I don't own Fairy Tail :( But I do own this fanfic. Here's chapter 10 Enjoy :D
It had been an hour since she had finished her bath and left her house and now the blonde was sitting in front of Karen's grave. She felt bad for going to the grave of another guilds desist member but this was the only spot she knew of that no one else in the guild knew about, well except for Loke of course. She thought this spot would be perfect not only for the reason that no one knew of it but also the setting surrounding it was simply beautiful. On the single rock ledge held Karen Lilica's grave and surrounding it was not only a beautiful but huge waterfall.
The only problem was that being in such a place with only her thoughts she ended up doing the worst possible thing she could. Laying on the ledge as the mist from the waterfall splashed onto her face all she could do was think of the worse possible scenarios of how tomorrow could go. Which in doing so was making her more nervous then she was already, and when she wasn't thinking about Natsu her mind would wonder to Gray.
"What are you doing here?" a familiar male voice asked. Knowing full well who her male visitor was the blonde sat up and glanced over her shoulder. "The better question is why did you pass through the gate without me summoning you here, Loke?"
"That's simple" he replied as he pushed up his glasses and gave his key holder a flirtatious smile "I had a feeling my princess was distressed so as your knight I had to come make sure you were ok."
"Well don't worry" Lucy replied "I'm fine so you can go back to the spirit world. I'm just here thinking about some things." Since Loke had become her spirit she had become used to his flirtatious ways so comments like that didn't faze her much.
"Is it about your feelings for Natsu?" That question however did surprise her "How did you..." Taking a seat next to her he explained.
"As celestial spirits we are aware of our key holders feelings towards a person and your feelings towards the dragon slayer are very obvious to all of us. However, and I'm sure you're aware of it at this point but there is a certain ice mage has made his feelings for you known as well." All Lucy could do at this point was stare at Loke in shock at how informed he was on everything. "Trust me I've known Gray for a few years now and he rarely shows interest in woman, but with you it's different. So... what are you gonna to do?"
Such a simple question but the blond was no where near ready to answer. "I don't know" was all she could say. "I know this is all confusing" the celestial lion spirit said in a comforting but serious tone "but you need to think long and hard about this. How exactly do you feel about Gray?" Looking up at the sky she closed her eyes for a second as she pictured the ice mage in her mind then turning to look at Loke she replied.
"Well I like him. He's such an amazing wizard and a very handsome guy. Even though he has the habit to strip his clothes it's so easy to look past it and see all his other great qualities. He's so sweet and always there for me when I need him. Even though he fights with Natsu all the time he acknowledges him as a good friend and though he's serious most of the time he can be goofy too." Letting out a sigh she turned her gaze away from the celestial spirit and looked back up at the sky. "I think if I had joined the guild another way the outcome of my feelings could have been different I mean it's not like they are set in stone or anything but it seem's my heart has made a choice. Meeting Natsu, I don't want to say it was fate but in a way it kind of was. Running into him in Hargeon, him being a member of the guild of my dreams and helping me join Fairy Tail and then us forming a team, it all seems sareal in its own way. I've seen him do some amazing things in all of the fights he's been in. His characteristics are almost identical to Grays but at the same time they are different too. They are both exceptional wizards, no doubt about it. Natsu acts so goofy but when it comes down to it he takes any fight he's in seriously. Although he is very destructive on jobs he makes sure to give it his all."
"And what about Lisanna?" Loke spoke suddenly "I know you are aware of her feelings towards Natsu. They've had a sort of connection since they were kids. I'm not sure what Natsu's feelings are towards either of you but if he were to choose her would you be able to handle it? Are you sure you want to put your heart on the line for a 50/50 shot that his feelings for you will be the same?"
Lucy could feel tears forming up in her eyes at that moment. She was a little scared to take that chance but if she didn't then she'd never know. "I won't know until I try" She replied as she wiped away the tears in her eyes "If he doesn't return my feeling I will be hurt but I'll get past it. I know it will be hard but If I don't try then I'll always wonder what if."
Letting out a satisfied chuckle the celestial spirit got up off the ground and dusted the dirt off of his pants "Well I'll admit you've become stronger in more ways then one Lucy but I'll ask you one more question before I take my leave back to the celestial world." Looking up at the spirit she raised an eyebrow in curiosity "If his feelings for you aren't the same then what will you do knowing that someone else has feelings for you? Because it's obvious to me that somewhere in your heart you see Gray as more then just a friend but will you let the heartache of rejection be your reason for ignoring his feelings?"
