A/N: This is the 2nd part or sequel to One Word. The song used for the first chapter was
Secondhand Serenade – It's Not Over
The songs used for this chapter is (appears in this order as well) If you want any of the songs, leave a review or e-mail me. I have DL links for them all :)
BackStreet Boys- Don't want to lose you now
Britney Spears- Where are you now
NickelBack- Far Away
Review as always or I'll assume it's unpopular and not post the last chapter.
NDebN- I'm glad you liked it so far.
kitsune16487- Well you get to find out in this chapter! (Although it does say angst XD)
FanFictionLover- A slight misunderstanding… but this happens everyday around the world so it's common ne?
poakkis- was it Syuusuke being an idiot or was Ryoma? XD
irishKaoru- I'm very happy you put it on alert! I was hoping someone might be interested because originally this story was never to appear on XP
selyn- Thank you for allowing me to loath stupid essays :) and you have my full permission to bang my stupid laptop. But I'm over being mad at it right now, I've decided to forgive it and just gather my thoughts for that chapter once more. :)
one of the most amusing things is the kind of communication they have. One of the reasons my sister threaten to post this story with or without my permission. She said it showcased a guy very well… such limited thinking sometimes XD Hopefully this will fufill your craving until Halloween… after all most of the mass release will have to do with the Thrill pair!
ALAINE- Well read on to find out…I can't really say anything or else I'll give it all out XD
munkyaround- I posted the song title in the A/N and a DL if you're interested… it was for others who wanted the song to but you're more than welcome to copy and paste the link to DL it yourself!
blackspica- here's the next chapter!!! XD enjoy it please and review!
One Touch
Rated: T
Summary: He just needed one touch…
Pairing: Thrill Pair
(A/N: This is from Fuji's PoV)
I glanced out the window as I hung up the phone. It was rare for Ryoma to ever request to see me. Usually I requested him to see me… With a small smile I noted it's be windy tonight… and knowing Ryoma, he wouldn't be wearing a heavy coat at all. Slipping on my heavy coat I knew I'd have to share I started to leave my apartment and meet him at our usual spot.
Our relationship started 2 years ago…as a joke…now two years later, I'm afraid I'm the one who's actually in love…2 years earlier, I had used my kouhai as a weapon to hurt the man I loved. The man who had, oh so casually, said he loved me but…
Locking my apartment door, I stuffed my hands and keys into my pocket. Walking toward my destination, it brought back the memory of how Ryoma and I even came to be…
2 years earlier
Tezuka had no idea how much he tore at Fuji when he announced that he didn't see them more than friends although Fuji was special…then he left with Atobe right afterwards on a "date". Instead of crying it off and hating him as many people suggested he do, he decided to hurt Tezuka in a different way…that way involved Ryoma, his cute little kouhai who Tezuka protected like a herald son. He purposely flaunted his advances in front of Tezuka and took pride in rumors that said Ryoma and he were dating. Actually he pursued so passionately that Momoshiro finally just went straight out and asked.
"Fuji-senpai…is Echizen dating you?"
"Dating?" Fuji asked with a spreading smile. "And what if we were…what would it mean to you?"
"That he was yours and I should mention to a couple of people that they better back off a little…" Momoshiro said with a nervous smile.
"I see…" Fuji said with a smile. "If you think that we are why are you asking?"
"Just to confirm it…" Momoshiro said. "Sometimes it seems like you're into it and Ryoma's just going along densely."
Fuji chuckled at Momoshiro's perspective…although he wasn't too far off the mark. "Then you should know we are then…" Fuji said with a smile. Technically they weren't exactly yet but Fuji had his ways.
"Well then…I guess I feel a bit sorry for Echizen…" Momoshiro muttered
"What was that?" Fuji asked with a slow smile. He had heard perfectly clear but he was daring Momoshiro to say it again.
"Betsuni!" Momoshiro said turning to leave. Fuji merely nodded in response and began plotting to make Tezuka even more miserable and how to break it to Ryoma that they were "officially" dating.
It was when they walked home that Fuji finally decided to say something. Of course he timed it towards the end where they'd split.
