Chapter 2

This whole 'faking it' fiasco has been going on now for over a month. I feel like I am about to loose my mind. We have another 2 weeks before homecoming and it's getting harder and harder to keep my feelings in check. I step off the bus and start about my day as usual. Something just feels…weird about today though and I can't figure out why.

"Amy!" I turn around to find Shane running towards me as fast as his skinny jeans will let him. "You have to come with me! Now!"

"Why? What's going on?"

"It's Karma, she came in early today to help Liam and I start putting up decorations for homecoming and fell off the ladder! She is in the nurses off asking for you!"

Karma is deathly afraid of heights! What the hell was she doing on a ladder to begin with! If she is fine I am going to kill her! Shane is right behind me as we rush to the nurse's office.

"Karma! Are you okay, sweetie?" During school hours we both used pet names to keep the status quo up, but it had soon become an all around thing we just did. Actually, come to think of it, we now do a lot of things we designated for school all the time now! Besides kissing, we held hands more, called each other pet names and acted like a real couple.

"Amy!" She grabbed around my neck and I circled around her waist! She was squeezing for dear life and I no longer could be mad at her! "I'm sorry! I know I shouldn't have gotten on the ladder but I just thought since it wasn't far off the ground I would be okay, but as soon as I got on the top step I felt faint!"

"It's okay Karma, I am just glad you are alright! Do you want to go home?"

After she loosened around my neck she just shook her head yes. I looked at Shane and he offered to take us to Karma's house and get any work we would miss that day. Where the hell is Liam? That was the main question going through my mind! Karma might have come to help them both but Liam was the main reason she had come so why wasn't he in the nurses office with her too! I'll have to ask her when we get home.

We stayed in bed all day watching reruns of Law and Order: SVU and sleeping. Well, Karma would dose off, but I was wide awake. Every time she would fall asleep I couldn't help but stare. My God she was so beautiful. I don't know how anyone could not fall in love with her. Shit! I have got to keep my shit together. Once homecoming is over we can just go back to the way it was…can't we? I sure hope so, but until then I will take any chance I get to be this close to her. I lived for days like this. Weekends especially.

She and Karma had a routine now to keep their friendship strong and appearances up along with allowing Karma time to sneak off and see Liam if she wanted. On Fridays they would go to Shane's parties and do the couple thing. On Saturdays they might see each other but most of the time they were busy with family stuff or getting schoolwork out of the way. Karma would also take Saturday night's to go see Liam, but Sundays were always their day.

"Hey Karma, why wasn't Liam in the nurses office with you? Shane said you came to help him and Liam so why wasn't he there with you?" The question had been bugging me all day so after lunch I just let it out.

"Well…" Karma shifted uncomfortably in the bed and wouldn't look at me.

"Karma, did he do something to you?"

"No, nothing like that, it's just…if I tell you I need you to keep your cool and not go ape shit about it."

I have no idea what pretty boy did but I swear if it he hurt her I will kick him so hard he won't be able to reproduce! "Just tell me Karma…"

"Okay, well I got to the school earlier than the boys because I wanted to get a head start and surprise them to try and get more attention from Liam, but when I got there I heard something coming from the art room were all the decorations were. When I opened the door Liam was making out with another girl. Well, I guess you can call it making out because their lips were together but they also barely had any clothes on."

I'm gonna kill him! I'm gonna kill him! Those were the only words I could form in my head at this exact moment. I tried to keep a calm face but I knew she could tell in my body movements I was getting uncomfortable. I let her keep going without saying anything though.

"They didn't see me, but they might have heard me leave because I got out of there as fast as I could. It wasn't 10 minutes later and Liam came walking into the auditorium with Shane. I honestly had not had enough time to process what I saw, but it's what I didn't feel that made me so…I don't know…worried and scared."

What she didn't feel? I am so confused but I need to know what she was so worried about. I place my hand on her knee and try to convey a look of 'you can trust me' without saying anything. "It's okay Karma, just tell me."

"Well, I have been trying for the past month to get him to fall in love with me. I don't want my first time to be with someone who doesn't love me, but I also don't want it to be with someone I don't love. Amy, I felt nothing when he walked into the gym! I wasn't mad! I wasn't hurt! I felt ABSOLUTELY nothing! It took me seeing him with some other girl to realize…I don't love him. I mean I like him, and the making out is great, but there is nothing there. No spark, and I just feel so dumb."

OMG! OMG! She doesn't like Liam! This is great! NO, wait what does this mean for us. Do we stop faking it now? Does Karma still want to be popular? Wait, she never answered my question to why he wasn't in the nurse's office with her. "Oh, Karma I'm sorry, but that doesn't really answer my question to why he wasn't with you?"

"Oh yeah, after I fell he tried to help to the nurse's office, but I was still so confused by this morning I told him to go on because I was going to wait for you. I didn't want anyone to know about my fear of heights so I just played it off as a headache and waited for you because I knew you would understand what really happened."

I leaned in and kissed her on the forehead. What? Why did I just do that? There is no need for show! We are in her bedroom by ourselves! I internally start to panic but when I see her smile up at me I calm down a bit. She slides her head back into the crook of my shoulder and resumes the show.

My breathing is shallow but I am trying to hide how nervous and excited I am to see how the following days pan out. Maybe I should show her what falling in love is really about. Come on Amy, you can't even face your feelings, how do you plan on showing your best friend. Gosh I'm in deep.