"You should talk to her, you should go and take her something and talk to her and most of all apologise for being stupid," Clara stated as the Doctor remained silent while they sat inside the kitchen of Clara's home. The kids were at school, her employer was at work and they'd taken the opportunity to collect her some more clothes and talk. "Most women like flowers but I don't see River as a flower woman and it doesn't' really say I'm sorry for being a complete idiot."
"What do I get her then Clara?" he immediately responded, completely confused.
"Something special, something that proves that you didn't mean she was a mistake or that the baby was a mistake. What you need is something that makes her feel special and wanted because right now I think she's going to hate you," Clara explained as he groaned and shut his eyes, realising just how much trouble he was in. "What does River like Doctor?"
"Shooting things, shooting my hats," he shrugged as Clara rolled her eyes. "She likes archaeology, kissing people. Clara none of this is particularly special. None of this screams forgive me and I love you and our baby and I didn't mean it when I said our baby was a mistake," he explained as Clara stood up and began to make two cups of tea while he watched. "Why did I say that? Why did I say that our baby was a mistake? How could I be that stupid? I mean she's my wife and that's our baby, our Time Lord baby who has two perfect strong hearts and I called them a mistake."
"Because you were being stupid Doctor. You'd gotten emotional and said some stupid things in the heat of the moment. People do that and I guess Time Lord's do too," Clara suggested, pouring the boiling water into the two mugs before finishing the teas and carrying them over to him. "You're not the best at dealing with human emotions sometimes anyway," she explained as she sat down again and took a sip of the warm liquid while he stared at the drink in silence. "Especially crying, you're not great around crying people."
"I'm getting better though," he insisted, silence filling the room before they both started to laugh at this comment. "I swore when I read her letter Clara," he admitted as shock covered Clara's face at what he'd just admitted.
"Tell her that," Clara smiled as he nodded, thinking about his wife. "Buy something for the baby, prove to her that you're one hundred per cent in this and that you were just being an idiot," she advised before she finished her tea and moved towards the doorway. "I'm going to get changed, why don't you try and think about anything else that River might like while I'm gone?" she suggested before disappearing, her footsteps echoing around the house when she ran up the stairs.
"River, River, River, what would River like as a sorry I called our baby a mistake present?" the Doctor muttered to himself as he continued to look into his tea.
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"Clara how do I look?" the Doctor asked as he fiddled with his bow tie nervously as the brunette sat on the table and stared at him before nodding. "Acceptable to go and visit the wife too apologise for my stupidity?" he questioned as she nodded and watched him move towards the two boxes that were sitting beside her on the table. "I can do this," he muttered to himself a couple of times as she nodded and laughed at how nervous he was.
"Doctor I've watched you fight aliens and talk down some of the most dangerous people and yet here you are, scared to go and say sorry to your wife," Clara smirked as he began to nervously pace, her eyes rolling at him before she threw a jammy dodger at him, laughing when it hit him and he jumped in shock. "You're one weird alien Doctor."
"Don't throw jammy dodgers at me Clara, they should not be wasted. They are a brilliant invention," he warned as she shook her head at him, the Doctor striding towards her before taking hold of the two boxes and turning to face the door. "I can do this, I can say sorry to my wife without getting shot," he declared, approaching it slowly as Clara watched silently, laughing when he walked out of the TARDIS. Stepping into River's cell, the Doctor sighed at the sight of his sleeping wife who was curled up on the small bed with her hand resting over her stomach on top of the thin blanket while her curled hair covered most of her face. Placing the two boxes down on her desk, the Doctor slowly moved to sit down beside her before he leant down and gently pressed a kiss to her forehead, not surprised when her eyes opened to glare up at him.
"Get away from me," she warned, biting into her lip to stop herself from laughing when the Doctor practically jumped to the other side of the cell to get away from her like she'd demanded. "What are you doing here?" River asked, sitting up as she pulled her hair back away from her face, tying it up as he shut his eyes for a moment. "Come to explain how I'm a mistake too perhaps," she suggested, her anger clear as he groaned.
"River," he whispered as she shook her head. "River please, I just want to talk to you."
"Talk to me, what about? How our baby's a mistake? How the child you acted so excited about is really a huge mistake because we can't keep them safe?" she questioned as she stood up, her hand reaching under her pillow to remove the gun which she firmly held onto and pointed it at him. "You can't keep anyone safe Doctor, none of your companions are ever safe but we still love and trust you, we still follow you around no matter what the danger is. You never call any of us a mistake so why is our baby a mistake?" she shouted at him, not caring who heard.
