Metallaxis

Chapter 8

Apri's POV:

I stayed in the kitchen, battling with my thoughts for a while. I finally came to the conclusion that I would better ask Leo for some piece of advice and then deal with the situation. It seemed a lot better to have a little plan rather than try to work things out at that moment.

I stood up from my chair and headed to Leo's room with a lot of determination. I was finally some steps away from his door and being really focused on it I didn't notice someone walking towards me. The result was the two of us crashing into each other.

I fell on the floor with force. My head was spinning but it fortunately lasted for only a couple of seconds. I slowly rubbed my head at the place I had hit it and tried to open my eyes. I instantly saw Donnie on the floor rubbing his head as well, the same way I did.

After a while our gazes met and the situation turned awkward. We both looked around the room trying to avoid eye-contact with each other. It was a little difficult and embarrassing. I didn't know if I had to say something. Thankfully, Donnie was the first one to speak.

"Sorry I bumped into you.." he apologized sweetly while trying to stand up. When he did, he offered me his hand. I hesitatingly reached it and he pulled me up. He accidentally used more force than needed and I once again smashed into him. This time though he grabbed me in his arms.

I raised my head and met his eyes. The blush I was trying to hide all this time finally came out. At least it was matching Donnie's blush and I was able to understand that we were thinking the exact same thing.

"Ahm… Thanks…" I said and pulled back, freeing myself from his arms.

"No problem." he answered me. He slowly raised his hand and rubbed the back of his neck while his eyes met the ground. "You know… I wanted to talk to you if you have a sec…" he told me.

There it was. He wanted to talk to me about what happened. But I hadn't talked to Leo. I wasn't prepared. I was starting to freak out. Relax April, it's just an unexpected change of plans, no one will get hurt. That was it.

"Yeah… Sure…" I couldn't say anything else. He nodded and we both took the way to his room. Or I should better call it his lab. Of course I had been here many times before but this time I felt like I wasn't so welcome in there. I guess I was searching for excuses to run away. Sometimes I'm such a coward.

We entered his room and I went to sit on the bed. He grabbed the chair from his desk and brought it right across me. He finally sat down. I waited impatiently as he tried to practice what he wanted to say in his head. I only wondered if this could get any more embarrassing.

After a little while, he spoke calmly, measuring every single word he said. "You probably know what I wanted to talk to you about… I am very sorry if I made you feel embarrassed or if I disgusted you or something… I just couldn't help myself, I wanted to do this since the very first time I glimpsed at you. You have always been so beautiful April, every movement or sound of yours, every look you give me, your smell. It's just unbearable to watch you walk away every time. Every time I wanna keep you close to me, forever. I want you to be mine. I am sorry if I sound selfish, all I wanted to say is, I love you April. I always have."

He finished narrating and I was blown away. I had never thought Donnie felt this way about me. Even if he liked me a little, I had never realized that his feelings were so deep and intense. He was always my friend, my anchor. He was the one to comfort me and ease my pain with just a look from his lively eyes.

He was the one to make me realize that I also felt this way about him. Every time he was in pain it affected me. Whenever he was sad I wanted to be there for him. Every time he achieved something, or even when he got lost in explaining scientific stuff with his silly grin, I got filled with joy and I only wanted to look at his happy face forever. I knew I felt all this stuff about him, I just didn't know how to name it. Or at least I didn't want to admit it. It was love.

I hadn't realized how much time I spent thinking. After a while I snapped out of my daydream and met a really nervous Donnie staring at me. He was hopelessly waiting for an answer and I felt really bad for make him wait so much. Not only for an answer, but for finally admitting that I was in love with him. He deserved more than me. A nobody, with no home and no life. I almost got sick when I recalled all the times I had hurt him. Suddenly, some thick teardrops started to form in my eyes. I couldn't hold them back so I burst into tears.

His look showed worry and regret. I was sobbing so hard I couldn't explain to him why I was crying. He seemed really disappointed and tried to stand up and walk away. He was probably thinking I was disgusted by him. I was starting to panic. For once in his life he had estimated wrong.

He was just some inches away from the door. It was my only chance. I stood up and rushed to his place. The moment he was about to spin the doorknob, I grabbed him from the shell and turned him around. His eyes met mine and they looked at me startled and confused.

"I love you too Donnie!" I said. That was enough to explain everything to him. His facial expression changed. He had the look I loved. That look I wanted to keep forever in my memory. That look which was filled with so many emotions.

His lips formed a smile and before I knew it this smile was touching mine. This kiss had nothing to do with the first one. It was full of passion. It was a kiss we both knew would be accepted. A kiss that proved that every word we said was true.

A/N: So... I really hope you enjoyed this chapter!

Disclaimer: I don't own TMNT.