"Saa…Ryoma…today Momoshiro asked me if we were dating." Fuji said with a small smile when he saw Ryoma glance momentarily at him in suspicion.
"What did you say?" Ryoma asked downing the rest of his Ponta.
"I said we were." Fuji said simply and bluntly.
Ryoma turned to face the Fuji and raised a brow in suspicion. "But we aren't Fuji-senpai." Ryoma stated bluntly.
"We aren't…yet." Fuji added slyly. A rush of excitement entered his system as he watched Ryoma give him 'the look'. Fuji had learned that when Ryoma gives you 'the look' he highly disapproves of whatever you were telling him.
"Fuji-senpai-"
"Momoshiro said we made a good couple although he felt a bit sorry for you…" Fuji said with a spreading smile purposely cutting Ryoma off to make him more frustrated. "I wonder why…"
Ryoma completely stopped where they usually split off to go home. "Fuji-senpai…do you realized you lied to Momoshiro…"
"I didn't lie Ryoma." Fuji said with an innocent smile.
"But we-" Ryoma started then saw a different smile spread on Fuji's lips. "Are you asking me out?"
Fuji closed the gap between them slowly. Already Ryoma was challenging his every word…. absolutely thrilling "And if I am?"
Fuji knew what he was doing; he was daring Ryoma to disagree with him, daring him to defy what was said, daring him to give their start a bigger thrill than it already was.
"And if I said yes?" Ryoma countered.
Fuji suppressed the laughter that seemed to bubble inside him at the moment. The defiant look on Ryoma to the unexpected counter was so amusing…especially when Ryoma couldn't seem to look at him properly. Then again, that was one of the best things about Ryoma. He could be dense about love but defiant and stubborn when he wanted to. He always found that Ryoma liked to test how far he could push Fuji before Ryoma gave in…and THAT was part of the thrill.
A mysterious smile broke out of Fuji's face as he took hold of Ryoma's hand. Then he'd go right along with his plan since Ryoma didn't out right disagree. " Then we have nothing to worry about ne?"
"Ch-Chotto matte! (Wait a moment!)" Ryoma said with widened eyes. "I thought Tezuka-senpai and you were-"
"Dating?" Fuji asked with a smile, "We could be…. Inui said we'd be a perfect pair." A sharp pain hit Fuji hard but he suppressed that. He didn't want to think about Tezuka now…he needed to concentrate at what was on hand!
"Then why…" Ryoma asked.
"Because Inui saidOUR compatibility was more…. thrilling." Fuji said continuing to drag Ryoma home. This was absolutely true after he cornered the data master into spitting out some data on his compatibility with Tezuka and Ryoma.
"Fuji-senpai…there's no reason for you to walk me home!" Ryoma protested trying to jerk his hand away but Fuji held on.
"It's only right I do since we are going out now." Fuji insisted
"But I never-"
Fuji whipped around, His smile changing slowly as he looked at 'his' Ryoma now "What's that Ryoma?"
"Bet-betsuni…" Ryoma mumbled.
"Good then we agree!" Fuji said and continued walking Ryoma home. Even if he was a bit disappointed Ryoma gave in so easily today.
I stopped as I saw him clearly even if the sky was darkening. His eyes were focused on the full moon before they slowly dropped to look at his hands. How right I was when I figured he wouldn't be wearing a heavy jacket…
I closed the gap more before I felt the aura of seriousness around Ryoma…exactly what was going on?
"Ryoma…" I said softly with a smile. Hopefully he wanted comfort from me. I watched as he turned around and looked at he with unreadable golden eyes…
"Syuusuke…"
"Is there a reason for a sudden call out like this?" I asked teasingly. Hopefully it'd lighten the mood a little.
"Syuusuke…I want to stop playing around…"
"Whoever said we were playing around?" I asked. Within me was turmoil boiling though…could it be he wanted to break up now?
"Syuusuke, you and I both know we've been fooling around for 2 years now…I also know we started this relationship only because Tezuka-senpai got together with Monkey king."