Although Loke had feelings for his key holder he knew that the closest thing he could have with her was flirting. Along with a list of many things not only was taking the life of a key holder forbidden but having any sort of romantic relationship with a key holder was taboo as well. Putting that thought into Lucys head Loke took his leave and somewhere in the shadows someone who had been listening in on the whole conversation between the two took their leave from the scene with a smile on their face.
After Loke left Lucy sat there pondering that thought. After Gray kissed her that night he left the ball in her court as to what she would do with the information she now possessed. She knew that she had to talk to him about it, but maybe it would be best to talk to him after to talked to Natsu. She knew it was wrong to set his feelings aside while she focused on her own but she didn't know what else to do. Looking up at the sky she realized that the sun was started to set. Her talk with Loke had really helped out a lot. She had been so lost in their conversation that she failed to realize how fast time had flown by.
Standing up she dusted off her skirt and took her leave from Karen's grave deciding to head home and relax for the night. She figured that after her talk with Loke there was no sense thinking about the matter any further tomorrow would decide the outcome of everything and whether good or bad she would accept it. As she walked home it dawned on her that one of the most flirtatious and womanizing spirits she had in her possession had really helped her figure out her problems. She couldn't help but chuckle at the thought. Lucy knew Loke was a very reliable spirit and a good friend but she never thought that being the playboy he is he'd be the one giving her good advice on romance.
On her way home Lucy spent most of the time looking up at the sky as it turned into a dark blue sky with beautifully lit stars. When she finally reached her house she spent half an hour trying to work on her novel but anxiety and nerves started taking over so she decided to turn in early.
Monday morning at Lucys house
That morning Lucy woke up with butterflies in her stomach. Today was the day that she was finally going to tell her best friend her feelings for him. When she finally got out of bed the blonde walked to the bathroom to brush her teeth and wash her face. Afterwards she walked over to her closet and scanned all of her clothes, she wanted to look especially cute today. After selecting a violet purple tank top, a black skirt and violet colored heels she had made the decision to style her hair a different way but seeing as how she couldn't think of anything she searched her keys and grabbed hold of Cancer's key.
"Open! Gate of the crab! Cancer!" Suddenly the celestial spirit Cancer appeared in front of the blonde, "How would you like your hair to look -ebi?" "Make me look cute!" the blonde requested as she took a seat in front of the spirit. "You got it -ebi" The crab spirit said as he started working on her hair. In the end the spirit left Lucys hair down but gave her some loose curls.
After everything was done she checked herself once more and headed for the door. Upon opening the door Lucy noticed she had a guest waiting outside her door. "Lisanna" Lucy said a bit shocked "What are you doing here?" It was obvious something was bothering the youngest take over mage, it was practically written all over her face. "Lucy, I'm sorry to come over so suddenly but I have something I need to talk to you about." "Sure come on in and we can talk about it" Lucy said as she moved her back towards the door waved her hand for Lisanna to come inside. "So what's bothering you?" Lucy said as took a seat on the couch. "Well you see..." Lisanna said hesitantly "it's about Natsu."
Hearing that made Lucy's heart race. She had a feeling what Lisanna wanted to talk to her about but she was praying she was wrong. "What about Natsu?" Lucy said trying to keep her voice as composed as she could. "Well you see after I returned from Edolas and being able to be around the Natsu that I had grown up with the feelings I had for him started coming back." At that point Lucy's heart suddenly felt heavy. "Don't get me wrong the Edolas Natsu was great but he just wasn't the same. Normally I'd talk to Mira about this but things have been so crazy at the guild that she's been so busy and I feel like you and I are good enough friends that I can tell you anything."
Though the words had came out of her mouth all of it wasn't entirely true. It was true that her feelings for the Dragon Slayer had never left her heart and under different circumstances she did see the blonde as a friend but in her mind Natsu was hers and no one elses. After talking to Levy and finding out what Lucy had planned for today Lisanna cooked up a scheme on how today was going to go, and her arriving at Lucy's house was only step one. "Since Natsu's not to aware of his own feelings I was thinking about asking him out today. What do you think?"
As Lucy listened to Lisanna all she could do at that moment was sit in silence. Listening to Lisanna not only confess to her about her feelings for Natsu but to top it all off she had just admitted to wanting to tell him her feelings as well.
As the room fell silent Lisanna looked over at the blonde who was deep in thought "Lucy?" the young take over mage called out as she waved her hand in front of Lucys face to get her attention. "Huh?!" The blonde said as she suddenly snapped out of her trance. Giving her a worried look Lisanna asked, "Are you ok Lucy? Did something I said bother you?"
