I do apologize. I absolutely loathe writing when I have nothing to write about. I was so inspiration- less it wasn't funny. My life has been a dull drag for weeks. I know I have lost a lot of interest, but I am back, and updates will pick up. Sorry for those I disappointed, it wasn't intentionally.

F&H

Dreams and Disasters

Chapter 6

? POV

Alec casually draped his arm over Renesmee's shoulders, pulling her close. He leaned down, brushing his lips over the top of her head. They were a lot older, maybe in their thirties. Renesmee sighed, wrapping her arms around his muscled torso. They were lying in a giant bed, a tangle of sheets and pillows. Alec pulled her close and smiled, both of them were smiling, real, happy smiles that seemed out of place on their faces and at the same time completely natural.

Suddenly the door to the room they were lying in burst open and a little girl with waist length, bouncy fiery red curls walked in, her nearly black eyes wide as she clutched her teddy bear.

"Mommy, Daddy?" The little voice was unsure.

"Come here baby," Alec said his voice soft and soothing. The little girl walked to the bed, first tossing her teddy on before she scrambled up. Renesmee opened her arms and the little girl snuggled in between the two of them. They hugged her close, all the while maintaining eye contact. They glowed with happiness. Renesmee kissed the little girl on the cheek and entwined her fingers with Alec's, their silver wedding bands glinting in the moonlight.

Renesmee gasped and sat up straight, tangled in her sheets. She was covered in sweat, her chest aching. She fell back down on her pillow, trying to calm her nerves.

Just a dream, just a dream…She told herself. As if that would help. It had been months, six to be exact, six months since she cast Alec out of her life. And yet, she still had the same recurring nightmare. She rolled over, opening one eye and sneaking a peak at her roommate, whose blonde hair was tangled on top of her still fast asleep head. The first week had been rough, Renesmee woke up screaming from the dreams, Jane would fly up and the whole apartment would rush into her room to try and calm her. Finally the blonde put her foot down and threatened to duct tape Renesmee's mouth shut if she didn't stop screaming. That helped a lot; she immediately shut up after that. She rolled out of the bed and landed with a thud on the floor.

"Shit," she mumbled under her breath, looking worriedly at Jane. No movement from the Ice Queen. She removed her necklace, which held the key to her bedside table and fumbled for the flashlight under her bed. She found it and clicked it on, placing the key in the lock and turning the key. She removed the letter she got from Alec, almost three years ago, and opened it. It calmed her, to read the stupid letter. It also helped her a lot to let go of the damn bastard.

Nez

It feels wrong, writing you a fucking letter. Wait, can I curse in a letter? Eh, who the fuck cares anyway. Back to the point of the letter.

I love you. Nothing will ever, can ever, change that. I beg you Nez, if you want to hold on to something, hold on to that. I left, I know. I also know how much it hurts; leaving you was the biggest mistake of my life and at the same time it was also my best choice I ever made. Baby, I love you so much, but it's not good for us to be together. Please move on. Find yourself a nice guy who won't fuck up your life like I did.

Please.

Alec.

Renesmee smiled and put the letter back in her bedside table. Yes, she was going to find someone much better than him, in fact she already did. She stood up, tiptoeing out of her room and across the hall. Riley's light was still on, even though it was near two in the morning. He was studying, he had to get into law school and his pre-trails were two weeks away. If he scores high enough on his pre-trails, which means that he can get an early acceptance to any law school of his choice and the university would give him a bursary. Not that he needed it. Renesmee pushed open his door, only to find him asleep on top of his books. She smiled her heart clenching.

He really was everything she could ask for and more. With his blonde hair and bright blue eyes and strong, athletic build, he had been her savior. He was the one who helped her get over Alec, helped her face her past. She had fallen in love with him, with his lame jokes and his goofy pick-up lines. He swept her off her feet; he was her best friend and boyfriend. She couldn't have asked for someone better.

Then why are you dreaming about being married to Alec? A soft voice in the back of her mind asked.

