Chapter 12
Hazel
I don't know how it happened, but it did. Days passed, I slept a lot, took my meds, ate as much as I could, and I got better. Well as better as you can get with terminal cancer. My mom made an appointment with Doctor Maria and she told us that my vitals are up, and that I'm okay to be of the BiPap for a bit, at least while I have the chance. So when I got home mom gave me permission to drive over to Isaacs house as long as I was back in an hour and I called her at least once while I was there.(I wasn't about to complain, I'm more free than I've been in weeks.)
Isaac's mom opened the door.
"Hazel?! I'm so glad to see you! I though, I thought…" I nod
"I know, somehow I pulled through; I don't know something happened and my doctor said I could leave the house for short periods of time."
"That's fantastic!" She hugs me then sends me to Isaac's bedroom. The minute I walk in Kate runs up to me and hugs me so hard I drop my tank. I laugh.
"Hazel I can't believe you're here! You're okay now?" I smile at her, and then Isaac gets up and feels around then finally finds me and gives me a hug.
"I don't really know what happened exactly, but I guess I have a bit more time." We go sit on his bed, him and Kate are hand in hand.
'We were just watching a movie, but we can turn it off if you want." I shake my head.
"No no that's okay; I'd love to watch it with you. What movie?"
"V for Vendetta." She says. My heart leaps to my throat.
"Oh…I…Um…" She takes my hand.
"Are you okay?" She asks me.
"Ya…It's just…The first time I met Augustus, he told me I looked like a millennial Natalie Portman then we watched V for Vendetta together, but it's…okay…I'm okay." She takes the remote and turns off the TV.
"No, it's not okay, I'm really sorry I didn't know."
"It's okay." I say and force a smile. I really didn't want to sit there anymore so I told them I had a headache and that I should probably get some to check my oxygen levels. They smile sadly at me then let me go after a final hug.
"I'm back!" I yell when I walk through the front door of my house.
"That was fast" My mom says coming into the front room to greet me.
"They were…I just wanted to come home." I say while hanging my coat in the closet.
"Okay…Are you alright?" I smile and nod.
"I just kind of want to go read for a bit." She nods then comes with me to my room to attach my back up to the biPap. When she leaves, I pull out my laptop and look through all the photos of my and Gus, tears silently flowing down my cheeks and onto my t-shirt. Then after a while, I call his phone, and when it goes to voice mail, I leave a message: "Hi Augustus. It's been a while. I just wanted…Needed to tell you that the amount of my love towards you hasn't and will never change and that each and every moment, I ache for you. I want you back with me so badly it hurts. When I was dying, before I made my miraculous recovery, I was sad of course, because no one really wants to die, I mean not really. But part of me was happy, because I would be with you again, and even if I wasn't with you, I wouldn't have to ache for you anymore, I wouldn't have to suffer through the days. I'm going to die someday soon, so please don't hate me for what I'm going to do. I just can't do this anymore.
See you soon.
I hang up my phone then I call my mom to tell me I want to go to bed. She comes and kisses me on the forehead, makes sure the BiPap is working properly then turns out my light. I wait a little while then I turn on the lamp beside my bed, and adjust the oxygen levels on the BiPap. My lungs burn as I drift away from human consciousness.