A/N - I'd say sorry for the last chapter... and the ones before it, but I'm not :D *insert evil laugh here* It's the story :3 and I hope you all are enjoying it as much as I've been enjoying writing it and reading over it myself... rate, review, blablabla said it all before, but it is greatly appropriated. Lots of love Sayomi-san

~I was standing by the edge of the water
I noticed my reflection in the waves
Then I saw you looking back at me
And I knew that for a moment
You were calling out my name
You took away my hero
Will you take away my pain

Take away my pain
Let the cold inside
It's time to let it rain
There's nothing left to hide
Take away my pain
I'm not frightened any more~

~Kyle's P.O.V~

Funny, huh? How your life can easily be over with the slice of one blade. Well that's what I did. I couldn't take the harsh pains that this life caused me anymore.

-A few hours before -

I sat on my living room floor, completely naked, after having screamed the boy's name whom I loved, to the boy in the middle of fucking me at my own disposable, both boys at which are the two closest people to me in my life, I went up to my room and just thought for hours about all the crappy shit that life hasn't stopped throwing at me, but before I even noticed it, I was trying to stop the pain in a very permanent way. I sat there in my room making yet another deep arm length cut all up my wrist, each cut for every one problem I've ever had. It's not like I'm depressed and needed help, but I've never felt like I'm being suffocated by… gallons of pain before, never in my entire life. You see my mom all she wants is for me to become a Doctor or a Sargent. She wants me to make something out of my life. My dad wants me to become a lawyer like him and go to Rutgers school of law in NJ but I don't want to be that or a Doctor. Cartman keeps calling me the same old names from when you're a kid and there's so much of that you can take before you go insane, Kenny now probably won't ever talk to me again with how awkward that must have been for him so I've lost the 2nd closest person to me and lastly the one that caused me most of my pain, Stan my closest friend. I told him that I loved him and guess what he did? He laughed in my face, telling me to stop joking around with him. It hurt so bad.

I sat in the bath tub now, the water nice and hot. I was getting ready to commence what was to come. The joy that would bring to me, seeing the light of a world I could leave. I took the blade to my wrist and slit it quickly letting the red liquid flow as the water turned a now darker shade of crimson red.

I suddenly heard the *Thump* of footsteps? Running? Up the stairs I believe but that was quickly answered when the bathroom door swung open, opening to the best image anyone could see if it was their last, the angelic like, Kenny.

"Kyle!" He yelled as my eyes became slits themselves, closing ever so slowly.

"It's okay I'm getting you out of here! Please just stay awake for me. Oh god your covered in blood what did you do?" He had pulled me up and carried me in his arms. Why had he come? I don't get it.

"I wanted to leave you all in peace." I spoke in a whisper as I felt myself fading. He was running back down the stairs because I could feel my body bouncing.

"Kyle. Why? Why?!" He yelled.

"..."

"Kyle? Kyle stay awake for me!" And that's when I blacked out. Everything became dark and I was gone.

"H-Huh?" I opened my eyes to find myself looking up at a pure white room.
"You're awake! Thank god." Kenny wrapped his long arms around my neck. He looked kind of shaggy for some reason.

"Where am I?" I asked in a faint voice.

"You're in the hospital. You wrists were cut and you lost a lot of blood. I've been here waiting for you to wake up," he had pulled back and propped himself up with my arm on the bed.

"For how long?" I asked.

"A week now. At least 6 days. Kyle please, you can tell me what happened? "His face looked curious.

"I slit my wrist. I just couldn't take it anymore! Everyone having all these ideas of me being this and that! Cartman calling me the same old shit! And Stan breaking my fucking heart and laughing in my face! And especially for what I did to you, that was the only way I could be free from all this. " I looked away from him still deeply ashamed of what I did. Kenny held a... hurt sort of expression. "Now you tell me why you saved me?" His expression never changed but his eye's looked sorrowful.

"Kyle the reason I stuck by you all these years. The reason I protected you. The reason I saved you was because I love you." He had given me a faint smile. But his eye's still never changed.

"Kenny. I never knew." My expression became like his now. And my anger faded.

"No one did. Even after what happened my feelings wouldn't change for you after something as stupid as that. I am as much to blame as you, I knew you were hurt and yet took advantage of you in that state just because of my feelings for you… Kyle I know you're going to say no... But please… would you be up for going out with me."

"I-I'm sorry Kenny. But I just can't. Not now." I looked back down at my hands, as I intertwined my fingers with his.

"I get it. But will you wait for me?" His eye's earnest.

I took a deep breath and thought. Soon coming up with my answer, I let the breath out.

"Yes. But you're going to have to make me fall for you." I said winking at him and giving him a smile that wasn't forced.

"Can do." He winked back and we both began to laugh. I hadn't laughed in a while and it'd felt great.

"Kyle!" The door to my room opened up with a *Slam* and there he was. My murderer, Stan.

"What the hell are you doing here?" Kenny had taken the words right out of my mouth.

I could feel my heart sinking back into its dark abyss.

"To see Kyle. Why else? What are you doing yelling at me, am I not allowed to see my best friend?" Kenny seemed to be getting defensive as so Stan.

"To see Kyle. Don't make me laugh. Why would you come a week after he's been at the hospital!" Kenny stood up and almost had his arms flinging around the room.

"Listen! I had stuff to do. I have my own problems."

"Yea like hanging out with Wendy and hurting your other friends. And what problems? Oh wait the one where you cause Kyle to almost kill himself!" Kenny was ready to throw a fist at the Ebony. Who stood a few inches shorter than Kenny.

"What?"

"Kenny!" I yelled out making both boys turn their heads to give me their attentions.

"What is he talking about, Kyle?" I crunched the fabric around my chest in my hand and bit my bottom lip.

"Kyle's in the hospital for almost killing himself and your one of the causes! Now get out! Your making everything worse."

"Kyle he's lying. Right?" Stan looked at me with eye's that pleaded and begged.

"He's right. And I would like it if you would leave." I turned my head away to hide my glare but hurt my own heart. How could I go back to this person after the hurtful things he did.

"Fine. But listen Kyle if you turn me away now. You turn me away forever."

"LEAVE!"I yelled. I had made my mind up and this is what both my brain and heart were telling me. But I couldn't help to feel a hurt feeling inside, was it really right... everything seemed so foggy now, my mind hazed over again, and everything went black.