Matter over Mind

Chapter 3

RPOV

Jane stared at me. Holy cow, this will not end well, I thought. She looked just like him, the same nose, facial features, and the same eyes. Oh the eyes, those molten chocolate eyes I could swim in forever and at the same time, those inky black orbs I could get lost in. My head was spinning. If Jane was here, does that mean…? No, he wouldn't be here. He can't be here.

"Hey Jane, Renesmee, we are going to…" Abs said, trailing off as she walked into the room. She looked at the two of us. "Am I interrupting?" She asked. Jane shook her head, leaning down to grab her phone and jacket.

"Nope, I was just leaving. Catch you later Abs," she said, walking briskly out of the room.

"Do you know each other?" Abs asked as soon as Jane left. I sighed, sitting down on the open bed, looking around the room. The room was large, well large by university standards. There were two three quarter beds, each claiming one of the side walls. A large window overlooking the campus was in between the two beds and each bed had its own footlocker and dresser. Two wooden desks stood on the far side of the room, Jane's desk was covered in books, CD's and clothes. Her bed was already made in dark blue and black bedding and she had a few photos of her and Felix stuck to the notice board above her bed. I was grateful that she didn't have any photos of her brother; I don't think I could bear seeing him anytime soon.

"Yes, she is my cousin," I said as Cass bounced into the room. She was holding our jackets and a large handbag. She stopped and started at me along with Abs.

"Jane Brigham, queen of mean is your cousin?" Cass squeaked and I nodded. "Then that means that Alec is also your cousin?" Oh no, she said his name. My breathing quickened and it felt like my heart was about to climb out of my chest, veins and all.

"Well, we aren't blood family, I was adopted, so were they," I whispered, trying to ignore the throbbing pain in my chest and the numbness that was quickly spreading over my body.

"That makes so much more sense, come on, we need to go shopping," Cass said, dropping the matter.

I follow them out of the building, putting on my jacket. It was still raining outside and it reminded me off home. I quickly pulled out my cell, dialing Edward's number. He picked up on the first ring.

"Hello?"

"Hey Eddie," I said softly. Cass and Abs went to get the car, so I was waiting for them in the main lounge.

"Hey Nessie, missing me so soon?" he asked and I rolled my eyes.

"Nah, I just called to make sure you made it to Dartmouth okay."

"Yeah, Emmett rigged the entire house with his 'welcome home' pranks. Bella has blue hair and matching skin and I am still trying to get a rubber duck off my face." I laughed loudly, trying to picture Bella with blue hair and matching skin. She must look like one of those Avatar things. I needed to see that.

"Classic Emmett, text me a pic," I giggled and suddenly, I missed my family a whole lot more than before. I came here to get away from them, for a fresh start, but I didn't realize I would miss them so much. I could almost hear Emmett's booming laughter and I could see Rose rolling her eyes.

"Will do, gotta go Ness, I think the toilet just ate Bella," he said. I groaned and rolled my eyes. Okay, no I would much rather be here than be at Dartmouth with Bella-eating toilets.

"Bye Ed," I said and hung up just as Cass ran back into the lounge, soaking wet.

"Come on, the store closes in an hour and Jace and Shawn are always two hungry boys," she said, grabbing my hand and pulling me outside. Abs drove a white Mini Cooper, ideal for New York. It was tiny, so it could easily weave in and out of traffic. We had no problem getting to the nearest Target. Cass and Abs chatted excitedly about tomorrow, the day when their classes started, which reminded me that I still needed to pick up my books.

"Can you maybe drop me at the bookstore?" I asked from the backseat.

"Sure, we will drop you, go get dinner and then pick you up in an hour?" Abs asked, looking at me in the rearview mirror. I nodded and she turned down Amsterdam Avenue, pulling up outside a large store called 'Columbia Books'. I got out and waved at them as they drove off, running inside to avoid the rain. Columbia Books was huge; everywhere you looked there were rows and rows of bookshelves, blue flags and computers. I took a deep breath, the smell of old and new books was comforting and it made me forget about all my problems for a while. I browsed for a while, checking out their impressive English Lit. section before moving on to the Economics section and fishing my booklist out of my pocket. I looked at the list, don't get me wrong it's not like I am spoiled or anything, but some days I am really grateful that we were stinking rich. The books cost a fortune; even the second hand books were expensive. I quickly grabbed a basket and filled it up with all my books. I need one more, War Economics by Anthon Brand. I walked around the shelf, not paying attention and accidentally bumping into someone, sending his and my books to the floor.

"Oh my gosh, I am so sorry," I said, bending down to pick up the books sprawled across the floor. He laughed and I looked up, recognizing his laugh. I came face to face with his shocking blue eyes and I stopped breathing. Riley.

"Are you stalking me? Or do you just like walking into me?" He waggled his eyebrows and I laughed, standing up straight.

"Total coincidence, I assure you," I smiled as he handed me my books.

"Ah and here I thought I had a stalker, I would have been so flattered," he smiled and I couldn't help but smile back. His cute, boy-next-door smile was infectious. He looked at me, running his hand through his blonde hair.

"Sorry to disappoint," I mumbled and he flashed me another dazzling smile.

"You can make it up to me some other time," he said. "Like over dinner sometime?" I stiffened, oh no. I couldn't do this, not again. He wouldn't want me, and I couldn't give this nice guy I barely knew false hope. I was broken, damaged and I had a ton of baggage. I don't want to dump that all on him. Wow, hold on, maybe he isn't into you like that, a small voice in the back of my mind said and I immediately agreed with her. Of course, what was I thinking? This handsome man couldn't be into me, he just wants to be friends.

"Just as friends, right?" I asked cautiously.

His face fell, and for a moment I thought he actually wanted to date me. But then he smiled and said; "Sure, tomorrow, 7?"

"Sounds like a plan."

Oh thank you so much Alycesaundra Matthews for pointing out my mistake. I changed Luce's name to Cass, because of the Luce in After The Adoption, who comes into the story later on. Anyways hope you enjoy these two chapters!