''Matt?''

Matt opened his eyes, confused and it took him a few seconds before he could see clear and he blinked. Gabriela was leaning over him and looked at him, worried.

''Matt?'' Matt turned his head a little bit and looked as Boden was standing beside Gabriela and he tried to sit up.

''Stay down, you fainted.'' Gabriela rubbed over his shoulder as Boden walked away.

''Are you feeling okay?'' Gabriela asked worried and Matt looked up to her.

''Yeah, I-I am okay.'' He sat up a little bit and looked through the living room.

''No s-seizure?'' He asked as he moved sideways and put his legs on the ground. He couldn't imagine he had one but he felt as awful as he did after a seizure.

''No.''

He sighed relieved, the worst thing he could imagine happening was getting seizure on Boden's doorstep while he was begging to come back. Boden came walking back with a glass and handed it to Matt.

''Water?'' Matt asked looking up.

''With a little sugar, you will feel better.''

''I am going to park the car a little closer.''

Boden sat down next to Matt on the couch.

''I am r-really sorry.'' Matt said between drinking little sips of the water and he looked at Boden.

''I am really happy you are okay Matthew. That's all I can hope for. Did you come here because you knew I lived close?''

''i w-wanted to show you I could come back, that I am okay.'' Matt finished the water. ''I can do it, I p-promise!''

''I know, son. I am sure you will return when it is time.'' Boden rubbed over his shoulder. Matt bow his head when he heard Boden didn't think he was ready to come back.

''We should probably go home.'' Gabriela entered again and she helped Matt up as he leaned against her shoulder.

''I am really s-sorry chief.''

''Stay safe, Matt.'' Boden laid his hand on Matt's shoulder as he and Gabriela walked outside.

''I am s-sorry.'' He also apologized to Gabriela as she started the car as they drove home.

''I am just happy you ran to Boden and collapsed there instead of running somewhere else and collapsing on your own. Are you really okay?''

''Yeah, I j-just feel a little weak.'' He rubbed through his eyes and sat up a little bit more, trying to regain his energy.

''The twins are actually at our place.'' Gabriela said now.

''Oh man, l-lets hope everything is still as we left it.'' Matt said quasi-shocked and the idea of the twins gave him some of his energy back as he hadn't seem them in three weeks. When they entered Eva was laying on the couch while Diego was playing on his gameboy.

''Hey guys.''

''Hey Matt'' The kids greeted him and he wanted to walk to the shower to wash the sweat of him when Eva suddenly jumped up and stopped in front of him: ''My ballet presentation is in two weeks, do you want to come with Gabby?''

''Ofcourse s-sweetie!'' He smiled as she seemed worried he would say no and she jumped up and down; ''I will make sure you can sit front row.''

''Oh Eva don't spoil him too much.'' Dawson said with a wink and Matt laughed as he kept walking to the bathroom and stepped under the shower.

''Are you okay? If you start to feel dizzy because of the steam just call me.''

Matt yelled back he would and started to wash his hair. Maybe he had overestimated himself, he could have known his body probably wouldn't take running so far. But at least he had tried. He got out of the shower and walked to the bedroom and got dressed as he walked back to the kitchen. Diego was still laying on the couch with his gameboy while Eva and Gabby were busy in the kitchen.

''You want to play a g-game with me?'' Matt asked he wanted to bond a little more with the guy, as he didn't know the boy so well.

''Okay. I don't like monopoly though.''

''Do you l-like FIFA?'' Matt said with a smile as he opened the small cabinet under the tv and grabbed two of the Xbox controllers.

''Pff, soccer.'' Diego rolled his eyes but the grabbed the controller from Matt with a smile and Matt launched the game.

''You aunt always b-beats me at gaming.'' Matt chuckled.

''That's because I taught her.'' Diego said smart and they started gaming.

He was pretty sure he was still screaming when they dragged him down the ladder. Everything after that was a blur of people screaming. The first thing that woke him up was when he pressed on the doorbell at house of the Dardens. The chief had told him he would go to tell Heather, but Matt wanted Heather to hear from him, not from the chief.

''Matt?''

Heather looked worried as she Matt standing there and he bow his head.

''There is something wrong with Andy, isn't there?'' She said worried and she send the boys upstairs.

''Matt, talk to me please!'' She said after he hadn't said anything.

