I suppose I can't just relieve all the good times in our history. Beca and I had definitely been down dark roads. The thing was, we never really felt it was necessary to mention them to anyone else and no one was ever around to see them.

The worst day in our relationship happened shortly after I'd moved in. I had just finished a midterm and Beca had suggested I stay home and catch up on some much needed sleep. It wasn't an unusual thing; she often noticed my needs before I did. So I agreed. I told her I'd take a nap and wait up for her.

Around two I knew the set was over so I decided I would go to the club and pick her up. I pulled up as Beca walked out. I was just about to call her when I noticed a girl come out. She grabbed Beca's hand and whispered something in her ear. Beca nodded and they both moved closer and they kissed. When they pulled away that ocean blue locked with mine, and widened.

I left without her. She walked in about five minutes after I had slammed the door. Jesse recognizing a fight brewing took off and hid in his room.

"Are you even going to bother trying to explain that? And don't even bother telling me that she kissed you because I saw the whole fucking thing Beca. What did she ask you when you said yes to her? Planning on sleeping in another bed tonight Beca? Or just fucking her and then coming home and kissing me?" I yelled at her, refusing to let the tears burning my eyes fall out.

"Chloe, please calm down. I'm sorry. It was… Exactly what you saw. I fucked up. I'm not even going to bother trying to explain it away. Her and I used to have a thing, purely sexual. I guess when I saw her… I fell into old habits. I was drunk and I messed up. Baby, I'm so sorry." she wasn't hiding her tears like I was.

"Look, I gotta cool down Beca. I'm going to Amy's for the night. Maybe we can talk tomorrow. Tonight though, I can't even look at you." I spat out.

I turned to leave and she grabbed my arm. Big mistake. I turned around and shoved her against the brick wall of our apartment.

"You don't fucking touch me." I yelled at her.

That set her off. She came back at me with an angry punch to the face. I felt my nose break and tasted blood. I brought my knee up to her stomach and we fell to the ground. A loud crack filled the hallway as I landed on her wrist. It didn't stop there though. She got up and kicked the flower stand towards me. I covered my head as the small table connected with my back. I launched back at her, trying to hit, kick or scratch any part of her I could.

Jesse had wised up to what was going on in his apartment and came out. He pulled us apart and put us on separate couches. We both sat there just catching our breath. Beca was clutching her wrist.

"Jesus fucking Christ you two. What in the hell is going on? I mean, shit guys, you wanna fight then fight. Yell and scream til your voice stops working if you so choose, break shit, smoke a joint, take a walk. Do anything. But I will not let you kick the shit out of each other. I can't. Look at the state of you. Beca that's definitely broken and Chloe's nose looks like it too. I am going to get my phone. My friend is a third year doctorate student. He'll come check this stuff out, fix you up and keep it quiet. Can you two be civil while I grab it? I nodded.

Beca went to the freezer and got two icepacks. She wrapped and old dishtowel around one and brought it to me. She sat down beside me and we shared a joint. She leaned over and whispered in my ear.

"Never again baby. I'm so sorry. Never again. Okay?"

"Never." I agreed.

We still fought, often. She was always working and that started fights. I spent too much of her time off doing homework, and that started fights. I wanted to get a job and help out. Beca was stubborn and refused to let me. That always started a fight. We never got violent again though. Beca made sure of it. Anytime she saw me escalate, she left and let me cool off. When I was calm again I'd call her and she'd come home.

Another bad one was the day we finally decided to back off with the blow.

Beca had introduced me to cocaine shortly after we got together. I enjoyed it. Problem was, I enjoyed it too much. I spent all of our summer break ripped. Beca was even a bit worried about me. One night, I was at one of Beca's shows and I was doing lines off her laptop. I did like four back to back, after spending the last four hours getting to the level I was already at. I could feel my heart pounding like a drum roll. Then all of the sudden the room went silent and black.

I woke up to the sound of a heart monitor beeping in the distance. When I opened my eyes, Jesse and Beca were sitting in the room both asleep. When she heard the bed stir, Beca's eyes opened. The first thing I saw was that ocean blue. I tried sitting up.

"Shh babe. Just lay still for a while. You overdosed. It's okay. You're going to be fine. We just got to stop for a while Chlo. We took it too far and now we have to rewind and try this different. Okay? Jesse and I are both in on it with you." she whispered trying not to wake up Jesse.

I agreed. We weren't perfect by any means, but we tried. Desperately we tried.

Beca and I had a rule we liked to go by. We never went to bed angry with the other. The day we did that would be the day that ruined us. There were times we would stay up until three in the morning trying to work out a problem. We always did. Beca and I had always managed to piece our broken things back together and neither of us had been prepared for that.

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