Metallaxis

Chapter 4

April's POV:

It must had been two hours. All I knew was I had spend so many time trying unsuccessfully to fall asleep. The tears and sobs had drained a large amount of my energy, but sleep still didn't want to visit me.

I had to think about many things. First of all, how could I spend the rest of my life with the guys without any problems? They might be my friends but I can't just oblige them to keep me in their house forever. It's not the right thing to do.

Will I ever go back to school? I may dislike it, but I am well aware that I need some further education, for practical reasons. Will I ever reunite with my friends? Ok, friend, and my Aunt? What about her? She'll be happy to have my father back but she will lose me. One person more to get hurt because of me.

I couldn't take it anymore. The walls of my room seemed to tighten and the air was getting thin. I needed to breathe again, I needed to get out of my thoughts. So, I stood up.

I walked through the other rooms as quietly as I could till I made it to the exit. I wandered along the dark sewers a little, until I decided I needed some more fresh air. I came out of the sewer and made it to the top of a building.

The view was quite satisfying. There was a light breeze touching me and I felt my muscles relax. I closed my eyes and focused on the noise of New York. The sounds weren't pleasant but they were enough to distract me from all the terrible things that had happened that night.

There was a particular sound that I detected though. There were small footsteps approaching me. I froze in my place. Who could that be? I was such a fool to come here in the first place. Is it Karai? Or Baxter or any of those people who hate turtles and me? And how am I going to defend myself in this body?

All of these thoughts faded away when one voice told me: "What are you doing up here?". I instantly recognized that voice and relaxed. Its sweetness was very familiar to me. I turned my head and saw Donnie smiling at me. He sat down next to me and for some seconds we both stared at the city awkwardly.

"I couldn't sleep." I finally answered him. "What about you?" I asked him.

"I was working at some stuff in my lab and I heard someone walk so I came out and saw you." he said with honesty.

"I wasn't as quiet as I thought." I joked and we both laughed a little.

"So, what have you been thinking?" he asked turning his gaze at me.

"Just stuff. It's complicated. I will never be able to do the things I used to and well, my life is about to change once more." I told him. He listened carefully not turning his look away.

"I understand. You can count on us for anything. We will help you through this. I will. I promise I will make this retro-mutagen again and this time I am gonna be super careful with it." he comforted me.

"Thank you Donnie! It means a lot. But it doesn't change the fact that I am completely different." I looked into his eyes, seeking for help, comfort, acceptance. I was counting on his words. I needed them.

"That's nonsense. April, you are not different. In fact you are even better than before. You are more beautiful than you were if that is even possible." He said with passion. After a second he realized how that had sounded so he turned his gaze away and blushed. And so did I.

He really thought this way? I had never considered myself beautiful. Not in any kind of way. And especially not now. And still, there he is telling me that I am beautiful. Not good, not cute, not anything. Just beautiful.

We spend some more time watching the buildings, all of the lights prevented us from watching the stars in the sky. We didn't have any words to say. We were both deep in our thoughts. And this peace was all I needed after all. A drowsy feeling overwhelmed me and my eyes started to close. Slowly but steadily, I let my head lean into Donnie's shoulder. He leaned back and I heard a quiet and distinctive sigh coming from him. We then let our dreams take us away, in our own ideal world.

A/N: Συγγνώμη που δεν μπόρεσα να... Wait, sorry, I am preety busy these days and I think I am starting to lose it... Pretty cheesy chapter right? I think it was time I wrote some Apritello moments, and there are more to come... I was thinking that maybe when or if I finish this story, I can write it again from Donnie's POV, because there are so many things he could be thinking... I don't know, would that be nice? Anyway, thanks for reviewing, it's being really helpful. Hope I can update soon!

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