck, these jeans, this top. You look fucking incredible and I want you so bad.
She smirked. "Wait until later, when you see what's underneath." She giggled and winked, running her hands down his chest.
"You're going to let me see you in something you got for our honeymoon?" he asked, biting on her neck.
She gasped and arched her back. "Mm, not a chance."
"That sexy little red number you wore the other night?"
She bit her bottom lip and shook her head. "Uh-uh." She smiled. "I picked up something to wear before the wedding, so I didn't torture you too much."
He buried his face in her neck and groaned. "Dear fuck."
She giggled. "That will come later my love. Right now we have to figure out our dinner plans."
He gently bit her neck and she moaned. "I could eat you for dinner."
She smirked. "I'm your dessert." She kissed him again. "Now, what if we took out our best man and maid of honor for dinner as a thank you?"
"You think they're going to think it's a set up?"
Olivia shrugged. "First of all your brother has eyes for Amanda like no other, and I think the feeling is mutual. Besides, they are the ones standing by us on our wedding day, it's a thank you."
Brian smiled and kissed her gently. "I'll text Doom, you get Amanda on board."
She smiled. "Deal, and I'll get Nick or Fin to come over and watch the kids." Brian kissed her again and pulled out his phone, calling Doom. Olivia went upstairs to the nursery; she knew that was where Amanda went when she needed some time to herself. She knocked on the door. "Amanda?"
Olivia heard her sniffle and her soft voice say. "Come in."
She opened the door and walked over and sat next to her on the floor. "What's going on?"
"I just feel… stuck, you know? Like I can't escape it."
She nodded. "I get it. Well, I think I may have the solution. Brian and I wanted to take you and Doom out."
"Liv, I don't really think I want to go out on a date."
"It's not a date; it's just a thank you. You're my maid of honor and Doom is Brian's best man. It's just a thank you from us."
"Brian and Doom are that close?" She asked, confusion filling her eyes.
Olivia chuckled. "Well, luckily they are. They're brothers… half-brothers, but still."
Amanda nodded. "I thought they looked alike."
"They are both incredibly good looking." She smiled. "I'll do your hair and make-up for you."
Amanda looked up at her before rolling her eyes and smiling. "Alright."
Olivia hugged her. "Come on, let's go find out where we're going to eat so we can figure out what to wear."
They walked downstairs, just in time to see Brian put the phone down. "Doom's in." Brian smiled gently at Amanda. "Hey, how are you feeling?"
"A little better knowing we aren't staying in tonight." She smiled gently. "So, where do we want to go?"
Olivia looked at the two of them. "107 West, over on Broadway, I hear they're pretty good. Casual so we don't need to go crazy getting dressed up, just a nice night out with friends, some good food and good drinks."
Amanda and Brian nodded. "Sounds good, have Doom come over here and we'll all head over together?" Brian suggested.
Olivia smiled. "Sounds great," she kissed him gently. "Leave here around 6:30 and we'll get there by 7?"
Everyone nodded in agreement. Brian sent a quick text to Doom, letting him know the whole plan and Olivia sent a text to Fin, asking him if he could watch Charlie for a little while, while they went out. Brian smiled. "Doom said he'd be here between 5:45 and 6, give us a little time to talk, have a glass of wine before we leave."
Olivia smiled. "Perfect." She looked at Amanda. "Come on, let's go get ready." They walked back upstairs, and into the bathroom. Olivia heated up the curling iron and took her make up bag out, along with Amanda's. "Okay, so what were you thinking of wearing?"
"Jeans… a shirt." Amanda said as her brow furrowed.
Olivia smiled. "Come on, let's go pick out the outfit."
"Why? Liv, can't I do that later?"
"So I can do your make-up." She smiled gently. "You can wear the jeans you have on; we just need to find a top. Smart casual, is what they call it now, I think." They went through Amanda's bag and found a silky peach top to go along with her jeans. "This is perfect. Come on; let's get your hair and make-up done. Doom is going to be here soon." She teased, seeing Amanda blush slightly.
They walked back into the bathroom and Olivia curled Amanda's hair, giving her bouncy, beachy waves and then doing her make-up, covering her bruises and cuts and adding some color to her cheeks and a light pink gloss to her lips. "Go get changed, I'm just going to touch up my make-up, we'll go see the boys together."
