Okay...so some good reviews, loving the feed back guys:) Oh and I am currently not replying with my email because I have a virus grrr, so uuuuum I'm going to see if I can't get rid of it and I will let you know how it goes, love you! Ah and you should know any notes I wrote in the story that are in italics were written as I was writing the story- yeah just thought that might be important.

Mistress Slytherin

WARNINGS:

HOMOSEXUAL RELATIONSHIPS

NOT FOR THE EYES OF THE YOUNG

VIOLENT SITUATIONS

BLOODSHED

AU

MAJOR CHARACTER DEATHS

DOMESTIC ABUSE

DOM/SUB HINTS...

Let me know if I missed anything?

PART 1

Chapter 5

Kira's Struggles

(A/N I thought about adding a sex scene but I didn't want to take away from the story line sooo, there might be some later but for now I'll make it vague so use your colorful imaginations for now! Love you all!)

"L this has been going on for three days!" Ide said as the latest statistics were read off to them. Frustration was prominent and the room was thick with tension. Not one of the team members had left the main office area since the first day, they were dirty, exhausted, and getting no where.

"B is a mastermind criminal Ide-san, he knows how to hide himself." L drawled without removing his gaze from the screen. Likewise Light was glued to his own screen with orders from L to find B. They'd used everything they had in their arsenal though, face recognition software, aliases, communication waves- there was nothing. B was literally hiding out somewhere and scribbling name after name without rest and had been doing so for the last three days.

"Kira-ism has officially been recognized as a religion." Aizawa said unhelpfully. "I was hoping that B might take a break and chat with some of these nuts- here look at this, 'If Kira-sama continues to kill off the filthy the unworthy and the immoral then in one year's time one percent of the world's population will be decimated. The earth may begin to be able to support humans again and we will all be saved from extinction- all hail Kira.'" He read off with a sigh.

"Actually that fact is partially true." L said unhelpfully. "Though at the rate he is going it will only take six months approximately- this is of course counting the previous deaths that we can attribute to Kira though it does not include the business men that-"

"We get it L." Mogi said tightly. L blinked up from his computer and stared at Mogi with a wide-eyed look that Light had come to know was just another way for him to hide his more sadistic side. No one could blame someone who didn't seem to understand that he was committing a faux pas. The thought almost made him smile if the situation weren't so serious.

"Well if we can't find him then we need to drag him out." Ide said determinedly his gaze drawn to the screen of his computer. "And I might just have found the person that could do it." He said his gaze turning to Light who felt his lungs seize up.

"No." L said point blank.

"He's right Ide; I can't believe you'd even suggest that." Aizawa said with a scowl. It seemed as though the team had taken a protective stance with Light. Light of course didn't really mind, as long as L was fine with it, he would be fine with it, just another form of punishment to remind him of what he'd done and how far he'd fallen.

"No but think of it, B would seek Light-kun out if he knew Light-kun survived the death note." He said his eyes dark rimmed and red with exhaustion.

"I think maybe you should get some sleep, you're starting to talk nonsense." Mogi said pointedly before returning to his file.

"No seriously, this could be our chance to catch him and stop these killings!"

"Or get Light-kun killed." Mogi snarled incredulously.

"Light-kun you want this to end don't you? You want to catch Kira and destroy him don't you? All you would have to do is make an appearance! We could set up an interview, have a whole SWAT team there just in case!" Light was tense, true he wanted to kill B and destroy Kira once and for all, but he was scared, absolutely terrified and L-L… He realized belatedly that everyone in the room was watching him. Did they all think this way? They pitied him for what he'd lost but they still looked to him for the answer, to make the sacrifice- He wanted to agree, he opened his mouth to agree regardless of his fears, but something stopped him his mouth clicked shut and he turned to look at L's impassive gaze. L was waiting too, but Light didn't know the right answer any more, he wasn't supposed to make these choices because he always screwed things up and people always ended up getting hurt. He felt himself relax.

"It's up to Ryuuzaki." He said his voice rough as he dropped his eyes frightened of what he might find in the other man's gaze.

"I believe I have already stated my opinion on the matter." L said his voice monotone, bored almost.

"L we have a chance to catch him-"

"No." L said again.

"Would you just listen to reason L?! Damn it look at me-!" Three things happened at once, Ide reached for L's chair to force him around, Light's leg kicked out sending Ide flying, and Watari promptly sedated the man syringe in hand. Light shook slightly his heart pounding violently in his chest from where he landed panting slightly in fear his eyes turning to L. He didn't know what to do, he didn't know anything he couldn't do anything because he was Kira and he would screw it all up

"Thank you Light-kun." Watari said mildly as he wrapped the empty syringe neatly. Light flinched. Thanking him…of all the- as if he deserved thanks. It was his fault that all those people were dying. B was doing it for him. He took a deep breath.

