The doctor sighed:

''You have to understand that it was a possible outcome that was already suspected. It happens more often that epilepsy gets caused by a stroke.''

Matt's hand started to shake in hers.

''Does t-that mean I will have t-these attacks more often?''

If the doctor said yes, he knew his hopes were shattered and that he would never return to 51. If he would return he would be a danger for his man instead of a strong leader. Imagine getting one of these attacks while in a burning building.

''We can't be sure, but we suspect it will happen more often.''

Matt looked down and the doctor left the room.

''I am sorry Matt.'' Gabriela caressed him over his shoulder but he pushed her away with his left arm and hit his hand on his knee.

''Why do I have t-to give up? I c-can still come back!''

Gabriela shook her head with tears in her eyes. She knew he wasn't allowed to work as a fire fighter again with the risk of getting an epileptic attack. She turned her head to his mom who was standing outside of his room, leaning against the wall. Nancy had her arms crossed and looked hostile at Gabriela, as if she was the one that caused all of this. That she was the reason her son was nearly crying.

''You don't have to, who knows? Your motor skills get better each day, maybe it was a sole attack.''

''What if it w-wasn't?''

''Then we will think of something. It all be okay, Matt.''

He gave her a sad smile and laid his hands on hers on her lap.

''Thank you. I k-know I should me glad I am s-still here and I can s-still be with you. I just can't even imagine y-you still want t-to be with me.''

''Don't say thing like that! I love you.'' Gabriela said, laying her other hand on top of his.

''And? news?'' Nancy leaned in the doorpost and Matt pulled his hand back.

''Epilepsy, caused by the s-stroke.''

''How are you feeling now?''

''T-tired. See you another t-time.''

Nancy kissed him on his forehead and Matt looked annoyed as she walked away.

''Don't ever say things like that again! I would never leave you because of this and this is just something bad that happened, that doesn't mean all is lost. We will get through this, you will get through this.''

''I feel s-so useless.''

''Come, I will lower your bed so you can sleep.'' Gabriela said as she wanted to lay the blanket on top of him but he shook his head.

''I am not t-that tired, I just wanted to h-have her gone.''

Gabriela's phone went off and she stood up to get it.

''Yeah…yeah..that is amazing…good.''

She tucked the phone back in her bag.

''Who was t-that?''

''Hmmm...you will find out tomorrow, but go to sleep for now, you look exhausted and you are going to need some energy tomorrow.'' She teased him.

''Just t-tell me what is going to happen t-tomorrow!'' He complained as she tucked him in and kissed him goodnight, although it was still early in the evening.

''The nurses are s-still going to wake me up.''

''Oh, you want nurse Jean to tuck you in?'' She laughed and he finally started to laugh as well.

'''N-not really. T-tucking in? Maybe, but not a g-goodnight kiss.''

''Oh and you do want a goodnight kiss from me?'' She chuckled as she bow forward and kissed him.

''I love you.''

''I love you t-too.''

''Now wait for nurse Jean.'' She teased him as she walked out of the room.

''Casey!''

Matt threw his gloves in candidate's Otis hands and walked her way.

''You are bleeding.''

''It's nothing.'' He shrugged but he still kept standing with Gabriela.

''I'll decide that.'' She pushed him down to sit at the edge of the ambulance and she grabbed a small patching, wiping the blood from his forehead, only to see that it was indeed nothing.

''Matt, enjoy it! Will be only woman touching you today.'' Andy walked past them.

''Don't mind him, I am not sure what is wrong with him, I guess Heather gave him a hard time this morning.'' Casey apologized with a smile as he took the patch from her and kept pressing it against his forehead.

''You and Heather broke up?'' Gabriela asked as she stepped inside the ambo to grab a plaster for his forehead.

''We decided to take a small break so she could focus on her career.'' Matt said, handing her the patch and refusing the plaster.

''I don't think I will bleed to death from this scrap.''

''You sure? We might even have some sesame street plasters in the back.''

Casey chuckled; ''Nha, I think I will live.''

He smiled at her and grabbed his gear, thanked her and walked away again. Her eyes followed him as he walked back to the truck and her lips curled in a smile. Was this her chance? For a second she hesitated if she should run after him and ask him out for dinner, but Shay already walked towards her and they got back in the ambo to drive back to the firehouse.

''Finally.''

''Speech t-therapy got me delayed t-this morning and after t-that everything.''

His eyes looked at the folded outfit on his bed.

''Sweatpants and sketchers aren't really that sexy.'' She shrugged.

''Do you mean we are g-going out?''

''I told you yesterday.''

''I mean out of t-the hospital out?''

''Yes.''

He started to laugh. ''Did the doctor allow that?''

''He couldn't refuse when I told him I am a paramedic.''

''Hmm so I have t-trust you?'' Matt said with a cheeky smile.

''Yes.'' Gabriela said as she helped him to get his shirt off and he handed him the CFD t-shirt. His face suddenly brightened up as he saw the shirt and he looked up to her with a big smile.

''Are we going t-to 51?'' He asked while he kept looking at his shirt.

''If you want.''

