Judal sighed softly and watched Alexandria run off with tears in her eyes. Yeah... he'd caused it. He was her bully, everyday he made it his job to torment her until she cried. But he still had yet to figure out the extent of his actions. The only reason he ever hurt her was because he couldn't understand the feelings he had towards her, she was so... pretty. Every time he saw her in made his heart beat faster, he knew what these feelings were, he just didn't want to feel them.

He was walking down the quiet hallway after school. He had just sent Alexandria running again, but this time... she seemed more upset then before. Suddenly he heard the sound of piano playing from the chorus room. Judal looked at the open door and saw Alexandria sitting at the piano, quietly playing a song and... singing? He stood outside the door and listened to her song without a word.

She played the final chord, then all went quiet, until choked up sobs came from the room, followed by the sound of rattling. Judal looked inside the room and saw her curled up in a ball on the floor, with two things in her hand, one being a bloody pair of scissors, and another being a bottle of sleeping pills, with only two pills left in it. Everything began to piece itself together, the song... it was about him... the scissors... she used them to cut herself... and the pills... Judal gasped and ran into the room. He held her tightly and looked at her chest... it wasn't moving... he held his hand over her mouth which was slightly open, and no air was coming out. he shook her a little, then noticed the song on the piano, the song was called ' Is This the End?' and a small note was written on the bottom. It read:

Judal... by the time you read this... it'll be too late... I've already called 911, please tell them it was you who did... I... I saw you while I was singing just moment ago. I took those pills earlier, I planned it so I'd get one last song in... I... I left you this note to tell you I love you. I know there won't be repercussions to this for me. I hope you understand. I can't figure out why you hated me so much... you just did? I don't know... but... I'm glad that it's over now. I'm sure you'll be fine with out me... and I'm sure you won't miss me much. You have so much to live for... and I hope you'll think of how there could've been a different ending to our story. I love you... and I hope that deep down you'll find a way to forgive me for what ever wrong I did to you.- Alexandria/Lexi

Suddenly the paramedics barged into the room and began to try to reanimate her, shocking her motionless body. Judal could only stare, he could've prevented all of this... but he couldn't face his feelings. Only four words were able to bring up his spirits.

Alexandria woke up to the quiet beeping of heart monitor, followed by the feeling of something grabbing her hand. She opened her eyes fully to be met with a pair of bright red eyes, black hair tickled her face, and the feeling of something grasping her hand was Judal's hand. she sat up quickly and looked around. she looked into his eyes and backed away. she was interrupted by a soft kiss on her lips. Her eyes widened and she pushed him away. Alexandria cried. Judal stared at her, then nodded quietly. he stood up, but kept his firm grip on her hand. he swallowed and squeezed his eyes shut. he managed to spit the words out... and immediately felt a million times better... but also a million times worse. All those things he did to her hit him like a ton of bricks... he'd really hurt her...

He'd done these things every day, not to mention the constant punches in the face... he'd even gone so far once as to stomp on her stomach until the point she threw up blood... then still managed to call her a little weakling. The torture she had gone through at his hands was something he would never forgive himself for. He loved her! You're not supposed to hurt the ones you love! You're supposed to hold them and stop them from doing stupid things like...

Judal looked at Alexandria, staring at him in shock from the hospital bed and felt tears in his eyes.

Stupid things like trying to kill themselves...

Judal knelt down beside her and took a hold of her wrist, he gently rolled up the sleeves on her gown to reveal the hundreds of cuts, a single tear landed on one of her cuts. Judal looked up to Alexandria and saw her start pointing to them.

she began pointing and listing off what each one was from, then she gently pulled up the hospital gown to her chest, showing off her stomach... or at least what was left of it. Cuts old and new littered her stomach, and she was nothing but skin and bones. How long had it been since she last ate?

Judal stood up and turned away from her, he couldn't bear it. Seeing her like that caused him so much pain, pain she probably felt times 10. Judal looked over to her, she had her head in her hands and her knees tucked to her chest.

slowly Alexandria lifted her head and looked at him, tears in her eyes. Alexandria watched him nervously as he took her wrist again and looked at her scars. He gently pressed his lips against the tender wounds, bringing tears to her eyes.

Judal ran into her room, she was sitting on her bed with a pad of paper and a pencil, and the moment he entered she threw it to the opposite side the room. Judal smiled and walked over to her. he held out his hand to her, and she gently took his hand and stood up, he lead her downstairs and she gasped. A whole table was set up, it was set for two with plates full of food, she looked to Judal then slowly backed away before running full speed up the stairs. she felt a hand wrap around her wrist and faced Judal who was looking at her sympathetically. she continued to stare at him, searching for the words to say, then she pulled her hand out of his grasp and ran into his arms, nearly knocking him down the stairs.

The two had finished eating and Alexandria had gotten up to do the dishes, but Judal denied her and sent her to her room, while he was doing the dishes he heard the quiet sound of singing from upstairs and went up. He stood outside Alexandria's room and listened in on her singing and... electric guitar playing? He looked inside and saw her with black eyeliner and eye shadow making her face look even paler. She was standing in front of her mirror playing her guitar, wearing a short black dress that looked torn on the edges.

She looked beautiful.

She suddenly went quiet and sat on her bed. Judal entered the room and smiled. Alexandria jumped a bit and stood up. she asked. Judal sat on her bed and chuckled. he patted the bed and next to him, and Alexandria sat next to him. he laid back on the bed and listened quietly to the sound of her breathing.

