Through my lovers eyes
by missteff
June 2014
chapter 6

"Castle," she calls again. "is everything ok?" My bride's soft voice changes to concern. My anger quickly subsides into guilt at my tone.

"Sorry," a pause, "yes, everything's fine, absolutely" I take in another deep breath. "Everything's fine." I repeat helplessly.

"Castle," she knew that I was lying, I guess she can hear something in my voice or she just knew me too well, either way I couldn't keep anything from her.

"No-" I sigh. "It's-it's not been a good day. One obstacle after another." I sigh, "And now we have to move the wedding party to the Hampton's."

"What? What about-"

"Long story there tell you about that later. So did you find..." Every person in the room seems to be hovering around me, hanging on every word I had to say.

"Did you find what you were looking for?" I shift uncomfortably, from one foot to the other.

Sliding my eyes I catch a glimpse of each one of them, wishing that I had a magic wand one that I could wave around my room to make everyone here vanish. wouldn't that be cool it there really was such a thing. I would swipe it in the air and poof. Everyone disappears. Seeing my obvious discontent, Esposito nudges Ryan with his elbow and a slight tilt of his head. Telling him that it was time to go.

"Tell, Beckett 'hey' and we will see you two in the Hampton's in two days time for your wedding." Ryan winks.

"And good luck bro." Esposito laughs as he follows Ryan out the door. I smirk.

"The boys were there?" Beckett asks. How could she tell this time?

"Yes, they were but they had some things to do." I glance at my mother and Alexis, "Ahem," I was hoping that she would take the hint that I wanted to talk to my fiancée alone.

She slightly nods at me, "Let's leave the lovebirds to talk to each other alone."

"But I-" my daughter starts on one of her pleas along with her puppy-eye look, one that always did me in but right now I had to focus on Kate.

"I know dear but your father's really stressed out right now. He needs this time and besides we got work to do if we want..." my mother smiles, placing her hands on my daughters shoulders spinning her around towards the doorway. "Want them to have a wedding in two days. We need to go." Giving her a gentle push gliding her out the door.

"Finally," sighing I take in a deep breath. "We can talk- so tell me that you have some good news Kate, cause I could really use it about now." There was a slight hesitation in her voice. Whenever she used to do that, when we talked I knew that she wasn't completely honest with me.

"Kate?" I question, praying that she's not in some kind of trouble herself.

"Okay, so, there has been a little glitch up here."

"A glitch? what kind of glitch," The idea struck me, our worst nightmare. That she couldn't find him.

"You couldn't find him!"

"I found him alright,"

"Then- oh don't tell me- he won't sign."

"Oh no he said he would sign if I do something for him first."

"Do something for him?" I didn't like the sound of that. Was it...I shook my head as I stood up out my chair.

If he was going to made her to sleep with him. I'm going to murder him myself. That way we wouldn't need- him to sign the papers he be dead. That would take care of the problem for I would be in jail or maybe not. I could get away with this murder, um...

"Castle, calm down." she knows me to well, "It's not what you think," With all the rage that was building inside me a walk around the house was in order. A lot of times that was the best way for me to unwind but I'm not sure that would even help. Walking into my bedroom, sitting on my bed to get more comfortable. I smiling now, as I glance at the framed seashell picture on the wall. Just remembering that day made me calm. I wish we were back there, walking on the beach.

We walked on the hot sand of the beach, hand in hand. I took in everything that day, the smell of salt coming off of the waves, the mist hitting my face, the sun shinning bright above me and the seagulls flying over head. All of a sudden, she let go of my hand, leaving me standing alone on the shoreline. Watching her run for some seashells caused me to smile. She had always loved them so. We got so much fun out of that. I placed them in my pocket without her knowing. And later made this...

Other thoughts popped in my mind. what was he asking her to do, was it breaking him out of jail or having her commit a crime for him. "Then what kind of thing,"

"He wants me to break into his ex-girlfriend's truck and steal a garage door opener."

"He wants you to what?" I slide my finger through me hair a few times stepping away from the picture and the good times that we shared. "To steal a garage door opener from a truck.

"Apparently after they broke up, his ex-girlfriend took a few of his things and he wants them back." She finally takes a breath. She sighs.

"And he needs that to get into her place?" I question, "But-"

"Her mom's place, but yeah." She comments before I can finish.

"And you told him no right?" or using my authority voice I asked her if she told him no.

"Castle, he could drag this on for years." was her only response.

"And if you get caught?" I swallow.