''Should I t-tell them today?'' Matthew asked Gabriela as she pulled the shirt over his head and he was happy to wear the grey and yellow shirt again. All he could hope was that he got to wear it in the future, even though things didn't seem so hopefully now.

''What?'' Gabriela said as she kept kneeled down next to his wheelchair although he wasn't completely dressed yet.

''That I am n-not coming back.'' Matt said, mumbled. He look at the shirt that was baggy hanging around him, as he had lost a lot of weight.

''Babe, nothing is sure yet, don't give up hope, remember?''

She got down on her knees to get his shoes off while he was biting his nails.

''Are you that nervous?'' He just shrugged and looked a the small window as she got him ready. The sun was just setting as they finally left the hospital. It was the beginning of June and it was hot warm enough to go outside without a jacket and they decided to make the trip without taking the wheelchair bus at the hospital since the firehouse wasn't that far away.

Before they had reached the firehouse she stopped at exact the same point as were they had stopped the day of the accident to go to the station apart from each other and she kneeled down again.

''Are you sure you want to go? Don't feel required to come because they invited you. I know you are nervous.''

''No, I want t-to go there. Really.''

As they finally reached the firehouse Kelly was already waiting outside for them. He greeted Matt.

''You know, everybody was waiting for you to come. There are some visitors that really want to see you.''

''Good, it was n-not like I wasn't nervous.'' Matt chuckled, cheeky and nervous at the same time.

''Why the need to feel nervous, you know us.''

Matt nodded and they went inside. His crew immediately ran towards him and he tried to shake their hands the best as his hand allowed him to. Otis got pushed out of the way as Shay also appeared and she bend forward and hugged him, nearly crushing him. After the warm welcome he looked through the familiar kitchen with a smile on his face. He was so happy to get back here.

''Casey!'' The chief greeted him. ''You can't imagine how good it is to see you here.''

''You can't imagine how g-good it is to be here.'' Matt smiled back.

Hermann also came running from the offices and greeted him.

''T-that shirt totally looked better on me.'' Casey joked as he saw Hermann in the lieutenant T-shirt and the other firemen laughed. Hermann shook his head and crossed his arms quasi offended and looked up as the door opened and a lot of the people from the neighbourhood came walking in, carrying trays and plates in their hands.

''Where do we need to put it?'' They asked Hermann but Mills already ran forward, taking some of the plates.

''You haven't t-told me food was included.'' Matt said with a smile to Kelly, whom was still standing next to him.

''Well, everybody is happy 51 is back and they also want to save you one night from the hospital food, so you better eat a lot. You could use it.''

''T-thanks, I love you too.''

''I said it because I am worried about you.''

''I know.'' Matt said cheeky and Boden approached him again.

''There are some people waiting for you in my office.''

Casey nodded and Boden wanted to walk away.

''Uhh, Chief?''

The chief apologized and started to push his wheelchair while the others in the common room stopped talking, looking at them and Matt felt embarrassed but for now he tried not to think about it.

In the office a blonde woman was waiting for him, rocking a baby and he recognized her. She was the woman that had been on the ground, asking him to safe her baby and he had neglected the orders to get his ass out of the building.

''Missis Winters?'' Boden said as they entered the office and Matt awkwardly shook her hand with his left hand and introduced himself.

''I can't thank you enough for saving Daisy's life. There is nothing I can say to thank you enough.''

''I am just happy to s-see you alive and well.'' Matt said with a smile as he looked at baby Daisy.

''I am sorry to see you got yourself injured.'' Boden smiled at the both of them.

''But Matt is coming back.'' Boden said as Missis Winters handed Matt Daisy and he held her awkward on one hand, but with a lot of effort he finally managed to raise his right hand and tickle baby daisy on her belly while he looked at the laughing baby. This was what the job was about, this is what made it worth it all.

''Ofcourse I am coming b-back.'' Matt said, determined.

''What if you get hurt again?'' Missis Winters said, worried.

''Then I hope it h-happens when I rescue a sweet little b-baby.'' Matthew looked at baby Daisy, trying to grab his shirt in her tiny fists. For one, he knew he wasn't probably coming back.

Missis Winters took Daisy from his arm again and he looked as the baby was laid back in the stroller. He also knew that if his recovery wouldn't go well, he probably would never have a baby with Gabby.

He was proud for running to the baby even though he had gotten the orders to run out and saved the baby and he would probably do it again.

But a part of him also started to doubt if this really had been worth it.

NOTE: So, are Matt's chances of returning blown? Will he and his mom make up?

Even though Casey is a good and loyal guy, even he must have his doubts after this all, right?

I am sorry I haven't replied to the previous reviews. I had an important exam (which I passed) today so I didn't have much time and I just wanted to get this chapter through before going to bed. I will try to answer as many before I go, but if I don't reply that is absolutely not that I don't appreciate it because I more than do! I just didn't make it to answer them all today. I hope it won't keep you from reviewing!

Anyway, I hope you liked the chapter - and the ending because I am really not sure what you will think of it - so thank you for reading as always and please do leave a review before you go!