Everything went silent, Judal looked up at her in shock, her bangs hung over her eyes and tears rolled down her cheeks.

she inhaled deeply, refusing to look at him when he sat up. she trailed off, then stood up. Alexandria began to walk off, but Judal yet again held her back.

He smiled and gently sat her down on the edge of her bed, she looked surprised, it didn't surprise him, considering it had been so long since anyone tried to help her. Judal quickly went downstairs and raided her fridge, much to his dismay it was practically empty, he looked into her room and saw her yet again focused on her notepad. " Hey Alexandria? I have to run out, what movie do you want to watch? I can pick it up on redbox." Alexandria shrugged and looked at him. " I don't know Judal." She had tears in her eyes. She wasn't just talking about a movie, she was talking about herself, her life. Judal sighed and opened his arms to her. " Then come with me, we'll figure it out together."

Alexandria stared at him then burst into tears, she ran into his arms and hugged him tightly, like he was her last hope. Which in all reality...

He was.

" Don't leave me!" She begged, her grip on him tightening. " I won't leave you, I promise. I'll never hurt you again. Now come on, let's go pick up that movie huh?" He pulled himself out of her grasp then gently tucked a strand of hair behind her ear. " Now come on. We can go get any movie you want, I'm also picking up some ice cream." Alexandria looked at him sadly, then looked away. " But... But I'm so-" " If you say fat I am going to tickle you." She looked at him in confusion. " Tickle me?" Suddenly he pushed her down and started tickling her sides. She burst out laughing and squirmed underneath him. " Hey! St-stop it! You-you're killing me!" Judal chuckled and climbed off of her, she stood up shortly after and smiled, Judal was shocked, it was honestly the first time he'd seen her smile. Gently he placed his fingers under her chin and looked deeply into her eyes.

" You have a beautiful smile."

Alexandria stared at him for a moment blankly, then allowed herself to smile again. " Thanks Judal. That means a lot." Judal grinned and took her hand softly. " Come on, let's go." He began to walk, but something jerked him to a stop, she was still standing in the same spot, looking down nervously. " But... But what if your friends are there?" Alexandria looked up at him, obviously scared. " ... I won't let them touch you. I promise."he squeezed her hand and lead her outside to his... " car " which actually more of a carpet. Alexandria looked at him in confusion, Judal smiled and pulled her onto his lap, immediately they were in the air, she squeaked a little and hugged him around the neck. " J-Judal I don't do heights!" She cried. Judal laughed and hugged her back. " Just look around, it's not that bad I promise." " But I'm gonna fall!" " You're not gonna fall, I've got you." She looked to him first, then slowly looked around. There was a look of amazement and curiosity in her eyes, almost like a little kid.

" Wow~" she looked down and smiled softly. " This is so cool!" She looked at him and smiled softly, his face turned a shade of red that Alexandria was sure wasn't healthy. She laughed and held his hand softly. " You're friggin adorable when you aren't hurting me." Judal looked at her, clearly surprised. He had never seen this side of her before, it was so different then the shy girl who always sat by the teacher or the back of the classroom, the girl who sat on her IPad typing away stories about shows no one watched and listen to music others shunned her for. This was what she acted like around friends and family, the girl she would've been all along, if those other kids hadn't held her back.

Judal smiled softly and pushed her playfully. " Don't you sass me I will turn this carpet around young lady!" He shouted. Alexandria pouted and spun around so her back was facing him. " You can't tell me what to do! I'm an adult now!" " That's it!" Judal chuckled and pulled out the carpet so it came out from underneath her and she fell, most likely to her death. Alexandria screamed and squeezed her eyes shut, until suddenly Judal grasped her hand. She opened her eyes and looked down, they were still fairly high up, she looked at Judal and grinned. He'd done so much for her these past few days ever since she'd gotten out of the hospital. She pulled herself up and grasped his collar to keep herself steady, then pressed her lips up against his.

His eyes widened once her lips pressed against his, he could practically feel the sparks flying as he kissed her back. After what felt like forever the two pulled apart and Alexandria rested her forehead against his, he expected to hear something romantic and loving.

" Now pull me up before I smack you. You little shit."

Judal stared at her for a moment in shock, then smirked and pretended to drop her, causing her to scream loudly and grip onto his hand tighter. " Stop it!" She begged, Judal smiled and stood up, still hanging her off the edge. He sighed and pulled her onto the carpet, she pressed her face into the crook of his neck. He stared at her, then slowly lowered the carpet to the ground, he sighed and took her hand gently. " Come on." She looked up at him in desperation, but he grasped her hand tightly and pulled her off. " I won't let anyone hurt you... I promise."

Alexandria stared at him and sighed, she walked into the store with him, and immediately saw the group of kids who had made the last 4 to 5 years a living hell. She gasped a little and ran out of the store, or at least attempted to, but Judal held her back. " It's alright, come on." He lead her forward, right past the kids, who looked at her with such anger in their eyes it sent chills up her spine. They grabbed a movie and he forced her to pick out tons of junk food, much to her dismay. " Judal... I don't want to gain any weight." He looked at her and sighed. " If we buy some healthy stuff will that make you feel better?" Alexandria nodded as he grabbed some fruit off the shelves near her. " You know you're skinny as all get out, the last thing you need to worry about is weight gain." Judal pointed out. " So I've been told." She chuckled a little. " Come on, we should get you home."

As soon as they got back to her house Judal put in the movie and cuddled up with her on the couch. Hours ticked by, and Judal looked over to Alexandria to see her fast asleep, her head resting gently on his chest. He smiled and pulled her closer to him, muting the tv and kissing her forehead softly before falling asleep with her in his arms.