"Ryuuzaki?" He said softly. He didn't know what to do; he needed to know what to do- he needed to do something.

"I think that it is time that we all take a break." L stated calmly before standing from his chair and grasping Light's wrist. "Please feel free to take the day off and spend time with your families." He said before dragging Light out of the room. They made it to the elevator before L tossed him inside and pushed him against the wall his body covering Light's completely his hands holding Light's wrists on either side of his head.

"L?" Light said curiously had he done something wrong? He chanced a look up into L's dark eyes and swallowed thickly at what he found there. Pride. L was proud of him. "Wha-?"

"You trusted me Light-kun, no Kira- you could have chosen to sacrifice yourself, I know you wanted to, you wanted to make them proud of you to redeem yourself somehow. You could have agreed, thought yourself perfect enough not to give in to the temptation again rather than giving in to me the way you said you would. But you stopped because it doesn't really matter what the world thinks does it Kira? As long as I am proud of you, as long as you let me make your choices for you, then you know you have made the right choice."

And then before Light could muddle through it all L was kissing him deeply his lips hard against his and cold from the icy drink L had just ingested. Light relaxed in L's hold shivering in unimaginable satisfaction at the thought that L was this proud of him. That he had finally done something right, and that his actions had provoked this in L. Light gasped as he felt L's length press against him his arousal obvious despite the thick baggy denims.

"I'm going to fuck you Kira." L hissed into his ear. "I am going to mark you and take you so that you never forget that I am the victor here." He hissed before kissing Light again his tongue sensual and languid despite the force behind the kiss. Light could only groan as fire raced through him his hands flexing in L's grasp to enhance the feelings being held down provoked. L would decide who he hurt with these hands, the decision was not his to make. He let himself be dragged under by the sensations as L's mouth heated gradually so that by the time the elevator chimed his mouth was scalding against Light's. The doors slipped open and Light gasped as L pulled away and yanked Light along.

"Lawliet…" Light breathed as he was unceremoniously tugged down the hall. L's grip on his wrist tightened.

"Do you know how hard it has been Light-kun? Sitting there with you unclaimed beside me while B lusts after you? And I'm certain he does Kira, B has always had his fixations." He said wrenching the door to their room open and shoving Light in so that he barely managed to regain his balance before the door was closing and L was turned around slouched over and lounging lazily as he smirked his eyes burning. "Take your clothes off Kira." He demanded darkly. Light swallowed after a pitiful sound escaped him. Why did L do these things to him? He'd been naked before, but somehow this was different.

It was always different with L

His mind supplied unhelpfully. Light lifted his hands and unbuttoned his shirt one button at a time nearly whimpering at the look on L's face, there was something predatory about the way L was watching him. Light could almost imagine that L was a predator waiting for the opportune moment to strike. Would he attack physically? Throw Light to the bed and fuck him roughly? Light didn't know what to think about that image, he'd never been treated by anything other than worshipful hands and bodies. It had all been so…boring. But this was L and Light knew for a fact that L could and would do with Light whatever the hell he wanted. By the time his fingers slipped the last button from its hole he was hard gasping as his hand brushed the arousal. L looked hungry and a dark glitter shimmered in his eyes.

"Oh Kira-kun is that for me?" He said silkily. He was still slouched over watching, he was still unmoved save for the slight bulge Light could see forming in his denims. "Are you hard because I'm watching Kira? Do you like putting a show on for me?" L said getting closer his hand trailing up Light's arm.

Slap!

Light gasped. L hadn't used anywhere near his full strength in the blow but it stung and sent a thrill through him that was nearly orgasmic. Before he could stop himself he was leaning closer to L practically begging for another. L's eyes glittered.

"I know you like to hurt Light-kun but please be kind enough to answer my questions." L said calmly a satisfied smirk on his mouth. Light swallowed.

"What do you want me to say?" He asked his voice rough. It was torture, standing here, waiting under L's inscrutable gaze. L closed the space between them the warmth of his body seeping into Light's as he tilted his head and whispered into Light's ear.

"I suppose it doesn't really matter Kira I already know you like to put on a show for me." He whispered his fingers brushing over Light's arousal so gently that it made him groan in frustration. He reached out his hand ready to grasp L's wrist and force him to quit bullshitting and just touch him already- L's free hand snapped out of his pocket and wrapped around both of Light's wrists. In a dizzying moment he was spinning around and there was a telltale click of metal as the hand cuffs clicked into place. L settled his chin on Light's shoulder and simply waited for Light to stop cursing and struggling one arm around the front of Light's chest.

