This is a Dirk X Roxy one shot for DirkDavegonnaStride . I hope you enjoy~~

Dirk X Roxy - Cross My Heart. Word count- 1,031

Roxy took another swig from her vodka bottle. She couldn't fucking believe it. He was gay?

Really she should have seen it coming. Every guy she had the slightest interest in was to great not to be taken... Or gay apparently...

Couldn't things just go her way once? That was all she asked!

Downing the rest of the bottle, she stumbled into her closet sobbing, throwing on the most manly clothes she had.

Maybe if she was a guy he'd love her. Maybe if she was a guy, her life wouldn't be so confusing. Maybe if she was a guy, she could get
through to Rose, her teenage sister. Maybe Rose would like guys, and not have a girlfriend. Maybe she wouldn't have Rose. Maybe she'd
be dead.

Maybe that's what was best for every one.

If she could disappear. Leave the world without a trace. If she could leave without hurting the ones. Without making them cry, and
wonder why she did it.

She'd be gone in the blink of an eye.

A knock on her door brought her back to reality.

"Coomming!" She called, in her drunken state. Not bother to wipe her tears, or clean the blood off her wrists.

"Whoo isss iiittt?" She called in a sing-songy voice.

"Uh.. It's Dirk... I have to clear some things up with you Rox..." He said through the door.

"Ok Dirky!" She opened the door, forgetting about the make-up running down her face, and the blood running down her arms.

His smile faltered to a frown. "... Rox..."

Remembering everything she did, she ran into her room and locked the door behind her, just as she started sobbing.

Dirk came knocking on the door. "Rox ... Let me in... It's Ok... I won't ask of you don't want me to know."

She unlocked the door, and fell on the ground in a sobbing ball.

He opened the door, shocked to see Roxy a crying mess on the floor. Jake had told her he was gay, which was a lie. He was bi, there's a
difference. He actually had a crush on, well, that's a lie, he's madly in love with, the girl weeping at his feet. Crouching down next to her, he sighed. "Rox it's Ok..."

She climbed into his lap and sobbed into his shirt, soaking it in tears and blood.

"I-I'm Sorry..." She wiped her eyes with a bloody hand."I'm soo sorry, Dirky... I really am..." She buried her face in the crook of his neck.

"Don't be sad Rox..." He said, hugging her tightly.

"Rox? Are you home!" The door slammed shut.

"O-Oh gog! She can't see me like this! Dirk, hide me!" She sobbed in an exasperating tone.

He lifted her up easily, and walked her into the bathroom. He set her down on the floor, closing the door behind him, just as Rose walked
up the stairs.

"Oh, hey Dirk, is Roxy here?" She asked, looking down the hall, towards her older sisters's room.

"Yeah, but she's sick.. You might want to go to a friends house tonight." He said, running his fingers through his hair.

"I was going to anyway.. My friend Kanya's having a party... I'm just gonna get my bag..." She went back downstairs to her room.

After Rose had left, Roxy came out of the bathroom. She had washed the blood off her arms, which were still sightly bleeding, and the makeup off her face.

"Do you pity me? Is that why you came? Out of pity?" She asked, walking into her room, to grab her bottle of vodka off her dresser. She
took a long sip.

"Rox, give me that..." Dirk went for the bottle, grabbing it from her hands and throwing in on the ground, it contents spilling everywhere. "I will NEVER pity you, do you understand?! You're a strong girl! YOU DON'T NEED THE PITY! WHY CAN'T YOU UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH YOU'RE LOVED? WHY CAN'T
YOU UNDERSTAND?!"

"BECAUSE I CAN'T UNDERSTAND! I DON'T YOU SEE THAT DIRK?! I CAN'T, I CAN'T, I CAN'T!"

She was a sobbing mess, a shadow of a girl. she wasn't even sure who she was anymore. She was broken, broken beyond repair. She
didn't even deserve his attention. Let alone his help.

"Why though?! Can't you see how much everyone love's you?! CAN'T YOU SEE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU?!"

Did he just say that?

"Yeah, because that's true!"

"Roxy! I love you! I love you so much! Stop hurting yourself! Start believing you can! About how gorgeous you are! About how much you're loved!"

"HOW CAN I BELIEVE THAT WHEN I /KNOW/ IT'S NOT TRUE!"

He didn't say anything. He just kind of... Stared. She sunk to the ground crying. That's when he did what she thought no one would ever do. He got down next to her, pulled her into his lap and hugged her. Murmuring he loved her, over and over.

Once she had calmed down, and the tears stopped falling from her eyes, Dirk just hugged her. She eventually hugged back.

"I'll be telling you I love you, until you believe me, Rox. Got it?"

"Got it, Dirky..." He picked her up, and laid her on the bed. He sat on the edge of the bed, and grabbed her hand. she held on tight. "Please don't leave tonight..." Her voice was hoarse, probably from crying and screaming.

"I wouldn't dream of it.." He was rubbing small circles on the back of her hand with his thumb.

"W-With my experience, you will... Everyone leaves me... Even my-my mom left, Dirk. I was only thirteen years old. Rose was nine. Now Rose will.. She'll leave me too. And I'll be alone..." A tear slid down her cheek.

"I will never ever leave you alone. Ok?" He leaned over and kissed her forehead.

"P-Promise?"

"Cross my heart."