Metallaxis

Chapter 11

April's POV:

It was about five minutes after Casey had left. I stood still and silent, observing my surrounding, without really looking somewhere in particular. For once in my life, after a long time, I felt complete. I remembered feeling this way as a kid, every day, when my mother and father were with me, when we were a complete family.

And I had completely forgotten how family was like. Until I met the turtles, my life had no actual meaning. Nothing to fight for. No one to care about. No one to love. And now these people had unexpectedly walked in my life and I am not able to even think of shutting them out. They're everything to me.

I stood up from the couch and felt my back ache. I guess I had spent more time than I thought, just staying there. I felt some regret and guilt as I remembered my favorite turtle waiting for me in his lab. Casey wasn't his warmest spot, but it was usually easy to get him to compromise.

I headed to his lab and slowly opened the door, trying not to make my arrival so obvious. I peeked through the door and spotted Donnie on his desk, fully concentrated in a science book. He didn't seem to notice me coming in, so I chose not to bother him and I walked towards his bed. I laid there for about two minutes when he asked me without turning his gaze away from the pages. "So what did you talk about?"

I was caught of guard by his sudden question and the demanding tone in it. "I thought you hadn't noticed me coming in!" I shouted a little startled.

"Just because my eyes were occupied, doesn't mean my ears were as well." He said turning his look at me. His tone hid an obvious spark of irony and the inquiring look he gave me didn't offer any pleasant feelings.

"What's up with you? I didn't do anything wrong!" I ignored his poise and let my irritation show. He obviously felt jealous but I couldn't accept his current reaction. He never really liked Casey but that doesn't mean that I can't like him either. And what? Did he really think that something could happen between us when just some hours ago I had confessed my love to him? After all those moments, was that really how much he trusted me?

As if he read my mind, he frowned. His eyes met mine and I could read sadness and egret as he was hit with realization of his actions. "I… just wanted to know what you talked about…" he finally said, his voice so low I hardly heard him.

I relaxed a little and tried to look more approachable. As I stared into his eyes, I could see all the decent emotions he felt for me and how much pain it caused him when I made myself so distant. I knew that feeling. The fear of being left alone. Isolated from the ones you love.

I stood up and walked to his place with measured steps. He followed my every moment with his stare but didn't make any sounds, other than his heavy and erratic breathing. I finally reached his place and without saying anything, I sat calmly on his lap. He kept staring into my eyes and showed some kind of confusion combined with relief. He desperately awaited for any kind of explanation and his mind was troubled. But he still didn't say anything.

"He told me that loved me no matter what…" I made a stop as I said that, to observe his reaction. The word "love" carried a deep and very sensitive meaning for both of us. Using it so simply, when some time ago it was the hardest thing to say, evoked many feelings.

"… as a friend… And that he has been dating with Irma…" I finally finished my sentence . His expression and mood suddenly enlightened. He almost choked out a laugh of relief but he managed to contain himself.

He spent some moments in silence when he finally chose to address to me. "You are amazing…" he said and forcefully laid his lips on mine.

No matter what, we both knew what we wanted. Each other. There were only little things that could get between us. The worst of them was ourselves. As long as we could avoid it, everything was going to be alright. And we both knew it.

A/N: Sorry isn't enough, I know... I have lots of exams these days... And a minor writer's block... Anyway, hope this is enough for now, cause I don't know when the next update comes... I have this bad habit of not finishing my stories when they have many chapters but I have to work on that... I also loved the new episode! Tell me what you thought of this chapter!