"L stop it just- just do something already! What's the point of this?!" Light said feeling slight embarrassment and rebellion. But he was Kira! This was just degrading and-

"No Kira, you cannot move until I say you can. Your hands will remain bound forever if that is what I wish, you will not hurt anyone without my permission. You are mine Kira and your foolish pride will only earn you punishment's here." L said nipping sharply on Light's earlobe. Light gasped and his head tilted away from L reflexively, L settled his mouth over Light's exposed neck and bit down hard making Light cry out.

Yes…this was what he'd wanted.

L would take care of everything; L would make sure that he never hurt anyone ever again.

L let up on the spot on his neck and sucked at it for a moment soothing away the hurt.

"Better?" L asked his voice a gentle contrast to what it had been before. Light nodded.

"Yes Lawliet thank you." He said swallowing against his pride. He was right to ask L for help, if it were him doing this alone it wouldn't be long before he went back to being Kira. L would keep him from hurting anyone he just had to learn to trust that. He sighed and relaxed feeling the arm tighten around him slightly. Light was still hard- almost painfully so, but it was clear to him now that L did things on his own time and everything they did here would be in L's control.

"Good Light-kun, it won't be easy for you I know, it is not my intention to break you of your pride I rather like the powerful creature that you are, but you will be humble towards me. You will do as I say and if you are unsure you will ask, but none of this is up to you." He said nipping slightly on the injured spot on his neck. It tingled and Light knew it was probably already healing, he found he didn't like the idea as much as he should. Why wouldn't he want the marks gone? The bruises that should have lingered as reminders of L's promises to keep him from hurting others, the marks of what they would do together. He had always been annoyed when people tried to give him love-bites, they were unsightly, but as with everything else, it was different when L was the one giving them.

L turned him around slowly and his dark eyes met Light's for a long moment before lazily drifting down. It was the intensity that got to him; L was memorizing him with the look the way he did numbers and codes or important information. Light felt himself quiver. He knew he was handsome though his body had fallen into a state of lassitude from being ill and well…dead. The finely chiseled muscles that he'd once boasted were softer and not as well formed-

"As much as your vanity amuses me Light-kun, the only time you are ever less than appealing to me is when you are lying to me. Didn't you notice me looking Light-kun? Watching you, watching your body under your clothes and wishing that human's weren't so fickle as to need clothing on a daily basis- though I suppose it is understandable, after all if you were naked all the time you would pose a distraction." He said trailing a lazy finger down Light's chest before sweeping it back up and circling Light's nipple lightly.

"Lawliet…" Light whispered his body tense. L sniggered.

"Are you saying my name to get what you want Kira? How very ugly of you." He said lifting his hand and settling it on Light's cheek. "If you want, you should just beg, trying to manipulate me here will get you no where and you know it." He said stepping back and climbing up onto the bed sprawling out slightly in a lazy curl. "I don't want Kira's dirty manipulative hands touching me." He said causing Light's breath to catch as he flicked the button on his jeans open and pulled down the zip. "I want Light-kun's humble hands, the ones that know they are filthy and know that I accept them anyway." L said tilting his head back slightly and gazing at Light through slit eyes as he pulled his length from his jeans. Light's gaze was riveted to the motion.

"L…" He whispered swallowing.

"Mnnn, no I'm afraid that won't do Light-kun." L said lazily. Light swallowed. He didn't know what to do; he didn't know how he should act-

Ask.

He swallowed again as the answer supplied its self.

"L…Lawliet…what- what do you want?" He whispered flinching slightly at how small it was. This was what he'd become? The Kira that was a god-

A god who destroyed everything it touched.

He shuddered and realized that any arousal was now gone from him, chased away by nightmares of Sayu and his mother. L let out a sigh and Light flinched again when arms surrounded him pulling him into that little nook that seemed to be made for him.

"Good Light-kun so good for me, you followed my directions because you are intelligent. You know what I want from you Light-kun, and you will give it to me in time." L said pressing a kiss to the top of his head. The touch was so gentle that it was startling and Light gasped from it. L chuckled and pulled away a bit his hand unbuttoning and unzipping Light's pants with one deft motion causing them to sprawl onto the floor. L bent down and unlaced Light's shoes. Light had no choice, without his hands to steady him he had to rely on L not to let him fall if he lost his balance, sure enough as L removed his left sock Light felt himself begin to tilt but L's arm wound around his middle and pulled him upright in an instant. Adrenalin rushed through his veins as L pulled everything off, stripping him with quick efficient motions.

