I do not own Percy Jackson or any of the characters in the books.
For Nico and his confession in The House of Hades.
I sat on the banks of the river watching the black waters swirl. Thoughts ran through my head much like the river was flowing, endlessly. The only difference is that they were all the same thoughts I've had before only now I was thinking about a way to get rid of them. Death or amnesia? Drastic options but no other option would work for me. My memories will never let me move on in any other way. I'd already admitted to my feelings but to live with them is another story. Jason is the only one who knows my secret but he doesn't understand. He will never understand and if anyone else found out they would hate me even more than they already do. Especially Him. That's why I left. So I wouldn't have to go through that.
In front of me lay my sword waiting for use. It would be painful but not as painful as not being with Him. Or watching Him with her. Every touch, every smile, every kiss. Never have to see it again because I would be down here for eternity and never have to see the living again or feel all the pain they bring. That is until they're both down here as well. Then I will have to endure them for eternity. At least I would be free of them for a short while. Would he even notice if I died? Probably not, since he has her.
Or I could just step into the river. Forget everything and everyone. Start again someplace new and hope fate was kind enough to never let me cross paths with anyone from my past. I would never have to remember the pain of losing my sister. A sister that I loved and could never be replaced. Never have to remember that cold December day when I was told by the boy I love that my sister was dead. I wouldn't even remember him.
Two options. Both had a certain appeal. Nearly impossible to choose between. I sighed and closed my eyes.
Hazel would be devastated me if I took my own life and left her. Even if she knew why I did it she would never understand. She would hate me if she knew my true feelings toward Percy. Everyone would hate me if they knew what was wrong with me. Especially Percy.
Oh, Percy. Why did it have to be you? Why couldn't I have fallen for someone who wasn't completely out of my league? Someone who could actually love me back. Or even notice me. That's the big kicker. No one notices me.
I closed my eyes and cast out all thoughts. Unfortunately it didn't work. In my head I could see Percy. He smiled at me sweetly and I smiled back. I could almost feel it when he stroked the side of my face. Then he turned away from me. I opened my eyes and I felt tears running down my face. The pain in my chest became worse than ever. It was then that I knew what I had to choose.
"Goodbye, Percy." I whispered as my last words in this life as Nico Di Angelo.