Renesmee's jaw clenched. No, she refused to think like that, she had her happy ever after, nothing was going to ruin it.

She walked over to Riley and touched his cheek. His eyes flew open and he sat upright, looking around him like he couldn't remember where it was. Then realization dawned and he groaned.

"What time is it Nessa?" He asked, rubbing his eyes sleepily.

"A little after two am," she said, rubbing his head affectionately. He smiled a dazzling smile that lit up his whole face, his eyes glinting with mischief.

"Come here beautiful," he whispered, placing his hands on her hips and pulling her onto his lap. His hands slipped underneath her tank top, his digits dancing over her warm skin. He pulled her lips to his, gently nipping on her full bottom lip before claiming them in a passionate kiss. She moved her legs, straddling him, her hands raking through his blonde hair, their tongues locked in a fierce battle for dominance.

"You should get some sleep," Renesmee said, breaking off the kiss and getting up to lie on his bed, pulling her top off as she went. Riley looked at her, his mouth slightly open. His blue eyes darkened with hunger as they travelled over her athletic body.

"I'm not going to sleep now babe, I'm going to have a little fun."

Alec sighed deeply, inhaling the cigarette smoke. He puffed it out, glaring at his surroundings. He was lying in his bed, a red haired girl curled around him. He shifted uncomfortably; he didn't like being touched like that. He was usually the one who did the touching. And boy, did he touch. The red head didn't know what hit her. He grinned, it was undoubtedly the best sex she's ever had. He took another drag of his cigarette, inhaling deeply as he let his thoughts turn to another red head he'd like to bag.

Renesmee Carlie Cullen.

He smirked. Things had changed, people changed. He changed. He remembered that pathetic little boy who fell for the girl. The boy who lost sight of who he was and what he wanted, the boy who lost sight of his purpose. His purpose was to destroy the Cullens, and he will destroy them, soon. He was a new man; the little Cullen had put it all into perspective for him. He knew what he needed to do, and it was going to be messy. Christmas was almost upon them, he knew the little Cullen was planning a trip home with her boyfriend and her friends.

He almost laughed. Her boyfriend; what a pathetic excuse for a man. Riley Biers, lawyer in the making. They were rich, very rich. His father owned half of Seattle; rumor has it that he flew Renesmee to Paris for their first date. Now, Alec may not be a Cullen, but he sure as hell had enough money to be counted as New York's elite. He didn't even have to flash his credit card to get the best service money could buy. It was simply just a waste of good jet fuel, if he wanted to get into girls' pants, he simply had to ask. You either got it or you don't, and Alec certainly had it.

He untangled himself from the girl, throwing on a pair of shorts for his roommate's sakes and walked out. Felix was sitting in the living room, bent over a pair of books. He raised an eyebrow as Alec walked in.

"We have mid-terms in two weeks you know," he said slowly, as if he was unsure whether or not Alec knew this.

Alec snorted. "Photographic memory you know," he said, tapping his head as he walked into the kitchen, pulling open the fridge and digging around in it. It was true, Alec had a photographic memory, and he will deny it if you ask him about it. Only his brother knew, and he wanted to keep it that way. Being a total boy genius didn't get him panties.

"One day, all this is going to come back and bite you in the ass."

"Let's hope that when it does, it comes in the form of a sexy blonde haired girl with big tits," Alec said from inside the fridge and Felix rolled his eyes. He was worried about his brother, his behavior was leaning more toward that of his former self, right after the accident he and Alice had. Knowing his brother had retreated to his old ways made Felix nervous, it was only a matter of time before something really bad happened that would impact the entire family. Heidi and Demitri were up in Alaska, they wanted to get away from all the craziness. He of course, followed Jane to New York and Alec came along. Alec actually debated going to Dartmouth, but decided to not go down that road again. This was of course, a different Alec, the one that was broken after he had to leave Renesmee.

Alec finally pulled his head out of the fridge, grinning at Felix.

"Don't look so worried brother, the fun is just beginning."