"Now Light-kun." L said his eyes tracing up his form. He was in a half crouch gazing up at Light but Light has no problem believing that L is the one in charge here and that makes something in him relax a bit even if it feels wrong for the man to be on the floor below him. "No…Kira." L said standing just long enough to get to the bed before laying down again his eyes half lidded. "Worship me Kira." He said smirking. Light's heart seemed to jump into his throat. He swallowed loudly in the silence.

"H-How." Light stuttered- he'd never stuttered in his life. He was never this nervous, never so unsure-

"With your mouth on my cock. Stop thinking Kira." He said narrowing his eyes. Light's brain went fuzzy and his stomach made a little flip. He decided that listening to L was the best option, it seemed to be the most pleasurable that was for sure. He dropped to his knees carefully his balance unsure with his hands bound behind his back. Shuffling forward across the carpet he lifted his head and met L's gaze focusing on that as a rush of nothingness began to creep over the edges of his mind. L's fingers reached out and carded through Light's hair once he was perched in the space between L's legs. "Good Light-kun." He said shifting forward slightly his legs touching the floor. "I assume you know what to do now?" L said looking for all the world like a satisfied cat.

"Yes Lawliet." Light said swallowing thickly.

He never backed down from a challenge from L.

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"I want to make a deal with you." Rem said the moment she floated through the wall.

"Huh?" Ryuuk said drawing his bored gaze away from the figure hunched over the writing table. "You already made a deal with me, and you lost." Ryuuk said with a grin.

"I'll make you another deal." Rem said insistently. Ryuuk tilted his head to the side in consideration.

"Alright, I'm listening…" He said lazily.

"Things aren't as amusing since Yagami-kun decided to stop being Kira…I can make them interesting again." Rem challenged. Ryuuk tilted his head to the side.

"And I'm guessing you want one of the Death Notes?" He said with a grin. Rem nodded. Well…he had three now, that was kind of over-kill even if one was being used by the weird human B, besides, watching this guy just write all day was getting boring. He pulled out one of the notes and tossed it to Rem. "Fine, but it better be good." He said with a shrug. Rem caught the note and quickly disappeared through the wall. Ryuuk sighed and turned back to his human only to find wide eyes staring back at him in horror.

"Kira-sama has decided to stop being Kira-sama?" He whispered in horror.

Uhh ohh….

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Light gasped as scalding liquid poured down his throat but he was hungry for even that and swallowed it all even without L's hand forcing his head down again. He had never done that for anyone before- sex had always been unsanitary, something that was a chore more than anything. But L was as usual completely different. L's grip relaxed and he let out a low groan that went straight to Light's arousal. Light panted against L's thigh as he tried to regain his breathing. L had been goading him all along, challenging him until Light had taken to the blowjob the way he would to a particularly difficult exam. And by the looks of it, he'd passed with flying colors…L gazed down at him sleepily and simply pet his hair.

"A nap I think, and then I will have you." L said grinning evilly at Light's disbelieving expression.

"L!" He said with wide pleading eyes. L chuckled.

"Come here Light-kun."

Light glared mistrustfully and L's eyes glinted his hands reaching out and yanking Light up. "Now Light-kun." He said with a grin. "Time for me to teach you that I will always take care of your needs…" He said with a slightly evil grin. Light swallowed thickly.

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Misa stared down at her plate listlessly as people chatted around her. She'd dressed up like her husband had demanded and had been exactly on time to the restaurant despite her own apprehension of how well her make-up covered the bruises.

He never showed up.

Now, three hours later she was struggling to hold herself back. The fear and the anger, the same and the sorrow filled her to the point that she thought she might explode from it. She wanted to run away but she was frozen on the spot. She couldn't hold back once the tears finally started, every day things got worse, he got rougher he hurt her more and the bruises covered more and more of her body.

A small click sounded at her elbow and she gasped in fear that it was Higuchi.

A steaming cup of tea sat by her elbow.

She followed it up to the man that had placed it there.

"My name is Mikami Teru." The man said his eyes much like Light's as he pulled his wallet out and handed her his card. It put her at ease almost immediately. "May I sit?" The man asked cautiously. Misa stared down at the card- a lawyer?

"Yes of course." She said dabbing her eyes and trying not to wipe off too much of the concealer.

Rem watched anxiously from over the human's shoulder as Misa opened up and told Mikami everything.

Soon Misa-chan…soon…