Chapter seven

Lunch time appeared and I finally decided that I was just going to tell them about what happened two days ago but I know they will ask about my real mum so I'll tell them the truth as much as I can but my powers stay secret for now at least because my memories haven't came back yet. The bell for lunch goes and I run out of class and get my lunch from my locker and I notice I won't even eat it but I bring it anyways. I'm the first in the lunch room and I get our usual table and I'm sitting on one side and that when I notice that all four of them are walking in and my heart skips a beat. Now is the time to scream Clary or run or you can teleport, pick! But I ignore the voice in my head as they take their seats but I tell them to sit at the other side so I can speak without turning my head and they agree.

It feels like an hour has past but really it's hardly been a minute, they are staring at me and I'm staring back. How do I start? Okay here it goes.

"I've been lying to you guys and please don't be angry at me it's just I never expected to get close to any of you or actually trust you guys but I have and you are my closet friends since the start of high school when I moved" Seb and Si are looking at me like they understand but Izzy and Jace I am not too sure about. They don't say anything but I continue.

"A few nights ago I was walking home from somewhere and there were footsteps behind me and I didn't have a phone with me to call for help so I ran into an alley and hid but man found me and before I had time to react I was on the ground getting punched and kicked. The last thing I remember is that I was being carried to a front door and the person bent down and said sorry and walked away. I woke up in the hospital with no memory of who I am or anything whatsoever. When I was in the hospital Jackson was one of the police officers on the investigation and there was also a woman from social service she actually looked like a clown. Because I couldn't remember anything about my family I was placed in foster care and right now I am living with Rose and Luke until I can remember anything or until they find a relative or someone to adopt me. That's what I've been hiding from you guys"

They are looking at me and its getting creepy and I don't know what to say and I don't think they do until Simon speaks.

"Clary so what you're saying is that you have no memory whatsoever and you were near killed and you are in foster care?"

"Yes that's what I'm saying"

"Clary last time me and Seb seen you, you were living with your mum and your mother was getting married again and one night you just up and left and now your back. Where's your mum?

"That's actually the thing when I was in the hospital I had like a flashback and I was I think thirteen and there was shouting coming from the living room and I was watching my mum fight with someone, I don't know who. Then a gunshot rings throughout the house and my mum is standing there holding her chest while blood was flowing out of her I ran to her and held her until her every last breath and my mum actually welcomed death like a friend. Then a man dragged me off my mum and pinned me up against a wall and told me that I couldn't protect her and that the man had grown impatient with and her and she had to die and that was the only way I could earn my freedom. My mum died so I could live. I cried because she had lived as she had died. And in the car today when I had my head against the window I was thinking about her because today is her anniversary and I can't even visit the grave because I don't know where her body is lead to rest."

Tears are rolling down my cheeks and they looked tongue tied. I thought I should leave them to their own thoughts so I stood up and was about to leave until I felt a pair of arms around me; it was Jace. He held me and I cried into his chest. We sat back down and he was rubbing my back. They tell me that they understand that I didn't tell them and that Jace actually saw his dad get murder too. I guess we have a lot in common.

When lunch is over I begin to walk to class alone until I am dragged into a deserted class room and there before me stand Simon and Sebastian and they are looking at me with such pity in their eyes. Wonder if they know something about me which I don't remember.

"Clary both of us knows about your gift, what your able to do with fire, how you can read minds and teleport. When we in primary school you broke out and we seen what you did and with your gifts we had more fun we have ever had and then one night you were just gone, lost and our hearts were broken. We thought you were dead because we thought that someone found out and killed you. I know you don't remember this but we knew who you are and no one else does. We still love you"

I look at them and I'm actually happy that someone knew especially since these two have been my friends for several years. But I tell them not to tell anyone because I needed to be the one that told them and soon I would. Simon walks out of the classroom first so that it doesn't seem suspicious and then a couple of minutes later so do me and Seb. He has his arm around me and walks me to class and kisses me on the cheek. I walk into English and sit down and to my surprise Jace isn't here until a couple of minutes after I came in. He sits down beside me and he is quite and I say hey to him but he brushes it off and smiles but that's it. What have I done now?

Jaces POV

After Clary told us about what happened to her my heart felt like it had broken in half. I notice that no one is saying anything and that Clary was about to leave but before she could I pull her into a hug and she cried into my chest. I sat her back down and I tell her about how I seen my father get murder and I was only ten and we have so much in common. Is it sick to say that? After the bell goes she walks off to class and I told her that I would be there in a minute I just had to go to the toilet.

When I walk out of the toilets I see Clary and Seb walk out of a classroom and his arm is around her shoulders and he walks her to the outside of the English classroom and bends down and kisses her. Why would he do that for? Does he even like her or is he using her like he does with the others? I am so angry at her I don't even have time to be angry at myself because I notice that I'm angry at myself because I still haven't figured out how I feel and I don't know how to tell her. I walk into the classroom and Clary says hey to me but I brush it off because I'm scared that I might say something wrong. Then the teacher just had to decide that we are working on a project together which means time alone with her, may be I can tell her how I feel and what I am hiding from her.

Class ends and so does school I walked quickly out of the room to avoid being late getting a lift from Izzy but when I look Clary is already there laughing and joking with her and I walk up and they stop. When we get into the car Izzy tells me that Clary is staying for the weekend because Rose and Luke are going away.

We drop her off at her house and we begin to drive home and I have butterflies in my stomach Clary is staying for the weekend which means I'll see her for three days and we can be alone. This is going to be the best weekend ever!