Olivia did just that, adding a little more eyeliner, some mascara and some dark pink lip gloss and jujjed her hair a little, adding a little hairspray and she smiled. She walked out to see Amanda coming out, changed into the peach shirt and nude heels. Amanda smiled at her. "You look incredible, Liv."
Olivia smiled. "You look great too, Amanda." She hugged her. "Let me grab my shoes and we'll head down. I hear Doom." She giggled and ran in the bedroom, grabbing her black patent leather heels and slipped into them. She walked back out and smiled. "Come on."
They walked downstairs and into the kitchen, seeing Brian and Doom turn towards them. Brian just smiled at her as she walked over to him and slid into his arms. "Hey there gorgeous," Brian wrapped an arm around her waist as he pulled her in for a quick, but passionate kiss.
She moaned softly. "Mm. Hi." She winked and looked over at Doom. "Hey Doom, I'm glad you could join us."
Doom finally tore his eyes from Amanda and looked at Olivia. "Of course, wouldn't miss the chance to see you guys. Speaking of, where is my beautiful niece?"
"Her bassinette, napping," Olivia responded, seeing Amanda look from Doom to her. Olivia smiled. "Amanda, you really look stunning in peach." Pulling Doom's focus back to Amanda.
"Peach is definitely your color, Rollins," Doom complimented, putting his hands in his pockets to resist the urge to caress her face.
Amanda bit her bottom lip. "You can call me Amanda, Doom."
He nodded. "Amanda."
Olivia smiled as she walked over to the bassinet to pick up Charlie, holding her close. "Oh, mama's baby girl," she kissed the top of her head. "You want to see Uncle Doom?" She walked over and handed off her daughter to Doom, who brought her close.
"My perfect little niece."
Amanda looked at Doom and felt the butterflies in her stomach, but she closed her eyes. Olivia walked to the cabinet and pulled down four wine glasses. "Okay, red or white?" Olivia poured everyone a glass of red wine and they all lifted it. "To an amazing night, with amazing friends," they clinked glasses and took a sip.
Charlie started to cry. "She needs to be changed," Brian smiled. "I got it." Brian took Charlie from his brother, up to the nursery to change her.
Olivia watched him as he walked away, then she looked over at Doom and Amanda. "You look nice tonight Doom." She noticed his black button down shirt, tucked into his dark wash jeans.
He nodded. "You're not too bad on the eyes yourself tonight Benson." He smirked and took a sip of his wine.
"I'm going to be your sister in three months."
"Hey, you started it."
Olivia rolled her eyes. "You had a tone."
Amanda looked at Doom. "You did. Then again, you always have that tone in your voice." She smirked, feeling a little more relaxed.
"And what tone might that be?"
Amanda shrugged. "You have this way of speaking, low and husky. It's… well… sexy." She bit her bottom lip and looked down at her feet, blushing.
Olivia heard the doorbell. "That's Fin. I'll be back."
Amanda's eyes rose to meet Doom's to see him right in front of her. She gasped, feeling his lips on hers and she stiffened for a moment, not expecting it, but once she relaxed and started to kiss him back she felt incredible. She wasn't sure if it was the wine, she had just been raped, but something about Doom just made her feel safe.
Doom broke the kiss gently and caressed her face, their foreheads resting together. "That was…"
Amanda cut him off with her fingertips. "I know." She smiled gently, the two jumped apart when they heard Olivia's heels approaching them.
Olivia smiled at them and had Fin come in behind her. Fin smiled at Amanda. "Hey, Rollins, how you holding up?"
Amanda smiled gently and shrugged her shoulders. "Okay I guess. Liv has helped a lot. Probably more than she knows." She looked over at Olivia.
Fin smiled and gave her a soft hug. Olivia walked over to the stairs. "Babe, Fin is here to take care of the kids," she called up.
Brian emerged from the nursery with a smile on his face, Charlie in his arms. He walked downstairs and met her at the bottom with a passionate kiss. She let a small moan into the kiss; he broke the kiss and whispered in her ear. "You are so sexy."
She closed her eyes and let her mouth fall open. "Mm, come on, we should get everyone together and get going," she whispered and kissed him again quickly. She smiled as she pulled away and looked at Charlie. "God she's so perfect," she whispered and kissed their daughter's head. She picked her up and held her close to her chest. "My angel."