My whole world was crumbling around me…if he knew that much then for sure he wanted to break up…because…because I started the relationship based on revenge and not interest. I swallowed hard as I forced my smile to stay on my face…I wasn't about to break in front of him…I couldn't. After all, for those 2 years we supposedly went out, we did everything any couple would've done. Except for the fact that I always flung the relationship in Tezuka's face and flirted with anyone who wanted a bit of attention from me…but Ryoma had defiantly flirted as well and went out with those people just to draw my suspicion!
(A/N: italics Lyrics)
--I
never thought that I would lose my mind
That I could control
this
Never thought that Id be left behind
That I was stronger
than you, baby
if
only I knew what I've done
You know, so why don't you tell me
And
i, I would bring down the moon and the sun
To show how much I care
"So…what then?" Fuji asked. A part of me hope he wouldn't say it was over…a part of me wanted to tell him that I really did love him… it might not have started like that but I really did now!
I watched him bite his bottom lip nervously and knew that was the cue that he had more to say to me. My eyes opened as I stared at him intently, he closed the distance between us and looked at me.
"I love you Syuusuke…"
"I see…" Fuji said softly. A dam of pain flooded over inside of me at those words…he was using the same escape as Tezuka. He wanted out so he was going to use "I love you…but". I didn't know what to say…should I say I didn't love him and let him go conscience-free or make him feel guilty as I did to Tezuka?
Don't
wanna lose you now
Baby, I know we can win this
Don't wanna
lose you now
No, no, or ever again
"I'm leaving with my parents…they want me to meet a potential fiancée in the U.S." Ryoma finally continued with a small smile "I wanted to tell you…"
The silence in the air was suddenly suffocating…I knew he was waiting for me to say something…and I wanted to hurt him…hurt him so badly…but my love for him disallowed me to be sadistic…to be mean tonight…
"Is that so… well congratulations on your fiancée then…it seems we weren't always going to be playing games and stay together ne?" I said with the best smile I could muster…no matter how much he hurt me…I didn't want to hurt him. Even this hollow lie was enough felt like I was hurting him…when in actuality, I was hurting myself even more.
"I…" Ryoma started but went quiet. Could it be his conscience was bothering him now? Could he really be saying this last goodbye to me?
"I see…" Ryoma finally finished. He hung his head slightly and I almost felt angry at the moment. He couldn't even look at me…was that how guilty I made him feel?
"I'm really happy for you…" I said with a spreading smile now, it was better to end it quick than linger. "I suppose it's time we see that we could never really be together."
"Aa…" Ryoma muttered softly. He slowly backed away and turned away from me. I couldn't believe we were coming down to this…but it seemed like I always knew this day might come…when he'd say goodbye and get on with his life…with someone who could give him a child. After all, he was the only child of Nanjiroh and Rinko-san.
I've
got this feeling you're not gonna stay
Its burning within me
The
fear of losing
Of slipping away
It just keeps getting closer,
baby
Whatever reason to leave that I've had
My place was always
beside you
And I wish that I didn't need you so bad
Your face
just wont go away--
"I suppose this is good bye?" He said
A blinding pain shot straight through my heart as tears I didn't know had formed fell against my chilled cheek. I knew I couldn't falter now…he had said the words…he had given his reason…I had to let him go…
'If you love him, let him go…' I thought silently.
"It is…" I finally answered after a long time. Even if I wanted to linger with him…his words were final…Still…I wanted one touch…one touch from him and I would've held onto him without letting go…but he never reached over to touch me…he merely walked.
I watched him walk briskly away and wished him well…my gaze directed itself to the falling leaves around me. All that was left was the memories, the memories that would scatter with each of the falling leaves…and when the last one fell, it would signify our end…
A raindrop fell on me then…it was the staring of a storm…but I couldn't move…even when one raindrop turned to two…to me…time had stopped.
5 years later
"Ja (bye) Fujiko!" Kikumaru called as he ran towards the bus stop.
