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Apparently it isn't just a headache but what's a story without a little drama?!

33 weeks pregnant

Killian has changed since the weekend and the childbirth-class. He was absentminded, always deep in thoughts and all this makes her unsettled. They were one person, they've shared everything, he was her rock, always the one to reassure her and now he keeps it mostly to himself. Even Henry notices the differences and tries to talk to her, but she is not sure what is troubling him, she is only sure that at the moment he is not the man she fell in love with and definitely not the man she married. It all confused her and so she is not surprised that when the doorbell rang that she finds her mother in front of it.

"Henry told you, didn't he?"

Mary-Margret just smiles at her.

"He doesn't have to. David told me, that Killian was acting strange as of lately and that you were also a little bit distracted. I thought some girl on girl-time would be good to have now."

"Thanks mom, but I have to go to the station and where is Neal by the way?"

"David is at home taking care of him and Robin is at the station with Killian, so everything is settled. I thought about going to the Spa, taking a time-out. It would do both of us a favour."

Emma thinks about the suggestion. Her mother is right, she wanted to talk to her since the weekend but every time something disturbed them.

"Give me five minutes, I grab some stuff and we make a girls-day. Thank you mom, I think I really need to talk to you."

Mary-Margret nods and takes a seat on the couch while waiting for her daughter.

Soon they arrived at Storybrooke's new Spa and o wonder the theme is fairytale. Apparently the owner is one of her mother's former maids and so they're greeted like royalty.

"Snow, it is so nice to see you! How can we help you?" The woman is pretty and definitely kind, the sort of honest kindness.

"Thanks Adelaide! It's nice to see you too and I have to say, you run a really fine place here! Actually my daughter and I would like to relax a little bit, perhaps get a massage as well." She looks to Emma who is currently taking in the beautiful decoration of the place.

"Oh, yeah a massage would be nice!"

"Sorry, Mrs. Jones, I think I can't do this."

Emma stares at her in disbelief, but Adelaide gives her a reassuring smile.

"You're pregnant and it could be possible that a massage would result in early contractions and I think it's still a little early for the little one"

"Oh, I wasn't aware of that fact" "No problem, that's why I said it, but it won't do any harm if we make a facial and some manicure and pedicure. You could relax as well and before the sessions you can go to the private whirlpool, to have some mother daughter time."

Emma is so thankful and soon she and Mary-Margret sink in the warm bubbling water.

"What's up with you and Killian?"

"I'm not sure. Since the class last weekend he acts strange. I wanted to talk to you about that ever since but we always were disturbed. Did Dad behave the same way?"

She looks hesitantly over to her.

"David was acting kind of strange when I told him about Neal. He was afraid that he would fail him. He always had the opinion that we failed you and concerning your poor childhood I agree with him. But as the Wicked Witch took his courage he fought this fears, and he is a great father to Neal and I think, now that we find you, he is one to you too. Do you think Killian have the same doubts about being a father?"

"No, I'm not sure about that. He's great with Henry and you know that he is great with Neal too. I think he will be a good father and he knows that I think that. In the childbirth class the mid-wife talked about complications at birth and afterwards he starts to act strange. He told me, that he is afraid of losing us. I tried to soothe and reassure him, but apparently I failed."

"Oh sweetie, you didn't fail him! You need to consider that Killian isn't from this time nor place. Back in the Enchanted Forest the medical conditions during childbirth weren't as good as they are here. Many women died and even more children didn't survived and assuming that he lived most of his 300 years in Neverland, I suppose they were even worse in his time."

"But why now? I mean it is a fact that I have to give birth to Liam, since we know about the pregnancy. It can't be the only reason."

"Honey, but giving birth is now a real thing. It's only weeks till it can happen. I think the class has given him some ideas, of what to expect and seeing you with the huge baby-bump makes him realize what there is on the line. Go, talk to him, and perhaps look up some shows on the internet where the wonder of birth is seen. I'm sure he will overcome his fears."

"You're right, mom. Thank you! It was so good talking to you about it. I think I know the exact thing I have to do to calm him down. Now how is it with Neal and David?"

"Oh it's great. The birth and the whole baby-kidnapping, defeating the wicked witch took a toll on us but we're finally back in the saddle."Did her mother just wink at her?

"Oh.. That's great to hear.."

"Emma, it's not easy being parents and a couple, you know? In the first time after the delivery your whole focus will be on your newborn. You will be his food source, you will have a great lack of sleep and believe me: getting romantically involved with your husband will be at the very bottom on your priority list."

It sinks in Emma what her mother is trying to say. "You mean the worst part is yet to come?"

"What I wanted to say is, that you should solve your current misunderstanding because after Liam is born some things could get even worse."

"But you solved it all. How did you do it?"

"We share a heart and we're True Love, honey. But the path of love isn't always the easiest way to go."

She hugs her mother fiercely. It felt so good talking to her friend again.

"Now, before we get fins we should go to our next treatments" Emma wiggles with her fingers and both start to laugh.

It's late in the afternoon when she arrives back at home.

Henry and Lady are in the living room, Henry playing with his playstation.

"Where's Killian?" she asks, wondering where her husband is. It's already dark outside and freezing cold. Snow is lying on the ground but that's normal for the middle of December in Maine.

Henry just shrugs with his shoulders. "He wasn't here when I came home with Lady. Bitter cold outside, Lady was glad when we got inside. Did you have a nice day with Grandma?"

"Yes, thank you, we had a lot of fun. I will call the station now. Perhaps he has to work longer."

She calls the station but it's just the answering machine. Strange, she tries it on his mobile but is directed to his voicemail immediately. God she loves his voice and the accent, but where the hell is he.