"River, what are you doing?" he immediately panicked as she tightened her grip of the weapon. "River put the gun down, let's talk about this. Calm down and we'll go into the TARDIS and we'll talk about everything," he declared as he stared at the gun, hating that his wife had to be trigger happy. "I bought you presents to say sorry."
"What? You think you can buy my forgiveness now?" she angrily asked as she moved closer, still holding onto the gun tightly. "You think you can buy my forgiveness when you told me that our child, a child I thought we were both happy about, was a mistake," she hissed, pressing the gun into his chest over one of his hearts as he looked down at it for a moment before glancing up to see the tears in her eyes. "You clearly don't know me as well as I thought Doctor."
"River please," he whispered.
"Just go away, just leave us alone," she declared as he shook his head and rested his hand over hers that was holding tightly onto the gun. "You might not want the baby Doctor but I do and I will do this without you because I would rather do it alone than have you pretend to care about us."
"I want this baby more than anything River. I was scared, I was stupid and I said things that I didn't mean but I want this baby River. I want you and this baby and the family we're creating more than anything in the world and I'm just terrified about losing either of you because I've lost one family and I can't lose another," the Doctor explained as she shook her head, attempting to remain angry at him. "And I didn't buy you presents to buy your forgiveness, I bought you presents because you deserve to be spoilt and treated like the goddess that you are and I never do River. I take advantage of you and I never treat you properly," he began as she stared at him. "I wanted to prove that I could be the husband you deserve River. That I could be the man you fell in love with and fought so strongly for. For god's sake River you attempted to change a fixed point in time because you loved me and I couldn't even see it. I shout at you and fight you and I don't act like I love you most of the time even though I do," he blurted out, desperate for her to remove the gun from above his heart as shock covered her face. "River please, I'm sorry," he finally begged.
"If you ever say that our baby is a mistake again," she warned as she kept the gun pressed firmly against his chest, anger beginning to replace the tearful expression again as she glared up at him. "I will kill you and I will make sure that it is the longest and most painful death in the whole of time and space Doctor, do you understand?" she questioned as he nodded quickly.
"I understand, I completely and utterly understand how much I screwed up and I deserve any punishments you decide to give me River because I hurt you and in a way I hurt our baby too," he explained, watching as she slowly lowered her gun before she moved away to put it under her pillow again and turning to face him. "Forgive me, please forgive me River," he begged, wrapping his arms around her body as she stared up at him.
"I have never wanted to kill you as much as I did the moment you said that Doctor," she admitted as he nodded, his hands moving to cup her face as she continued to stare at her husband. Had he really just said all of that? Had he really just told her practically everything he was feeling? "And instead of dealing with what you said the moment you said it like you should have done, you walked off to get a cup of tea."
"I'm an idiot and I've never been so angry with myself," he stated as concern covered her face, wondering what he'd done. "I swore River, I actually was really rude."
"I don't believe you," she stated. "You never swear."
"I read your note and I swore, I swore for quite a while actually," he declared as she laughed before wrapping her arms around his neck, holding him close as he tightened his hold of her, not wanting to let her go. "I'm so sorry, I'm so stupid and I shouldn't have said it, I don't know why I said it," he mumbled as she shut her eyes, allowing herself to finally relax. "I deserve to be shot for that comment."
"I shouldn't have said what I did about your companions," she whispered as he shook his head.
"I deserved it River, everything you said I deserved and you were right, I don't see them as mistakes even when I put them in danger," he declared as she slowly moved away so she could see him properly. "What would your mother say if she found out I'd gotten her daughter pregnant?" he smiled as River laughed, the mood immediately lightening because of the change in conversation.
"It isn't her you'd be worried about Doctor, it would be dad," she declared as the Doctor nodded.
"Rory the Roman and his sword, yeah I wouldn't be telling him that you're pregnant River. That would all be down to you," the Doctor muttered before shaking his head and laughing, remembering the various looks he got off Rory for just standing too close to River. "He would kill me."
"Do you remember the time he caught you…?" River began.
"I have forgotten that event River, let's not discuss it anymore," the Doctor almost squealed as she laughed at his terrified expression.
"You had your hands up my shirt and dad walked in, he chased you all around the TARDIS threatening to kill you for touching up his daughter and the only reason he stopped was because mom intervened on your behalf after about fifteen minutes," River smirked as the Doctor groaned.
"Well if you hadn't just stood their laughing River, Amy might not have had to intervene and the whole thing could have been dealt with much earlier than it was," he stated as she shrugged, remembering how terrified her husband had been when Rory chased him around the TARDIS threatening to kill him for touching his daughter inappropriately. "Open your presents River," he whispered after a few moments of silence, a laugh leaving her lips as she slowly approached the boxes and carried them towards the bed before sitting down and running her hand across her abdomen. "Are you okay?"