Brian watched his fiancée and daughter and he couldn't help but smile. He saw her smiling at him. "She's got you for a mama, why wouldn't she be perfect?" he asked in a whisper.
They walked back in to see Fin, Doom, and Amanda all talking. Fin turned to see them. "There's the little one," he smiled and took her from Olivia. "Hi pretty girl," he said with a smile.
Olivia rested against Brian and beamed at Fin. "You are such a teddy bear."
He looked at her. "Yeah, well, don't go saying that too loud. I have a reputation to uphold." They shared a chuckle.
"Thanks for watching the kids, Fin." She kissed his cheek and smiled at Charlie. "You be a good girl for Uncle Fin." She looked up at him. "All her diapers and stuff are in the nursery, and there's some breast milk in the fridge." Fin arched an eyebrow, and she giggled. "I pump for times like these. You're welcome for the visual."
Fin nodded. "Have fun, baby girl."
"Thanks, Fin. Calvin is up in his room playing video games, if you wanted to go check it out. And we actually have food in the fridge."
Fin hugged her again. "I got it, go ahead."
The four other adults walked out to the car, Brian and Olivia sat in front, Doom and Amanda sat in back. Brian rested his hand on Olivia's thigh and she smiled over at him, stealing kisses at red lights, feeling him squeeze her thigh every once in a while.
In the back of the car, Amanda and Doom talked quietly. "So, can I ask what Fin was talking about before? He asked if you were okay, did something happen?"
Amanda took a deep breath and closed her eyes. "Um, about a week ago, my ex broke into my apartment and raped me."
Doom felt his mouth go dry. "My God, Amanda, I had no idea. I'm sorry if that kiss made you feel uncomfortable, or triggered anything."
Amanda smiled gently. "No, not at all, I thought it would at first, but after a few seconds… it was nice. I felt safe."
He smiled and slid his hand across the back seat, taking her hand in his, gently caressing the back of her hand. "I'm glad."
She laced their fingers together. "Me too."
Brian stopped at a red light and reached over the console, pulling Olivia in to a passionate kiss. She melted and moaned into his mouth. He only stopped when he heard the car behind him honk its horn, signaling him to go. It only took a few more minutes to get to the restaurant. Brian parked and everyone climbed out of the car. Brian walked around and took Olivia's hand in his and kissed her softly.
Doom stepped out of the car and walked inside with his hand on the small of Amanda's back. They were seated and placed their orders, not surprisingly the four of them all ordered the grilled ancho rubbed skirt steak with mango salsa and mashed potatoes. They ate, talked, laughed, and had a few drinks.
When they finished dinner they ordered dessert. Brian and Olivia split a chocolate mousse layer cake, feeding each other bites and smiling, stealing kisses. It wasn't often they were cute like this, at least not out of the privacy of their bedroom. Maybe it was the wine; maybe it was the fact that they were getting married in just a few months. All they knew is that keeping their hands off of each other was getting harder and harder as time passed.
Amanda just smiled at them, taking a bite of the raspberry tulip she was sharing with Doom. She looked over at him and put her spoon down, resting her hand on his knee. "I'm glad you came out tonight, Doom."
He took his hand in hers and brought it to his lips, gently kissing her knuckles. "I'm glad you did, too. I haven't had this much fun in a while."
She smiled and caressed his face, kissing him softly, feeling his hand on her thigh she gasped and jumped.
Olivia, Brian, and Doom looked at her, Doom's hand coming to rest on her shoulder. "It's okay, I'm sorry."
Amanda shook her head, her eyes wide. She got up and ran to the bathroom. Olivia stood up. "I got her." She followed her to the bathroom and pulled her into a hug, feeling Amanda's sobs wracking her body. "Hey, hey, look at me." She looked into Amanda's eyes. "In through your nose and out your mouth."
Amanda copied Olivia's breathing and eventually calmed down. "I'm sorry, I don't know what happened."
"You had a flashback, it's okay. It happens." She smiled gently and took a tissue, wetting it a little and wiping the eye make-up that was running down her face. "There you go."
Amanda sniffled. "I really like him. He kissed me earlier, and I was fine. He put his hand on my thigh this time. Next thing I knew I could feel Nate; on top of me, in me."
Olivia hugged her again. "It'll get better. We'll get the bastard, Amanda, I promise."