''We couldn't do anything. He was in there and I said he had to..'' Matt's eyes filler with tears as he realized he didn't just leave Heather a widow and Ben and Griffin without a father, but he had also left Matt. Only now he was telling Heather he realized this was real and not a bad nightmare.

Heather fell against and started to cry, knowing she was never going to see her husband back. She buried her face in his shoulder while he cried with his head on her shoulder. When he looked up he saw the boys looking at him and Griffin started to cry as well. He wasn't sure why Matt was crying, but he knew it was bad.

''Baby, it's time for you to stop gaming.'' Gabriela laid his hand on Matt's shoulders.

''She is r-right but I guess she will kick your ass now.'' Matt stood up and handed the controller to Gabriela. Usually he didn't really stick to the rule of stopping gaming after an hour but now he had fainted he did and he walked to the kitchen, where Eva was looking at the oven.

''What are you m-making?'' Matt said as he sat down beside her.

''Apple turnovers. I always make them with mommy.'' She smiled proud.

''Are your p-parents out together?''

''No, mommy is busy at work and there was something at daddy's work so mommy called Gabriela if we could spend the night here.''

''Your are always welcome, r-remember?'' Matt smiled and he got up, his right leg a little stiff now and he walked to the fridge.

''You also want something to drink?'' He asked as he held up the package of applejuice and he handed her a glass as well.

''It's really cool you are walking again, you could play soccer with Diego.''

Matt chuckled. ''I d-don't think so.'' She kept looking at the turnovers in the oven and he sat down next to her again.

''When are you and Gabby going to marry?'' She asked.

''I guess...soon.'' He said. To be honest, they hadn't really been talking about a date and how they wanted to get married. They both wanted to focus on him getting better first, as well their lives getting back on track.

''Daddy said I will get a really nice dress then.'' Suddenly the small alarm on the counter started to beep and she got the turnover out, laying them on a place.

''They l-look and small very good.'' Matt smiled as she brought them to the living room with a smile. Gabby paused the game as Eva and Matt joined them on the couch and Eva handed everybody a turnover.

''Mmmmm.'' Gabriela said after taking a bite.

''Its hot!'' Eva warned her and Gabriela swallowed it anyway. ''I am engaged to a firefighter, don't tell me what hot.'' She goofed.

''Ewwwww'' Diego yelled and Eva joined his ewww but laughed at the same time.

''it is r-really good.'' Matt complimented Eva.

After the apple turnover Matt went to bed because he was still filling bad from fainting and he caught some sleep before Gabriela also laid down in bed. ''The twins really like you.'' She smiled with her head on his chest as she saw he was awake.

''I like them too. They are c-cute kids.''

''You would be a great father.''

''M-maybe, someday.'' He said with a smile.

''I know, I didn't mean within a year but I am sure that we would be parents one day, right?''

''i g-guess so.'' He said a little unsure. ''I mean, I want to, but I also want to go back to 51 and I am afraid something would happen to me if I had a c-child. Not for me, but I don't want another young kid left without a father like the D-dardens.''

''Well, let's get you back there first, then we will see, okay.''

''I t-thought you didn't want to me to go back to 51.'' Matt said, playing with her hair.

''I support you in everything that makes you happy.'' She said then with a smile as she kissed him goodnight.

''Your daddy, he was in a fire today.'' Griffin and Ben looked at their mother as she sat between them on the couch and Matt bow his head, knowing what she had to tell them.

''He is not coming back home.''

Griffin started to sob even louder now and crawled against his mother and Matt wanted to stand up and walk away, knowing the family was in pain and he couldn't burden them with his sadness about Andy's death.

''Will we see daddy again?'' Ben asked as he didn't seem to understand what his mom was saying and Griffin jumped up; ''Dad is not coming back, he is dead!''

Crying the older Darden ran upstairs and Heather followed him. ''Griffin Darden come here right now!''

Ben started to cry and Matt pulled the young boy in his arms. The boy sobbed against his shoulder and Matt rubbed through his hair, knowing there was nothing he could say to comfort the boy.

How were they ever going to live with this?

NOTE: Is Gabriela's support going to help him to get back at 51? When will they get married?

I hope you liked this chapter and the flashbacks. Writting them made me cry.

Thank you for reading and please leave a review!