I realize I haven't given credit to Dick Wolf and everyone else. So let's just skip all the blah blah blah and say I don't own svu or Amanda Rollins or Olivia Benson or any of that amazing shit... Lets get on with the story.

Casey Novak did a very smart thing at that point. She apologized, let out a sigh, and left Olivia's office. This left me alone with a very shaky and very rattled Olivia Benson.

"It's not her fault you know. Casey being the way she is, that is." Olivia says letting out a calming breath and sitting back in her chair.

"Well it sure as hell ain't your fault, Liv." I say crossing my arms and thinking about what she just said. I realized a second after my comment that she wasn't blaming herself or me or anyone in the squad room, she was blaming Alexandra Cabot.

"I can tell by the look on your face you know who caused her to be this way." She says running her hand through her short brown hair, " The wonderful Alex Cabot." She continues sarcastically.

"Can you explain why Casey is so cold because one person cant make someone that cold." I say shaking my head and sitting on the couch on the other side of Liv's desk.

Liv picks up a pen and starts chewing on the end of it. Then she looks up at me and thinks for a second before answering. "Don't take this the wrong way Amanda but you aren't a perfect person. You know that and I know that. I love you anyway. Neither was Casey, but Alex was perfect. Perfect hair, clothes, nails, teeth, smile, kisses, parents, life, perfect everything. Even when she isn't trying to be everyone thinks she's perfect. The only secret she has is that she is gay. She was... is a great person. She just isn't used to not getting everything she wants. Try living up to that. Casey just couldn't do it. Then she cracked under the pressure, got disbarred, and left me and New York."

I study her face and then look down at my hands. I look back up at her and say, "you haven't done it before?" Then realizing the vagueness of my question.

"Done what before?" She asks.

"Lost control and gone all psychotic badass Benson on one of their asses. Not even in private." I reply laughing at Olivia's glare.

"No! And badass Benson, really!" She replies, shaking her head.

"That's what I think of you as. It's a great nickname. Almost better than Liv." I reply walking out of her office and back to my desk.

The rest of the day was uneventful. We did some paperwork on some cases and processed some evidence and finished some DD5s. Around 5:30 Liv came and was talking to me, Fin, and Nick. Of course then the day got a little worse. Alex Cabot walked into the precinct for the second time that day and walked straight over to us.

She stopped at us and tried to pull Liv aside while glaring at me. She gave a curt "hello" to Fin and Nick. They nodded in reply and went on with their conversation. In the middle of Liv and Alex's heated argument Casey walked into the precinct obviously searching for Olivia.

When she sees Alex her eyes go from cold to freezing. And her face scrunches up. She practically storms over to us and taps Alex on the shoulder. They start arguing and saying things at the same time so that it is impossible for me to make out what they are saying.

All of a sudden Olivia gets up and walks over to the now shouting duo. Most people's eyes in the precinct are on the two. "Shut the god damn hell up!" Olivia shouts raising her arms in emphasis. Finally realizing what she has said ,in front the entire precinct very loudly to add, she clamps her hand over her mouth.

"Well I'm leaving!" Alex shouts storming out. Casey waves and smirks at Alex's back.

"Why won't you hear me out or give me a second chance!" Casey turns and says to Olivia much quieter now.

"No. I am done with quiet and secrets and all this shit. Since the whole precinct probably has already heard some of this I'll just explain! I'm a very pissed off woman right now and that's not good for you Casey." She says glaring. She tried to continue but is interrupted by Casey.

"Liv let's just go to your office and discuss this rationally." Casey says coolly.

"No, Casey. Just so everyone knows I'm bisexual. I have dated my share of men and my share of women. I dated our oldest ADA Alex Cabot. Then I dated this bitch, Casey Novak. Guess what?!" Olivia says, we voice finally cracking and her eyes flashing red. "She left New York and moved to Maryland! Without so much as a goodbye. I had to learn about her leaving from Fin!"

"But I'm back and I'm apologizing and I'm fixing my mistakes. I get the feeling that this is more about Cabot than about my leaving." Casey screams at Liv, crossing her arms.

"This has nothing to do with Alex. I don't love Alex anymore and I don't love you anymore! I love someone else. More than I ever loved you or Alex!" Olivia says loudly losing her voice.

"Oh that bitch you are dating. That blonde, young bimbo." Casey says glaring at me. Then Olivia does something I would do. Something I didn't expect her to do. She punched Casey square in the face.

"You shouldn't have said that about her." Liv says cracking her knuckles. A few people gasp and a few are shell shocked. Fin laughs and Nick smiles.

"Liv!" I shout.

"She shouldn't have called you that!" She shouts at me. As the words sink into everyone they finally sink into me. As if that isn't enough she walks over to me. Makes me stand up and says, quite loudly," I don't give a shit anymore!"

She wraps her hands in my straight hair and pulls me in for a very shell-shocking and surprising kiss. A round of applause and Nick and Fin hooting snaps us both back to reality. Olivia stands speechless. She drops her hands to her side and walked to her office closing the door behind her.