Amanda nodded. "We should get back out there. I don't want them to worry too much."
Olivia smiled and they walked back out to the table, taking their seats. Doom rested a hand on her shoulder. "You okay?" he asked, worry evident in his eyes.
She smiled and nodded. "Yeah."
"Amanda I'm sorry, I didn't mean to cross a boundary."
She shook her head. "Hey, it's okay," she whispered. "I guess I'm still learning my triggers."
Olivia looked at Brian and rested her head on his shoulder. "I love you," she whispered, looking up at him.
He smiled down at her. "I love you, too." He tilted her face up and kissed her gently. When they finished their desserts they headed home. When they walked in the door, Brian growled in Olivia's ear and she giggled.
"I'm gonna go let Fin know we're back." She winked and kissed Brian, feeling his hand on her ass. "Patience, baby," she whispered against his lips. She looked at Amanda. "We're kinda tired, so we're probably going to go to sleep. Holler if you need anything." She hugged her and then looked at Doom. "Nice to see you, Doom." She gave him a hug before walking up the stairs, feeling Brian's eyes on her ass as she walked. She heard Fin and Calvin laughing from his room and she knocked before opening the door.
Fin smiled at her. "Hey, baby girl."
"Hey, I just wanted to let you know we were back, I can see you two are having fun."
"Yeah, I put Charlie down to sleep about an hour ago, I have the baby monitor on, Calvin and I have been playing Call of Duty. Little man is pretty damn good."
Olivia smiled and laughed. "Okay, well you two have fun, Dad and I are going to bed, sweetie; let us know if you need anything."
Fin smirked and answered. "You got it, Ma."
Olivia rolled her eyes. "Ass." She closed the door again and walked into the bedroom. She smiled at Brian who was sitting on the bed. She closed and locked the door.
Brian got up and pulled her close and started kissing her neck. She gasped and let out a soft moan. "Do I get to see now?"
Olivia smirked and pulled back. "Sit down." She winked, watching him walk back to the bed and sit. She kicked off her heels and turned around, her back to him as she slipped her shirt off over her head, tossing it to the side. She looked at him over her shoulder and smirked. She turned around, her thumbs in the waistband of her jeans, her head tilted to the side.
Brian let out a groan. "Fuck."
She popped open the button on her jeans, bringing the zipper down, pushing them down over her hips, peeling the tight denim off her legs. She kicked them off and looked at him with a smile, giving him a come hither look, crooking her finger at him.
He was up and had his arms around her in two seconds, running his hands over her silky skin, looking into her eyes, grabbing her ass.
She let out a groan and gripped at his shirt pulling him in to a passionate kiss. She broke the kiss and smiled, breathless. "God, you have me so wet, baby."
He smirked and ran his fingers up and down her slit, over her panties, feeling her arousal through the lace, earning a moan from her. "I want these off, now," he whispered to her in a gruff, passion filled voice, his hand coming to grip her panties in a fist. He started to bite on her collar bone. He would bite and suck on a spot for a few moments, then soothe it with kisses and a swipe of his tongue.
She let out a groan, throwing her head back and pressing her hips against his, feeling his steel hard length against her thigh. "You're a little too overdressed for this occasion, no?" She bit her bottom lip and started to unbutton his shirt, pushing it off his shoulders as soon as it was fully open. She unbuttoned and unzipped his jeans, pushing them over his hips along with his boxers. "Perfect," she whispered against his lips, stroking him gently.
He groaned, bucking his hips into her hand, grinding against her. She moaned gently and he slid her panties down her legs. He bent down and picked them up. "Mine," he growled in her ear, biting on the lobe gently.
She nodded. "Yours," she whispered. She felt his hands travel up her back, unhooking her bra and tossing it aside. She felt his lips wrap around her nipple and she gasped, arching her back into his mouth. "Fuck me baby," she begged, biting her bottom lip.
He smirked and picked her up, laying her on the bed. "I could torture you, get you ready to come and back down, keep building you up so your orgasm tonight is earth shattering, or I could fuck you good and hard right now, like I've been wanting to all day, and still get you to an orgasm where you don't know your own damned name."
Olivia gasped at his words. "Fuck, baby, I need you, I'm so ready to come already."
