Only The Good Die Young

Chapter 7

"Morning Rachel, ready to work?" Asks Grant as soon as I arrive at the theatre. Since our summer break I have been so much happier and Grant has been much kinder.

We've only got one more rehearsal and then it's opening night! I'm very excited but so nervous! We've been rehearsing for months now and our whole cast has grown so close. I haven't got any better but the hospital gave me lots of painkillers and sleeping tablets to help me get properly rested so I can stay well. I still haven't spoken to Finn but I text him so that he knows I'm fine but I just don't want to talk on the phone but we will when he gets back. I don't know when that will be though, there has been no news of when he's returning, he normally calls me about a week before he's returning so that I can get ready but so far there's been nothing.

I'm so proud of Finn, he's an amazing man. When I think of how little he thought of himself at high school, I can see that he has become such a wonderful person. He joined the army to give his dad a memory and he managed to get his status changed to honourable instead of dishounourable, he liked the army life so decided to stay for a while but in between he has come back to New York and done various concerts and small musicals. He's become pretty well know on the Broadway scene and every time he comes back the directors are queuing up to get him in their show. Last time he came home he told me that this would be his last tour with the army but I don't know if that's true? I hope it is because I miss and worry about him so much when he's away.

Once this rehearsal is done I'm going to go home, watch the latest episode of Smash and text Finn. When I text him, I feel like we're together, but I can't call him because hearing his voice makes me miss him so badly. I've decided that when he comes home I am definitely going to tell him and I won't force him to stay because he feels sorry for me, if he wants to leave he can leave and I will be fine.

To be honest, the past few weeks, I haven't really had time to feel upset, we've been so busy with rehearsals and press conferences that I haven't had time to stop and think. When I do have time i just end up going to sleep so that I'm ready for the next day.

Although I know things aren't physically getting better, I feel better and if I keep feeling like this then maybe everything won't be so bad.

I haven't seen Quinn for a few weeks but she went to the hospital last week and she's having a boy! Just what they wanted! She said that Noah is so happy and he keeps planning what they're gonna do together! I'm incredibly happy for them. But now I'm back to rehearsal.

"Thank you everyone for all your hard work, we are definitely ready to take Broadway by storm, see you tomorrow morning for a quick run through! Make sure you all rest! Rach, can I talk to you?"

"Yeah sure, what is it?"

"Nothing wrong, I just want to say how proud I am of you, you have grown into a proper star before my eyes, if you don't win a Tony for this then the critics are mad! Your career is going to be a long one!" and with that James hugged me for the first time.

"Thank you so much" I knew he was wrong, my career isn't going to be long but at least I'll be in one more amazing musical!