Hope you all enjoy this chapter it might be a bit sad. Just remember Spencer is going through a difficult time. It might be a little dark but Troian Bellisario said in an interview she wanted to see some darkness in Spencer's character and I have to agree.

Disclaimer: I own nothing of Pretty Little Liars or the characters.

I was running through the woods frantically. I didn't know if I was running from someone or to someone but I was running. Trees branches hitting me smacking me in the face, across the legs, and scraping my arms. I don't care I think I need to keep going. I need to run. The faster I run the closer or further I get. My face is wet. Why is my face wet? I wipe my cheeks with my sleeves I am crying but I keep running faster and faster my lungs hurt, my feet hurt but I can't stop. I keep running letting the trees continues their assault on my body. It feels good to feel the pain it reminds me to keep going. I do I feel like I am flying everything becomes blurry as I run. I am going faster. I smile to myself. I am like a super Hero like the Flash or something. I keep going but I feel something weighing me down and it's making noises but I don't listen. I just keep running. It is making me slower by the second. I look down and see I am carrying a baby. I stop sliding in the leaves and mud and fall to the ground protecting the infant but it's not enough. I am not enough there is blood everywhere and I cry and scream. "I'm sorry." I say to the baby "I am sorry. I couldn't save you. It's my entirely fault I'm so sorry." I scream letting all the pain out until I can't scream anymore.

I wake up in my bedroom gasping for air as my friends crowd around me. "Spencer are you okay?" Emily asks "It was just a dream." Aria says sweeping the sweaty hair out of my face as I attempt to catch my breath. "It was-"I paused trying to regain some composure. "It was not a dream it was a nightmare." I closed my eyes trying to shake the gruesome image from my mind." Do you want to talk about it? Hanna asked. I shook my head "No, no. I just need some air." I said climbing out of bed and putting my sweater on. "Can I borrow someone's phone" "Sure, Here." Emily nodded, handing me her phone. "Thanks, Could you guys cover for me? I will be back before dawn." Aria frowned "Please be careful." I nodded back and walked out the bedroom door cracking it as I listened to their conversation.

"Ugh, how weird was that?" Hanna sighed. "I don't know she is just really different. I guess being married will do that to you." Emily replied. "Guys, Spencer is acting really strange. Have you noticed she's like a totally different person now? She is way less intense than she used to be." "Yeah and she isn't even doing caffeine anymore. It's just so bizarre." Hanna added. "I just hope she knows what she is doing I can't bear to see her get hurt again." Emily added.

I fought back tears heading downstairs. Calling Toby on my way to the kitchen. "Hey I need you to come get me." I cried into the phone. "Sure, Spence what's wrong?" He said softly" I think I made a mistake. I can't do this." I said nervously looking around. "Sure, I am on my way" "Okay just hurry please." As I ended the call a message came in.

It's not that easy, Spencer. You leave town again and I will share all your secrets. How will your friends feel when they find out the real reason you left Rosewood.-A

No, A can't know I thought as I paced the kitchen floor. I deleted the text message and set Emily's phone on the counter. Running outside just as Toby pulled up throwing the door open and pulling him in for a kiss. "I missed you. I'm sorry to wake you." He smiled tucking a stray hair behind my ear and rubbed my jaw with his thumb. "Spencer, you are my wife. If you apologize every time you wake me up you owe me a ton of apologies." I cocked my head to the side and stared at him. "What do you mean?" I asked. He smirked "You talk in your sleep." I closed my eyes "Of course I do." I said sarcastically. "And what do I say?" He pulled out of the drive." Oh it is mostly mumbled words but occasionally you have a complete sentence or you mumble some clue." "Wait. I talk about clues in my sleep?" I asked surprised. He snickered. "Yeah I guess you can't even turn it off in your sleeping." I frowned "I guess not."

When we arrived at the motel my anxiety seemed to subside a bit. "What is it about being with you that is so calming?" He snickered "I guess I just have that effect in people." I rolled my eyes "Sure that's it." He smiles grabbing my hand and placing a soft kiss on my knuckles. "I'm glad you came back." I managed a weak smile before opening my door. "Me too. I can't sleep well without you."

We walked hand in hand to the room quietly enjoying being in each other's presence. When we were safe within the confines of the four walls. He grabbed me pulling me into a longing kiss and pushing me up against the door. "Let's leave again." I said breathless as he continued a trail of kisses down my neck and collarbone simultaneously pushing my sweater of my shoulders. "I am serious I don't think I can do this." I whispered his hands continuing their assault down the sides of my body. "Shh. Let's just go to bed." He replied between kisses. I smiled as he moved his hands to my backside lifting me up. I wrapped my legs around him as he carried me to the bed.