He smirked, just to test out his theory he ran his thumb over her clit, fast and hard. Her hips rocked into his hand as her back arched off the bed and she squeezed the sheets in her hands until her knuckles were white. Her mouth opened in a silent scream. He took her breast in his mouth, rolling her hard nipple between his teeth. He gently pulled then released her breast. "That's it, baby, come on, let it all go." As she hit the peak he thrust into her, earning a high pitched moan from her, which he quickly swallowed with a kiss.
She grabbed onto him and ran her hands over his back, clawing at his skin. She smirked and flipped them over, straddling him. She started to ride him, looking down at him as her hips moved, feeling him meet her thrust for thrust. "Oh, fuck." She seethed and started moving faster and harder, feeling her second orgasm start to rip through her, clenching around his hard dick, stopping his motions.
He smirked and sat up, kissing her, running his hands over her chest, massaging her breasts. "Turn over."
She bit her bottom lip and nodded, slipping off him and turning around, getting down on all fours. She felt him enter her from behind and she groaned. "Oh, fuck, so deep." She fell so her face was resting on the bed. He pulled her up so her back was flush against his chest. He started to play with her clit again as he started to move inside of her.
Their hips moved in perfect rhythm with each other, Brian moving harder and faster, feeling his own climax come on. Olivia moaned and rested her head on his shoulder, reaching her hand back and kissing him passionately, resting her other hand on top of his, forcing him to rub her clit harder. She whimpered into the kiss. "Fuck, baby, I'm gonna come. Come with me baby, fill me with your warm cum," she spoke in a high pitched voice, begging him.
He kissed her neck and felt her muscles contract around him, gasping as he released his seed inside her, moaning her name softly in her ear, pulling her close. As their bodies shook from their orgasms, she let out soft grunts. He placed soft kisses on her shoulder and smiled. "Fuck, Liv."
She giggled and rested her head back against him. "Mm. Thoroughly." She felt him pull her down, laying her down, wrapping them in the blankets. He kissed the back of her head, spooning with her. She let out a sigh of contentment. "Told you you'd like the bra and panty set."
He smiled and ran a hand over her arm. "Liv, you could wear a burlap sack and I would still want to do everything I did to you tonight."
She looked back at him and smiled. "Yeah?"
He nodded. "Yeah." He kissed her gently, pulling her close again. "We should get some sleep."
"Good night, Bri. I love you."
He kissed her shoulder. "I love you too, Liv."
The next morning when they woke up, still wrapped in each other's arms they just smiled. This was perfect. They smelled something. Someone was cooking breakfast. They quickly put pajamas on and walked down to the kitchen to see everyone there. Amanda, Doom, Fin, Calvin, and Charlie resting in Doom's arms as Amanda stood over the stove.
"Ah, it's the love birds."
Olivia smiled. "Amanda, whatever you're making smells absolutely delicious, what is it?"
"Homemade biscuits and sausage gravy, old family recipe," she smiled.
"We had the stuff for that in the house?"
Amanda chuckled. "No, I ran out to the store this morning, I was up early, so I snuck out."
Doom smiled. "Scared the living shit out of me, we talked last night; I stayed and held her as we slept. I woke up and she was gone, I panicked."
Olivia smirked. "You are your brother's brother. Brian's gotten that panic running through his veins, though usually I was in the shower or on the couch with the TV on so I didn't wake him." She looked back at Brian who had his arms around her from behind.
"Yeah, I guess it runs in our blood." He buried his face in her hair.
Olivia smiled. "So, you two are you…"
Amanda blushed a little. "We're talking."
Olivia nodded, turning her attention to Calvin and Fin. "And I assume you two were up late playing video games?"
Calvin nodded. "Fin got tired, 'cause he's old, and zonked out on my floor."
Olivia smirked and walked over to Calvin, kissing the top of his head and speaking gently, as if she meant to be whispering. "He is a little long in the tooth." She giggled when she felt Fin start to tickle her.
"You do realize we're the same age, baby girl, right?"
"Oh, come on it was a joke."
They shared a laugh and breakfast. A morning surrounded by friends and family was just what they needed.
A/N: Thanks for reading, please review here or on Twitter, UnbrokenBarista. Please, no flames. I know a lot of you don't like Amanda, which is fine. My goal is not to make you all like her. I welcome constructive criticism, but rather than flaming my story, I would rather you just stop reading the story, no sweat off my back. Next chapter to be up soon.