"I won't. Look, Castle, if I-...f i don't do this we don't get married."

"Kate, I can't lose you again, even if we don't get to get married. If you get caught doing this. I'll never get to..." a tear slides down my face, as it touched my lip wanting to feel hers there.

"Don't worry I wont get caught." She reassure me cheerfully. Something else is up she does just go from one mood to another that quick.

"How can you be sure...that you wont." a pause, moving my eyes back and forth "unless...wait Kate...you already..." she cuts me off, trying to explain her actions.

"Castle I had to, I..." a short pause, "I know that you're upset."

"Damn right I'm upset." my voice rises as I become anger at this situation.

"Castle, I had to do this." She repeated her voice changing to almost a child's whisper. "I had no choice. Babe, I love you. I did this for us." she sighs, I don't say anything. I said nothing for a few seconds. "I was like you said grasping for straws, I can't live..."

It was my turn to cut her off. "Well, did you get it?"

"Huh,"

"The remote, did you get it?" repeating the question like she did me.

"Um..."

"Um...that's not answer."

"Beckett what's really going on here. Tell me straight up, am I getting married in two days?"

I start to pace the floor again, this time ignoring the picture with the seashells in it.

"Here's the thing." she begins to tell me.

"Kate, you didn't get caught, did you?" I swallow, the lump forming in my throat, my worst fears were now entering my mind and tears came to my eyes. Just thinking about her behind bars cause she loves me, was too much for me to bare. I sit on bed put my head in my hand and began to cry. This is all my fault for not going with her. after wiping my face with the edge of my shirt shelves from the tears, I sniff, closing my eyes praying that it wasn't so. I couldn't bare my life without seeing her. The smiles she brought to me the laughter we shared I couldn't lose it. I let the tears fall down my face on to my new manuscript where my characters are happily married on an island. That may never be my life. How could this happen this way?

"No," her voice brought me back. "I got the remote and I wasn't caught."

That was a relieve. "Yes," I shout in the phone. more than excited more for the face that she didn't get caught and wasn't calling me from a jail cell.

"Get back here so we can celebrate, in more ways than one," I whisper the last part, hoping that would encourage her to hurry back to know how much i missed her.

"Uh Castle," i shout at her.

"He hasn't signed the papers yet has he?" my face fell, if that was the case then why didn't see just tell me.

"I don't know how to tell you this...it's not..."

"Just tell me, put me out of my misery," I was complaining now.

"When I went to deliver it to him..."

"Yes,"

"He well," she sniffs. "He was kidnapped." That statement made me chuckle. I thought that she was playing with me getting me back form one of my other quirks.

"Castle, this isn't funny." serious tone.

"You are serious..." a pause, "He's been abducted? How – how? But you –."

"I know. I couldn't believe it either. I was standing right there when it happened. Some men just grabbed him after he opened his door. I had to hide in a bushes on the side of his porch just so I wouldn't be seen. I just did make it out of the way, before they saw me. I was lucky they didn't come after me."

"Oh, my, Kate I..." worried tones.

"Look I'm fine, well at least from that part but." I smile when she tells me that she was fine, but her 'fine' and my 'fine' are two different things.

" I hate to ask, but do you think maybe we should postpone the wedding? I mean with everything..."

"No, no. I'm not giving up. I'm going to find him."

"How? You don't..."

"Well, I'm a detective. Someone here has to know something."

"You shouldn't be doing this alone."

"Castle we talked about this...this is..." even though she couldn't see me through the phone. I place hands in air as to stop her words.

"No, sweetie, I'm coming up in there. and that's all there is to it."

"Are you sure? I...what about..." she spats off.

"Yes, absolutely. Everything here is completely under control. You know my mother and my daughter.."

"That I do." what's that supposed to mean.

"I will see you in a few hours. My love. Till then don't do anything."

"I won't, meet me at the willow creek bar." After hanging up my phone, stuffing in my pocket I ran my den area, searching for my misplaced keys. Alexis was coming down the stairs at that exact moment.

"Dad, What's going on?" she asks, seeing me glancing around the room. "Is Beckett in trouble?"

Ignoring her question, I ask her one of my own. "Um...where are my keys?"

"Over there." Martha points a finger over to the table top.

"Why?"

"I'm going to willow creek."

"Go, go." My mother shoos a hand at me.

"Dad," my daughter screams, "Dad,"

swooshing, open the door, I flew out, not looking back at them, I didn't have time. I had to get to her fast. We were running out of time.

to be continued...