Fuji waved and turned to start home. Today they had dinner together at the local restaurant just because they haven't seen each other in weeks. Fuji was used to this, adjusting to everyone's schedule just to be able to see his friends…because being a photographer wasn't so set in schedule, as they had to be.
Fuji came to a stop when he walked passed this certain area. It seemed even after 5 years, old habits die-hard. Glancing at the falling leaves, he realized today had been that day…the day they came together, they day the broke apart, and a day forever engrained.
"What are you doing now Ryoma?" Fuji whispered gently. Ever since that last night, Fuji had regretted never telling Ryoma how he really felt. Now…now he had to live with the feeling of regret that he never told Ryoma he loved him.
(A/N: italics Lyrics)
--Calling
out your name
Your face is everywhere
I'm reaching out to
you
To find that you're not there
I wake up every night
To
see the state I'm in
It's like an endless fight
I never seem to
win
I can't go on as long as I believe
Can't let go when I
keep wondering
Five years…five years was a long time to never hear from Ryoma again…his family had quietly moved back to the states without notice to any of them. It was a little later that Kikumaru had mentioned Ryoma called to say goodbye instead to each of them…each of them besides Fuji though…
Looking at the full moon now, he wondered how it could've been if he would've just said how he truly felt and begged Ryoma to stay…
Fuji sighed softly as he shifted his gaze to the leftover leaves and stuff his hands into his pockets roughly. Turning his gaze from the leaves once more, he glanced down to see a little girl in front of him staring intently at him.
Where
are you now, what have you found
Where is your heart, when I'm not
around
Where are you now, you gotta let me know
Oh baby, so I
can let you go
"Aikha!"
Fuji glanced up. Not because he heard the man approaching rapidly but because he recognized the voice…
"Ryoma…"
The man that stood before him seemed as if he hadn't changed at all… as if this was a mirage, created from too many years of longing… of withholding the feeling. His golden eyes had lost the slight challenge it used to hold but overall…the way his hair sat, the lean body…it was all the same. It was too good to be true…nothing but a dream…
"Syuusuke…"
It spoke. The figure spoke to Fuji and he neither wanted to make up an excuse of why he was here nor did he want to hide why every time, around this time of the year he would be here. Because his time stopped here, he needed to start here…here in the spot where they met, loved, and fell apart. Fuji saw the little girl run towards Ryoma and somewhere in his mind it clicked that this wasn't a mirage or a dream…he, whom Fuji wanted to see, was here…here in front of him…so why did it feel as if miles separated them?
I
can hear your voice
The ring of yesterday
It seems so close to
me
But yet so far away
I should let it out
To save what's
left of me
And close the doors of doubt
Revive my
dignity--
But,
I can't go on as long as I believe
Can't let go when I keep
wondering
"She's your daughter?" Fuji heard himself asking.
"Aa…"
"How old is she?"
"Almost five"
A silence fell between them again…but this wasn't what Fuji wanted…he wanted…needed to say what he never said.
Ryoma, on the other hand was quite surprised to see Fuji here. Miyuki had insisted that for their vacation, she wanted to see Japan. Miyuki had grown and lived in America her whole life so she wanted to experience her heritage…and who better than to bring her husband who not only lived in Tokyo but knew his way around! It wasn't like he didn't want to return here; but when they had arrived a week ago in Hokkaido, he had patiently waited for their trip to Tokyo. It was only for four days but that was more than enough time to see what he wanted to see. He hadn't been able to resist when Miyuki suggested they explore immediately. They'd traveled the whole day around Tokyo and now he was where he wanted to come…only to meet the person he wanted to see most.
"Ohisashiburi ne? ( Been a long time, right?)" Fuji finally asked when it seemed like Ryoma wouldn't speak again.
"Aa…" Ryoma muttered. He still had no idea what strange twist of fate had him and Syuusuke in this spot once more…
"I see…"
"There you two are!"
Fuji looked past Ryoma to see a smiling woman walking towards them. He could tell she was his wife immediately. The little girl said enough with a muffled,
"Momma"
Fuji surveyed the woman quickly. She was quite beautiful under the moon with long brown hair and dark eyes. The woman glanced up and walked over with a smile as she dragged her daughter forward.