I awoke gasping again from the same horrible nightmare that seemed to be on repeat every time I closed my eyes. "Hey you okay?" Toby asked rubbing my back. "Just a nightmare." I admitted. "The same one? " He asked. I shook my head "No, this one is new and even worse." He rubbed his eyes. "Do you want to talk about it?" "No." I said terrified to see the horrific nightmare play in my head again. I got out of bed searching for my clothes. "What time is it?" He reached over to grab his phone letting the sheets slide off his waist. "Uh, it's quarter past five." He answered as I stared at my Husband's glorious body lying in front of me. "Good, we have more time." I stated launching myself onto the bed. He pushed me way slowly. "I thought you wanted to talk?" I rolled over placing my head in his chest "Yeah, I am not sure this is going to work I mean the girls know we got married." I admitted guiltily.

"You what?" He gasped sitting up so fast I was forced off of him. "Why would you tell them? I thought we agreed nobody needed to know." "We did but they saw my ring and started asking questions." I covered my face trying to hide from the argument that was coming. "Damn it, Spencer. I thought we agreed not to tell anyone yet." Tears threatened as my voice caught "I- I am sorry." He marched into the bathroom slamming the door. I got up and leaned against the wall. "Can't we just go back? This was a bad idea." He opened the door looking down at me. "No. you wanted to come back and we are staying." I sniffled "Have you heard anything about you know?" He bent down so he was face to face with me. "No, I haven't seen anything." I smiled as he kissed my forehead before standing up. "Shower with me?" he asked extending his hand. I nodded and giggled as he pulled me upright.

We drove up to my parents' when the first morning light started to break on the horizon. "I love you." I said kissing him quickly. "I love you too, Spence." He replied solemnly. "Call me if you can get out tonight?" I nodded "Of course." I opened the car door. "Be safe please." He smiled "You too." I returned his sad smile and closed the door watching him drive away.

I tiptoed in the back door trying to be as stealthy as I could. Gasping as I ended up nearly running in to my mother. "Mom, God you scared me." She glared at me "Not yet. I haven't. Where were you?" I shrugged sitting at the breakfast bar. "I just went for a walk." She raised her eyebrows "For four hours?" Busted. "I- um I- just." "Look Spencer I get it you went to see Toby but we just got you back. You can't go sneaking off in the middle of the night." I was angry now "I can do or go where ever I want to I am eighteen now mother. Your little girl is grown up and-"I paused hesitating knowing it would not be a good idea to bring up the marriage thing right now. She nodded "I see well. I am still your mother and if you want to live here you will listen. You were stupid and reckless, Spencer. You left us all wondering if you were even alive and not to mention you were tied up last night. I don't know what is going on with you but it ends here. I will not lose a daughter there has been too much loss in our community lately. I just don't know if everyone could survive another one."

I swallowed the lump in my throat. "It wouldn't be that big of a loss mom. I know how everyone feels about me. I am sure people appreciated my absence, you and Melissa especially. I know it was wonderful to be able to focus on your perfect princess with me out of the picture. So quit feeding me that crap. I am going to do whatever I want and I would like to see you stop me." She turned away "well I am sorry you feel that way Spencer." My resolve weakened "Mom I am sorry. I didn't mean that. I just miss Toby." She turned to face me again wiping the tears from her eyes. "I just don't get what you and Toby have. You have your whole life ahead of you. First loves aren't meant to last." "'It's too late for that." I whispered under my breath sliding my left hand further into my pocket. She narrowed her eyes at me. "I am going to talk this over with your father but I think we are going to make some changes to your trust. So you may leave I am not sure if I want you in this house anymore." I was shocked I didn't quite know what to say. I opened my mouth but she held her hand up and walked away. Great I thought now I have royally screwed up.

I marched into my bedroom slamming the door. "Thanks a lot for covering me guys." I said to my three traitorous friends. "Spence, she just barged in here and didn't give us a chance to make up an excuse." Aria said standing up." "Well I just basically got kicked out of the house." "No way." Hanna said with mock surprise. I looked around realizing they were just as mad as I was. Narrowing my eyes I asked "What happened?" Emily glared at me holding up her phone revealing the message I thought I deleted. I sighed throwing myself onto the bed. "How much has A told you?" Emily was furious. "Enough to know you lied to us about what happened and set us up." Aria looked ashamed "You know Spencer I am starting to think Ali was right you are just like she was." "Ouch." "Well Spencer since you clearly enjoyed all that time away from us we will give you some space." Hanna added as they gathered their things and walked out the door.

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Oh and don't worry things will work out with the girls. It is a drama fic though so I couldn't help myself.