OF COURSE IT BOTHERS ME! WHY OF ALL DAYS DID YOU CHOOSE TO DO THIS TODAY?Not wanting to be a bad friend she put on a fake smile and replied, "Uh y-yeah I'm just happy for you that's all?"
"Great" Lisanna said cheerfully as she clapped her hands together "Because I have a small favor to ask of you?" Out of curiosity Lucy raised a brow slightly and asked, "What is it?"
"Well as you can tell I am really nervous about asking him out and I was just wondering if you could come with me to the guild and sit on the sidelines? You know for moral support." Lucy couldn't believe it. Upon hearing Lisanna's request the blondes brown orbs widened in shock. "What do you say?" Lisanna asked with a nervous smile on her face. NO!the blonde shouted angrily in her head. "A-Are you sure you really need me there? I mean I'm sure you'd do fine by yourself?" Not only did Lucy not feel like going to the guild hall but she defiantly didn't feel like going to watch Lisanna ask out her best friend and crush. "Of course I need you there" Lisanna said, her voice sounding frantic "Lucy with you there I will have the courage to go through with it." As her hands intertwined she looked at Lucy with pleading eyes "Please say you'll come?"
As much as she knew she would regret going how could she possibly say no. "Okay I'll go" Lucy replied. As the words left Lucys mouth she could some how feel her heart breaking. She didn't know what Natsu would say but just the fact that there was a chance he might say yes made her heart ache. A smile spread across Lisanna's face as she gave Lucy a hug. Step two complete she thought to herself as an evil smirk spread across her face to where the blonde wouldn't see. Since learning of Lucy's feelings for Natsu Lisanna had asked around the guild about the blonde and had come across some information about her being very kind hearted. She knew with the right words she could make that kindness Lucy possessed work to her advantage.
"By the way" Lisanna said as they were walking out Lucy's front door "You look really pretty today Lucy! Were you planning on going somewhere?" Looking down at her outfit she couldn't help but feel a bit disappointed that all that work had all been for nothing but all she could do was flash Mira's little sister a forced smile, "No where special."
A couple of minutes later
Upon arriving at the guild two anxious young mages walked through the guild doors both scanning the room for a certain fire wizard unfortunately for Lucy Lisanna had the luck of finding him first. As Lisanna made her way to Natsu Lucy walked over to the nearest table however, the nearest table was quite a ways away from where they were sitting so she couldn't hear much but the view was decent.
Watching the two as closely as she could she attempted to mouth read what they were saying. To bad for the blonde she was never really good at reading peoples mouths and it didn't help that Natsu would only turn his head over so often because he was eating. Suddenly, Lucy felt as if her heart had been shattered into a million pieces. Just a few minutes had passed when Lucy noticed Natsu turned his head to Lisanna, he had said something but she couldn't quite make it out, nod his head and give her a huge grin. Then afterwards Lisanna smiled and gave him a hug as if she got the answer she was hoping for.
With Lisanna and Natsu
After spotting the pink haired Dragon Slayer Lisanna rushed over to fill the seat next to him. Looking to make sure the blonde could see them she put on a sort of nervous expression Time for Step three. I gotta make this look good "U-Um Na-Natsu" Lisanna said in a hesitant voice. "Hey Lisanna! What's up?" "Um well you see.. I know you, Lucy Gray and Erza are a team but I was just wondering... Elfman and I were talking about going on a job and since Mira doesn't go out on jobs anymore I thought maybe... you might like to join us?"
"Of course I would. I'm sure the guys wouldn't mind." Natsu said happily as a grin spread across his face. Quickly glancing from the corner of her eye to make sure Lucy was still watching Lisanna smiled as she swiftly captured Natsu in an embracing hug.
Back to Lucy
Not wanting to look at the two anymore Lucy decided to go to the beach behind the girls dorm on Fairy Hill. She didn't really know what she could do at the beach alone and feeling the way she did, but she knew she didn't want to be at the guild nor did she want to be home.
"Hey Lu" Levy Greeted. At the time Lucy was about to exit the guild Levy and the rest of Team Shadow Gear had just arrived back from a job. "So" Levy said in a whisper as she leaned closer to Lucy "did you tell him?" Not wanting to say anything Lucy just shook her head. "Don't tell me you chickened out?" Levy teased "Do I need to go over there myself and tell him? We had a deal, remember?"
Standing in silence Levy looked at her friend and realized she was upset "Are you ok Lucy?" Levy asked now concerned about her friend "What happened?"
Not saying a word Lucy grabbed Levys arm and walked outside. After they exited the guild and the doors were shut behind them is when Lucy felt she could tell Levy. "Ok Lucy what happed? Tell me!"