"I'm just tired, I haven't been sleeping well since our fight," River explained as he stared at her for a moment.
"When did we have our fight?" the Doctor questioned as she glanced down in silence before looking up at him.
"A week ago," she admitted as he groaned, realising that he'd arrived at the wrong time again. "I think it's time you start learning to drive her properly sweetie."
"It could have been worse, I could have been a month late or so late that the baby was already here and I'd missed everything," he commented here as she shook her head and glanced across at the TARDIS.
"She wouldn't let you miss the birth of your child Doctor," River stated with certainty before lifting one of the boxes onto her lap and removing the lid, glancing down at the contents in amazement. "Either this has all shrunk or it's for the baby," she smirked.
"It's for the baby," he stated as River nodded, smiling as she removed the small blanket and various items of clothing that were all a shade of TARDIS blue. "I decided to get everything to match the TARDIS clothes wise because I can't imagine a child of ours in bright pink River," he admitted as River nodded.
"You think we're having a daughter don't you?" she asked as he shrugged.
"Fifty, fifty chance but I think it's going to be a girl. A beautiful, impossible girl," he admitted as River nodded, her fingers running across the small blanket he'd placed in the box as one of her presents.
"This is old," River commented as she continued to hold onto it tightly. "Where did you get this?"
"It was your father's River, I asked Brian for anything he had of Rory's when he was a baby and this was it. Your grandmother made it for Rory when she was pregnant," he explained as River bit into her lip before holding the soft blanket close to her face and shutting her eyes while he watched her, glad to see that she was happy again.
"Thank you," River smiled, not wanting to let go of it as the Doctor packed the rest of his baby purchases back into the box. "Can you keep this in the TARDIS? I don't want them going through my baby's stuff," she admitted as the Doctor nodded, not surprised by her request.
"This one's for you," the Doctor stated, quickly passing her the other box as she laughed and rested the small blanket on her pillow before opening it, confusion covering her face when she found another box inside.
"Doctor," she moaned as he watched her go through the various boxes before reaching the final box that was tiny compared to the original. Slowly lifting the lid, River felt the shock cover her face as she stared at the ring that was resting inside the box. "Doctor," she whispered in amazement as he lifted the ring out of the box and slowly moved onto his knee. "Doctor get up, don't make more of an idiot of yourself than you already have recently."
"River, I know we can't really wear engagement or wedding rings but I wanted you to at least have one," he admitted as she remained silent. "You're my wife River Song, whether it was in an aborted timeline or not," he declared as he found his hand and slowly slid the ring onto her finger before pressing a kiss to the palm of her hand. "I want you to feel like you're a wife sometimes, like everything's kind of normal even though it's not and probably never will be," he smiled, laughing when she quickly kissed him. "I want you to be able to put on a ring when I'm not there and tell people, with evidence, that you're a married woman Mrs Doctor because I love you and I love our family."
"I am not going to cry," she stated as he watched her in amazement. "And if I do, it's because of our baby making me all emotional," she added as he nodded before he sat up and wrapped his arms around her. "We're in this together Doctor, no more mistakes," she whispered as he nodded and kissed her again as silent tears ran down her cheeks. "I hate you; you've made me an emotional wreck."
"Don't worry, you're always going to be the strongest person I've ever known River," he declared before standing up and moving towards the TARDIS with the box of baby clothes. "Now you should get some sleep, you need to look after yourself and the baby and I'll come back soon and take you somewhere special."
"Don't think just because I'm pregnant you can start to boss me around Doctor, it doesn't work like that," she responded as she relaxed back on her bed with the baby blanket in her hands.
"I wouldn't dare River," he smiled, watching from the doorway of the blue box as River pulled her blanket over herself again and buried her face into the cushion, her hands clinging onto Rory's baby blanket.
"Go away now, I'm sleeping," River called out as he laughed and slowly entered the blue box to find Clara waiting for him.
"How did it go then?" she immediately asked as he confidently put his thumbs up. "So the wife likes you again?"
"I think so, she did have a gun pressed to one of my hearts at one point but we got over that after a while," he shrugged before walking through the control room as Clara remained perfectly still. Stopping before he left the room completely, the Doctor smiled before he turned to look at his newest companion. "Clara," he called over as she turned to face him slowly.
"Yes?"
"Thank you for the help with the baby clothes and the ring and well just getting me here," he stated as she smiled.
"You fight the aliens and any threats and I'll make sure your marriage doesn't end," she shrugged as he nodded. "Deal?" she asked.
"Deal."
Again I don't like this chapter but this is what my brain came up with even though I'm supposed to be revising Volpone and Blake right now.
Anyway, please review because your comments make me smile and do actually make me feel good about myself for once.
