Sorry I had a big idea boom for a new story and was working on that one. Now, onto this one.
Tony
All I felt was shame for the next week or so every time I looked at Loki. I could see the disappointment in his eyes each time they flicked towards me. I knew all he was doing was looking out for me but, the looks made me feel even worse. They made me feel ten times worse then I already did. Loki had Jarvis put a lock on the liquor cabinet, something I didn't even know he could do.
The next week, Loki had to work late on Tuesday night. I was bored laying in the apartment so, I decided to go out. I grabbed my car keys, changed into dark jeans and a button up and left. I drove to one of the clubs in downtown. I felt the shame start to worm at my chest but, I shoved it away. I needed something to do, something to get my mind off everything.
Three drinks in and I was feeling good. Girls flitted and flirted at me, their hands touching my arms and shoulders, their high voices whispering in my ears. Boyfriend, you have a boyfriend. My brain started to chant as I returned these gestures to a brunette with blue in her hair. Tony, remember Loki. Remember how much he helped you. Think of how he will look when he finds out. I thought about this for a moment before I pushed it away as I downed another shot. The girl's name was Jasmine and she was here with some bridal party thing.
"Come with me." She purred into my ear. I grinned and followed blindly.
Loki
Work was so slow I almost fell asleep. I sat on a stool behind the counter, books stacked all around me. Bernie was up in his loft above the store, snoring away. At ten, I locked up and strolled to the car Tony lets me drive about in. I drove back to the apartment, singing as loud as I could to the radio. I pulled into the garage and took the elevator up. I pulled at the doorknob. Locked? Tony doesn't lock it when he's home. I unlocked it to see the apartment was empty.
"Hey Jarvis, where's Tony?" I asked, tossing my keys onto the counter.
"He went out about two hours ago and hasn't returned." Jarvis informed me. I twisted my lips together and shrugged.
"Oh. Alright. Thanks Jarvis." I yanked open the fridge to eat some real food and went to watch T.V. Around midnight, after waiting, I gave up and went to bed. Tony would come in when he wanted, even if he scared me.
Tony
Jasmine wanted to go back to my place but, my brain told me that was a bad idea so, we went to her's. She was giggly the whole time, it was annoying. Not as annoying as the voice in my head, shaming me and yelling at me the whole time. Think about Loki! Stop being so selfish and think about him! Do you not understand what this will do to him? How hard this will break him? How many people are going to be after you because you broke Loki's heart? Tony, you stop this right now. What would your father think if he knew you cheated on Loki? That thought stopped me dead. Jasmine whined as I rolled away and stated to pull on my clothes.
"Where are you going?" she whined, tossing herself over the bed. I didn't say a word, just walked out. I raced through the empty streets of Seattle, praying Loki wouldn't be mad at me. When I got to the apartment, Loki was asleep. Good. I slid into the bed next to him, shame welling in me.
I was awoken by a kiss on my forehead. I blinked to see Loki above me, his greenish eyes half shut, hair mussed wildly. Stop looking so wonderful. My brain whined, my eyes shutting again, I wasn't ready to tell him. You have to, keeping it to yourself will only make it worse.
"Hi Sweetie, want some breakfast?" He asked, his voice still rough from sleep. I sat up, rubbing at my eyes and looked at him.
"Actually, I have to tell you something." I told him,, blinking all the way. The light burned my eyes, my head pounded. Loki sat cross-legged in front of me and waited. "You see, last night I-I went to a club." I pulled at the blankets and looked up, his head was tilted, eyes confused. "And I-I-" I broke off and looked down again, tears choking at me. "I'm sorry Loki." I whispered to the blankets. A nose came out of his throat, a strange, sob-like noise that made me flinch.
"Tony don't- you- no" He stammered, ending in a whisper. "No. You didn't. Tell me you didn't." His voice rose calmly with each word. "Tony please." He begged, hands clinging to my wrist. I looked away, shame covering me. He gave a sob and got off the bed.
"Loki-" I reached out for his hand, which slapped mine away.
"Don't touch me." He growled out. tears streaking his face. "Don't. Just, don't" He threw his hands up and stalked out of the room. I heard him call Bruce for a ride back to the dorms. I stayed in the room, head down, tears dripping silently off my face. I heard him leave, the door slamming behind him. I lost him, it's all my fault. The only calm in my chaos is gone. A sob broke free from my chest as I fell back, the pain sweeping over me.