"Hajimemashite... do you know Ryoma?" She asked with a bright, mysterious smile.
"I should introduce you two…" Ryoma cut in.
"Syuusuke, this is my wife Miyuki…Miyuki, this is my senpai in school Fuji Syuusuke."
"Yoroshiku." Miyuki and Fuji said at the same time with a slight bow to one another.
Miyuki then turned away to fix Ryoma's heavy jacket lightly. A slight pain shot through Fuji as he noted that now. When they dated Ryoma never wore heavy things…because he knew Fuji would keep him warm…with any means possible.
"Well then I'm going to take Akiha back to the hotel while you have a nice chat with your senpai ne anata?" Miyuki said with a soft smile.
Ryoma merely nodded and bent to kiss her brow before she bowed to Fuji and turned to leave with Akiha.
Another silence befell both of them as Ryoma adverted his gaze to his feet and Fuji looked to the trees. Feeling the weight of the words he never said that autumn day weighing on him again. He focused his attention on Ryoma again.
"Ryoma…"
"Hmm?" Ryoma answered looking at Fuji.
All in that moment Fuji faltered again to tell Ryoma how he truly felt on that day and asked him other questions again… That went on till the point where Ryoma glanced down at his watch and told Fuji he had to leave soon.
"I see…" Fuji merely said and he mentally cursed himself for not being able to say this…even after so long…
" Well…" Ryoma started to say
"Ryoma….I know I should have told you this a long time ago but…" Fuji voice died off a bit as he realized tears were forming in his eyes and his throat was constricting.
"I…"
(A/N: italics Lyrics)
--This time, This
place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make
you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case
there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know
Fuji knew he'd regret it even more if he didn't tell Ryoma now… but in his mind as he watched those golden eyes looking at him, he knew nothing could come of this even he told him.
"Ryoma… I love you…so much." Fuji managed to choke out before his voice cracked towards the end.
That I love you
I
have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far
too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never
go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
He didn't have to say much more… because as soon as those words left him, he found arms wrapped around his waist so very tightly.
"Ryoma…" Fuji murmured as Ryoma looked at him through his own tears.
"Baka…" Ryoma said with a slight smirk. "Why didn't you tell me then…"
Fuji never had a chance to respond as Ryoma's lips crushed onto his own. It'd been so long since the last time…
I wanted
I
wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For
being away for far too long
So keep breathing
'Cause I'm not
leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me
go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore--
When they finally broke apart, Fuji buried his head into the crook of Ryoma's neck. If he could never love Ryoma like this again, he wanted to keep this memory. Just the thought was painful to bear…
"Syuusuke…"
"I'm sorry Ryoma…sorry I didn't believe you…and now…"
Ryoma merely shook his head. "I think we both made mistakes that day…or should I say this day five years ago…" Ryoma said twisting the corner of his mouth up slightly.
"I…" Fuji started but Ryoma stopped him with a gentle touch to his arm.
"If you would have told me to stay then I would've." Ryoma said softly.
Fuji brows furrowed in pain. If he had just said that Ryoma would've stayed and if Ryoma would've just conveyed some attachment to him physically he'd have done anything to keep Ryoma.
Fuji held Ryoma close before suddenly letting him go and stepping back.
"What…Syuusuke?" Ryoma asked a bit confused. He reached out for Fuji but Fuji flinched away from his outstretched hand.
"Don't touch me!" Fuji said backing away even more. "If you do…if you do…You can't!" Fuji said softly with an anguished-filled voice.
Ryoma merely cocked his head to the side and tried to understand Fuji. It suddenly hit him what this meant…perhaps Fuji had someone else now and didn't want to hurt them.
"Do…do you have someone else now?" Ryoma asked.
Fuji looked at him in surprise. "No!"
"Then…"
Fuji smiled sadly at Ryoma, "but you do…"
Ryoma grew quiet as he contemplated that and Fuji took that time to sigh and turn away.
"So you see… it's impossible…dream should be left as such-"
Again, for the second time that night Fuji was surprised as Ryoma hugged him tightly despite all he said.
