Disclaimer: Characters belong to JK Rawling. Song belongs to 30 Seconds to Mars. Combination of the two belongs to me.

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor?
Couldn't take this anymore
What would you do,do,do?

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

I can't stand the alter ego. The names and the insults. The indifference and the snide comments. Especially when the only intimacy I know is with you. It makes me want to laugh in your face, this double life we lead. I'm ready to scream to the world that Draco Malfoy is the man I love. What would the world say? We're only 3 weeks from graduation. Then we go our separate ways, maybe forever separated. The thought tears at my heart. So I'm done. I'm out, I can't take anymore. Take another piece of my heart with you as I turn on all this, as you agree and turn away from me. I don't know about you, but this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do? (do,do)
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I'm finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

I can't run. I can't hide from the ache in my heart when you aren't near. I can't imagine my life without you. We are too much the same, even in all our differences. I'm willing to fight, I'm willing to do whatever has to be done. Something in me is forever connected to you. You and your chasing of women. You and your confusion, claiming I'm nothing and then saying you care. Saying you want me, and then saying you'd rather we didn't. Lighting my soul on fire. You are the one turning from this. I refuse to run. I try to run, but I'm glued to place, waiting for the next installment. Waiting for your hold on me to let up. Don't you see? Can't you tell what you do to me? I would do anything for you. And it's killing me. Staying here wanting you. They tell me you're bad for me, that you'll do nothing but destroy my heart. I know this. Apparently I want you to totally crush me, because I'm still here, aren't I?

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

I tried liking other people. I tried ignoring you in you beauty, in your smugness, in your ultimate arrogance. Fat lot of good that did me. I just ended up breaking down and crying my heart out over you. I know this is who I am. Loyal to the end. Even as we fight, even as we tell each other we hate each other, that we can and will be nothing. I still hold out. I still try to be friends. I can't lose you. Not for anything. I don't care that we will go our separate ways soon. I'm holding on to every last second.

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you,you, you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you

Come break me down
Break me down
Break me down

It's breaking my heart to be around you, but not with you. It's killing me to be your friend, but not be able to hold you. I have to leave or I will break down. You cause the barriers of my heart to crumble. I know better than to fall in love. To want you to be happy no matter what. Because, inevitably, no matter what doesn't include me. And I break down. Soon, though, I'll leave and my barriers will be back in place, stronger than ever before. No one will be able to break through them.

What if I wanted to break?