"Lady, let's take a walk." Henry turns towards her and Lady just raises her head.

"Don't think she wants to go into the cold, mom" Lady yawns and lies her head down again.

"Lazy dog" she shakes her head, takes one of Killian's many coats (her own don't fit anymore, due to her big baby-bump) and goes into the freezing cold.

Hopefully he didn't do anything crazy. Without thinking her feet takes her to the docks, leaving footmarks in the snow.

Brrr, it's really cold. She hopes that he isn't out here but then she sees the dark figure sitting at the stones at the shore looking towards the sea.

"Killian?" The figure winces but didn't turn around. She approaches him trying not to slip on the icy stones.

"What are you doing here? It's freezing cold. You will catch a cold if you're staying any longer." She tries to catch his arm, but he shakes her hand away.

"Let me be, Swan" he slurs. Wait, is he drunk? Ok, the 2 empty bottles of rum should be an indicator additionally to his voice, but he didn't drank any in months, actually since her return from the past, the only exception was his bachelor party.

"What the hell! What did you do?"

"Something I'm god at!" he finally turns around and looks at her, so much pain in his eyes.

"I can't do this Swan!" She sees him turning his wedding-band. "What is it, you can't do?" "This" He motions between them "Us" Then he motions to her stomach "Him"

"Killian Jones, what the fuck are you indicating? Don't shut me out!"

He winces again.

"See it's not nice to be shut out?" He looks so evil, so much like...

"Hook!"

"Oh back to that, how easily I can fall out of favour in the eyes of the savior, oh that's a rhyme."

He giggles drunkenly.

"You're drunk." She just states.

"I always knew you were a spitfire. Must be an inheritance from your charming father"

"Enough!" She is overwhelmed by her anger and yanks at his arm. Apparently a little too forceful because she lost balance as he stands up and he catches her right before she falls to the ground. How is it possible that he can react so fast even in his drunken state?

"Everyone I love dies because of me. And you nearly have fallen to the ground because of me"

She just realizes that his face is full of tears.

"What are you talking about?"

"Liam died because of me. If I hadn't insisted on my doubts about our king's intentions he would have never taken the dreamshade to hurt himself. And if I had respected Pan's words he could have lived a long life."

He sobs violently. "And then Milah, I shouldn't have taken her with me. She had a husband, she had a child. It was so selfish. God above, I don't know what I would do, if you would take someone else but me but considering my track record I have to leave. I can't risk your lives." He tries to turn around.

"Don't you dare" She isn't aware that she is yelling at him, she isn't aware that she is crying too or that her voice nearly breaks.

"Don't you dare and walk away from me Killian Jones!"

He stops but doesn't turn around.

"You can pity yourself as much as you need but don't you dare and leave us! You're the first person who ever came back to me, you're the first person I opened my heart completely to and now you want to give in to some stupid fear? We're fine and we will be fine- as long as we have you by our side." She feels Liam kicking in her, he must feel that she is upset.

"We will have a son and nothing will happen to Liam and me!"

She reaches out for him, touching his shoulder to slowly turn him around.

"How can you know that? My mother died giving childbirth to our younger sibling. They both died!"

She sees his desperation, understands his motivation, but she can't cope with his insecurities because she needs him and his reassurance but that's what a marriage is about isn't it, to enjoy the nice times and be there for each other through the bad ones.

"I just know!"

"But how can you be sure? Villains don't get Happy Endings!"

"Really! What about Regina, what about Gold? I'm sure their stories don't make them heroes either and still they're happy. Why do you want to throw away all that we have? I know that everything will be fine because I've seen it!"

"You've seen it?" He stares at her disbelief "When?"

"Back in the Enchanted Forest, I had a dream in our night together at the well."

"But you were so insecure yourself!"

"Yes Killian, that's my character that somehow always expect something bad to happen and somehow I put the dream aside although I couldn't deny that it was more likely a vision."

"You had a vision?" He whispers and she nods "Even before we were really romantically involved?" She nods again.

"I wanted to reassure you back in the hotel and I searched for a way to show you but I didn't find anything."

"Love, try it, please" he is so near now, embracing her that the tips of their noses brushes together.

"I've yet to see you fail" and that reassurance breaks all her boundaries. She leans in, puts her lips on his and kisses him, putting in all the emotions while conjuring up her dream again.

She holds his head and suddenly the pictures keep flowing.

How Henry plays with Neal (yes, now she has a name for her little brother). How her father proudly films them all at the beach. How Lady destroys the sandcastle and her mother soothes Neal and finally him, with their little beautiful son.

She shows him, how she starts to nurse Liam and how he leans in to her. And more importantly she let him feel her emotions during the scene – an utterly happiness.

They come up for air, both panting.

"God, Emma! I'm so sorry! I'm so..." She stops him by kissing him again.

"Don't be, but please do me a favour!"

He awaits her answer

"DON'T YOU EVER DARE, KILLIAN JONES AND TRY TO DRANK YOUR INSECURITIES IN RUM AGAIN OR TO WALK AWAY FROM ME FOR MY SAKE!"

She yells, really loud so loud that he winces at her volume but when she is finished she adds in a whisper "Because I need you, my pirate/villain/hero/True Love and he" She takes his hand under the coat to her belly "needs you too" She feels Liam kicking him.

"I promise" He whispers against her ear. "And love? Is it possible that you are wearing MY coat?"

She nods and starts to laugh "My jacket didn't cover the huge baby-bump containing your son"

"No problem, Swan, it looks hot on you!"

She just rolls her eyes and he starts to laugh and this time, it reaches his eyes.