I decided to do a chapter in Magnus' POV because I think you need his take on meeting Alec again. Enjoy.
I'm thinking about him again. Whatever I do, however hard I try to forget him I can't stop my mind from wondering to him. I think about how I left him under the witchlight that fateful night. I regret it... But I would never tell anyone that. I regret a lot of things.
I wonder where he is and prey to God he's alright. If only I could see him again. What would I say? That I love him? I think he's moved on by now, he's probably forgotten me and moved onto someone else. Or maybe he's pining after that blond boy again...John? Jake? Ah, Jace.
What am I doing? Alec's not like that! Isn't he though? A snide voice in my head asks. Wasn't it he who betrayed you? He was going to take your immortality away. As much as it pains me to agree with the voice I have to face the truth. I'm confused, as much as I want to forgive him I need time.
It's then that somebody bumps into me nearly knocking me over. I should have been watching where I was going instead of moping over someone who has most likely forgotten me. I'm about to say sorry when I notice his hair. It reminds me of Alec, like he's here...But he can't be. Alec's at the institute and my imagination is playing games with me.
"I'm so sorry..." He starts to speak and my face arranges itself into an expression of shock. It is him. Alexander is here. It's like the best dream, but at the same time my worst nightmare. I'm not ready to explain all my feelings. I can't tell him I've missed him so much that it hurts my heart. What would be his reaction if I did? Surely he wouldn't believe me.
His voice trails off as he finally looks at me and his expression would be almost comical, if not for the fact that I probably look like that too. The surprise is evident in his face and there is a deep sadness in his eyes. His eyes...
They are even more beautiful than I remember. The light blue colour of them is stunning, and people wonder why it's my favourite colour - it has been since I was with him. Now it shouldn't still be my favourite colour but it is. The colour haunts me, his eyes are in every dream I can remember but I still find them gorgeous.
We are both stood with our gaze locked on each other for about two minutes before I come to my senses. I need to get out of here. There is no way that I can keep my emotions in check for long.
"Well, as much fun as this has been I really have to dash. More important things to do, people to see." With that I leave before anything else can be said trying to avoid the hurt that flashes in his eyes. I silently thank the heavens that my voice kept me sounding confident, when inside I feel like a nervous wreck. What have I just done?
I lied. I lied to Alec. He's lied to you before, what's the difference? The voice asks me, I can't answer.
I don't have more important things to do - well except college, but after that encounter I'm not going for the rest of the day. I most certainly do not have anybody to see. The most important thing for me to do now is to get home and rest.
My phone rings. It's Tessa Gray, my best friend so I answer. No matter what mood I'm in I can talk to her. Anyway I need to vent out my feelings to somebody - right now she seems like the most likely victim.
"Hey Magnus, where's my sparkly sass bomb at? You were supposed to be here ten minutes ago." Oops, I may have been too caught up in my own worries to remember I was supposed to meet her before Law class (don't ask, I was forced to take it by Tessa).
"Tess, listen I'm not coming to class okay? I just met..." I can't say it, his name keeps getting stuck in my throat. "I just met A-Alec." Silence on the receiving end of the phone. Tessa knows about Alec and that he hurt me emotionally, she just doesn't know how. I carry on, I have to say it now. There is no way I can keep this inside me forever. I sob freely knowing she won't think any less of me.
"Tess, I still love him."
What do you think? Was writing Magnus' any good? Thanks for reading, please review if you can. :) x