"I don't care…just give me one night Syuusuke…" Ryoma whispered achingly against Fuji's back. "Just one last memory…"
He didn't need to say more as Fuji hauled Ryoma roughly into an embrace and claimed his lips. In the spot they came together, misunderstood each other, and found each other once more, they started another chapter.
………………………………………………………………………………………..
A couple days later
Fuji felt uncomfortable as he walked with Ryoma and his family. Ryoma had invited him to have dinner with the family and they were now heading back. He watched as Ryoma kissed Akiha on the forehead softly and hold his wife as he promised to be back soon.
Fuji adverted his gaze as he kissed his wife on the brow and didn't look back at until Ryoma stopped next to him.
"Come on…" Ryoma said and both walked towards Fuji's apartment. This was it…tomorrow night Ryoma would be going home with his family and Fuji HAD to move on…no matter how much it hurt.
They walked slowly and silently next to each other despite the drizzle of rain that started as they approached their spot. Almost all the leaves had fallen by now and all that was left was a couple leaves.
"Syuusuke…" Ryoma finally said after stopping in their spot.
"What?" Fuji asked looking at Ryoma.
"Don't cry okay…because I'm not going to…so you can't either…" Ryoma said softly.
"Aa…" Fuji agreed pulling Ryoma into a quick embrace. "I won't so don't break our promise…"
Ryoma nodded. "We'll be together someday Syuusuke…we will…"
Fuji nodded in agreement. Someday may be never, someday may mean some other life but as long as there was someday…they had to live for that day!
Fuji leaned in to kiss Ryoma softly as he held back the tears…he wouldn't break the promise…
"It's two gays!"
Fuji and Ryoma broke off abruptly and looked up to see a group of five or so kids passing by.
Ryoma frowned as he opened his mouth to tell the little kids to go mind their own business but Fuji stopped him with a touch to his shoulder.
"Let's go… these kids aren't worth it."
Ryoma looked defiant but he nodded and walked along side Fuji to leave.
"Ne Oyaji's! will you spare us some change for a drink or two?" One jeered out.
"Get your own money bums!" Ryoma yelled back without even looking at which of the idiots mentioned that.
"Fuckin' gays!" another jeered out as he pushed Fuji hard. Fuji, not expecting the push, fell onto the sidewalk as his palm stung from scraping against the cement. The puddle he fell in made him wetter than ever, especially with the pouring rain.
"Teme! (Bastards)" Ryo growled out as he turned and punched the closest man to the floor. He continued to beat the ones coming at him in anger as Fuji recovered and stood. Fuji shook the water from his arms and saw a guy come up behind Ryoma with a metal bat that he had been carrying.
"Ryoma!!!" Fuji yelled rushing forward.
SMACK!
Fuji watched in horror as the bat made quick contact with the lower part of the back of Ryoma's head and sent him flying to the ground. Angered and distraught, Fuji opened his eyes dangerously at the youths who stood before him.
"Let's get out of here!" One said and everyone ran but Fuji didn't pursue. He dropped to his knees and picked up his Ryoma.
"Ryoma… are you okay?" Fuji yelled shaking Ryoma slightly. The only thing that greeted him was silence and a stream of blood that streamed from where he was hit.
"RYOMA!!!" Fuji shouted in horror at the steady flow of blood. He shakily pulled out his cell phone to call the police…he needed Ryoma to be okay…he had to be!
I'd be 30 minutes later when Miyuki and Akiha came rushing into the emergency room to see a shaky Fuji holding a cup of coffee.
"Fuji-san…" Miyuki said softly
"I'm sorry…" Fuji murmured to her with saddened eyes. "If only…if only I could've reached him in time…"
Miyuki didn't know what to say…all she could do was pull Fuji into her embrace.
"He'll be okay…he has to be…" Miyuki said soothingly.
A/N: And what do you know? It ends here…the final part will probably be part of the mass releases for Halloween so Review and leave your thoughts… don't forget to check for the releases on Halloween! Just one request if you love me: Review! XD