"I couldn't tell him" was all she said before being interrupted by Levy. "Why? Are you nervous? Lucy I'm sure everything will be fi-" "No!" Lucy said interrupting her friend before she could finish her sentence. "I couldn't tell him because... Lisanna" It took all her will power to keep herself from crying at that moment.
"Lisanna?" Levy asked "What about her? I know she had feelings for him back then but does she still like him?" Getting only a nod as a response Levy's Hazel eye's widened in surprise "Are you sure?"
"I'm sure. She came by my house earlier as I was about to leave for the guild. She said that she felt I was a good enough friend to talk to me because Mira was busy. We sat on my couch and she flat out told me she still had feeling for Natsu. She had even asked my opinion on whether she should ask him on a date today."
"Lucy" Levy said with sadness and concern. Hearing what Lucy had said made her feel really bad. "What did you say?"
"What else could I say?" Lucy said tears now falling from her eyes "I told her that she should because I wanted to be a supportive friend. Then she asked me if I'd come with her. She said that she would feel more comfortable if I was there while she did it. I tried getting out of it but she said that she would feel better with a friend there supporting her. So in the end I had to watch from across the guild hall as she told him. I hadn't even been to sure what his answer was until I saw her smile and hug him."
"Oh Lu" Levy said sadly "Are you going to be ok? Do you want to go somewhere and hang out? We could go to my room in the girls dorm, if you'd like?"
"Thanks but I think I just need to be by myself for a while" Lucy answered as she wiped away the strands of tears that flowed down her face "I'll talk to you tomorrow." Standing there watching Lucy walk in the direction of her house Levy couldn't help but think Why did Lisanna choose today to feel the need to tell Natsu when she knew that Lucy had planned to confess to him today. Did she plan all of this? Something about this whole thing didn't sit right.
Meanwhile inside the guild, Lucy had failed to notice that Gray had been watching her the whole time. He had wanted to join her but when he noticed her gaze had been locked on Natsu and Lisanna from the moment she sat down he decided to sit back and watch. It wasn't until she got up and was preparing to leave when he noticed her solemn expression had change to what looked like depression that he was about to get up and follow her when suddenly someone appeared next to him.
"Does Lucy know you're here?" Gray spoke as he turned to face Loke. Taking a seat next to him Loke simply answered "No! I came through the gate on my own because I needed to talk to you." Raising a brow in confusion the ice make mage sat in silence as he let his friend continue "You heard our whole conversation yesterday didn't you?"
"Yeah!" Gray admitted "When did you realize I was there?" Letting out a soft chuckle Loke replied "From the moment I arrived."
"I should have known." Gray replied before taking a sip of his water. Pushing his sunglasses up to the bridge of his nose Loke spoke with a serious tone "The question now is what are you going to do? Since you know who she has feelings for are you going to fight for her or are you going to let her go?"
"Look man, you and I have been friends long enough for you to already know what I have planned." Gray answered with a smirk on her face "Of course" the lion spirit replied "You know it won't be easy."
"I know" his tone now a little lower with more seriousness to it, "All I want is for her to be happy, and until she says otherwise I will do what I can to see to it that I'm the one who can make her happy."
"I'm glad to hear it." Loke said while placing a comforting hand on his shoulder "Because as a friend and as one of her celestial spirits I want nothing else but to see her happy." Standing up from his seat he was about to take his leave back to the spirit world when he felt the need to add one more thing, "By the way, if you still planned on going after her she's at the beach behind the girls dorm." Looking at Gray Loke thought to himself You better be sure of your decision Gray! You may not realize it but I can tell that your heart has started tilting some of its feelings towards another. I just hope you figure it out before it's to late.With that final thought Loke returned to the spirit world.
Gray could only chuckle at his friends last minute helpful hint. Loke always seemed to know exactly what he was wanting to know before he even had to ask. Knowing she was at the beach was more then enough information for him to casually run into her at the beach. After witnessing the whole scene between Natsu and Lisanna Gray knew the blonde was upset. He didn't know exactly what the two had been talking about and judging from where she was sitting Lucy couldn't have known either, but something happened that made her upset and Gray wanted to be the one to cheer her up.
So yeah Lisanna is a sneaky little B***h. I don't really hate her character in the anime but I don't support NaLi. In my opinion if Natsu should be with anyone it should be with Lucy. As for Gray I don't really want him with Juvia but if he can't be with Lucy I guess she would be good for him.
Here's a question that's been on my mind. If after they beat Lyon on that island and he had joined Fairy Tail. If he had been there when Phantom was trying to take Lucy and fought Juvia do you think she would have fallen for him or no?