Chapter 12: What Happened?
Renesmee's POV
The pressure of warm hands pressing on my chest is the first thing I felt as I slowly came back to awareness. Then it was followed by air forcefully entering my lungs.
"Breathe! God damned it! Please breathe Nessie!" came the voice that could only belong to my Jacob.
I opened my eyes which were met with the sight of Jacob's.
"Thank god Nessie. I thought I had lost you for a minute" he said.
"Where am I? How long was I out?" I asked. My raw throat hurt with every breath I took.
I just pulled you ashore a few minutes ago. I think you were only out for a few minutes before that.
"How did you find me?" I asked.
"You were in danger Ness. I could just feel it" he said.
"Ouch!" I screamed really loud when he touched me. The pain was immensely unbearable.
"Are you okay Nessie?" he asked.
"Do I look okay?!" I would smack him right now if I could.
I tried to move my legs and I realized that they weren't responding the way they should. They were basically dead weight. Then I remembered that I couldn't move them when I was in the water either. No! This couldn't be happening! I can't be paralyzed.
"Nessie!" I heard another voice shout. I turned my head slightly to the right and saw Carlisle running towards me with his doctor bag of medical supplies.
He went into 'doctor mode' and started asking me a lot of questions and poking and prodding me very gently in different parts of my body. All of his years of training and being a doctor really showed in these moments that he looked over me. Somehow he also managed to stay calm.
"Where is everyone else?" I asked.
"There all stuck on the bridge. It's complete chaos there right now. I left because I knew you would need medical attention immediately. You're parents wanted to come but I convinced them to stay because we would have been much more noticeable" he said.
"Do they know what happened?" I asked. I was having a hard time breathing now.
"Not at first. We hadn't realized what happened until we heard the other drivers saying that you had fallen off the bridge" he said.
"Wait! You fell off a bridge?!" Jacob shouted sounding hysterical.
"I was hit twice. The second car pushed me off" I said.
Jacob looked extremely worried now. "Will she be okay doc?" he asked.
"I don't know. We need to get her to a hospital now" he said.
I tried to move my legs again to no avail. "I can't move my legs" I whispered.
They both froze.
"What did you say?" Carlisle asked slowly although I'm sure he heard me.
"I can't move or feel my legs. I'm really scared grandpa" I said.
He cradled me like if I was a baby. "You'll be okay Nessie" he said.
"It hurts" I said.
"What hurts?" Carlisle asked.
"Everything" I said. "My whole body"
He rummaged through his bag and took out a needle and medicine. He put the medicine into syringe and then carefully injected it into my arm.
"It's an anesthetic. In a few minutes you'll be fast asleep and you won't feel anything" he said.
"Thanks gramps" I said.
"I don't like seeing you in pain Nessie. You're my granddaughter and I love you" he said.
Amongst all this pain his words still got to me and made me cry. Although I knew he loved me it was the first time he ever said it.
Thinking it was the pain making me cry he got all worried again "Are you okay? The anesthetic should be taking affect now" he said.
As he said that I got really drowsy.
"There there now, it's okay" he said. He picked me up ever so gently. The drowsiness increased a tenfold. "Just sleep painfree" he said.
"I love you too gramps. I love you very much" my words had kind of slurred and ran together by then, but I could tell he understood. He smiled at me and then gave me a kiss on the forehead. I then gave into the drug.
The sound of beeping was the first thing I heard when I woke up. I looked around the room in a daze. I heard heavy breathing and then I realized it was the stupid breathing mask I was wearing. I was in the process of removing it when a warm hand caught mine.
"Oh no you don't" came Jacob's husky voice.
"Jacob? You're still here?" I asked.
He looked hurt. "You don't want me here?" he asked.
"No! Of course I do. It's just, how long have I been here?" I asked.
"Three days. I haven't moved from your side since" he said.
"I have been sleeping for three whole days" I said.
"Yes you have. Carlisle insisted on giving you a lot of pain killers especially after you underwent surgery two days ago" he said.
"I had a surgery?" I said.
"Yes because you suffered major injuries to your spine. You also caught pneumonia which is why you need to keep that mask on" he said.
"Where is everyone?" I asked.
"They are at home right now. Carlisle will be back tonight, he'll be happy to see you awake. He wasn't expecting you to wake up until tomorrow night because you still had so much medicine in you're system when he decided to stop administering it last night" he said.
"What about my adoptive family?" I asked.
"They are also very worried about you" he said. They were worried about me? I thought they'd be terrified of me.
"Something happened Nessie. We all know something happened. We can tell. They've been acting different around you. It seems like they're terrified to be in the same room with you alone" he said . "What happened?"
"I don't want to talk about it" I said.
"You're going to have to. They won't say anything. Edward knows but he refuses to say anything. He thinks you should tell" he said.
"Not right now though" I said. "How did you know where I was Jake?" I asked just to change the subject.
"I just knew you were in danger" he said.
"Will you stop being so evasive already. You could sense that I was in danger and knew where I was because I'm your imprint. That means were connected. You're pain is my pain and my pain is yours" I said.
He was completely shocked. He had not been expecting me to know about his imprinting on me at all. The truth is that I figured it out all on my own years ago.
"How did you know about that?" he asked.
"I figured it out years ago. Sometimes I would feel extremely depressed for no reason at all. Sometimes the depression would make me physically sick. Sometimes I knew you were suffering badly. I couldn't understand it at all. Then I remembered how I felt happy when you were happy. I did a lot of research about the legends of your tribe and when I came across imprinting it made the most sense. It described the whole situation perfectly. Suddenly everything made sense. The way you went from looking at me like you hated me to looking like you were seeing the sun for the first time when I was born, the way you constantly needed to be around me, and the way we seemed to feel each other's pain. It all made sense now. I'm not stupid Jacob, I put to and to together. I don't understand why you didn't tell me when you found out I was alive" I said.
"The moment we found out you were alive your parents didn't want me to tell you unless you told me that you were in love with me" he said. "They didn't want you to feel pressured or hurt" he said.
"I was more hurt that you didn't say anything" I said.
"I'm sorry Nessie" he said.
"You're forgiven Jacob" I said.
We'd been talking for so long that I hadn't realized that it was getting dark.
I heard footsteps right outside the door and then the door opened revealing my grandfather.
"Nessie you're awake. I didn't expect you to wake up so soon" he said.
The rest of my family flew in as soon as he said that.
"Nessie!" They all seemed to shout at the same time. They all took their turns hugging me and kissing me. My parents refused to let me go even for a second.
"How're you feeling?" Carlisle asked.
"Okay for now" I said. "Jacob already told me about the pneumonia and the surgery" I said.
Carlisle sighed "Unfortunately you're paralyzed from the waist down. But the good news is that you will regain movement. The surgery repaired your spine but as I was finishing your surgery I noticed that there was venom repairing some other parts of your spine, parts that control movement" he said.
"How long will that take?" I asked.
"I don't know" he said "You're vampire part is coming back, so it might be fast or slow" he said.
I thought about my human family. What was going to happen with them? Would they even want me or love me anymore?
"What happened with your adoptive family Nessie?" asked dad.
Everyone stared at me intensely.
I took a deep breath "I attacked my brother. He stepped on a piece of glass, The smell of his blood... It was" I couldn't continue as I started crying.
I felt my dad hug me. "It's okay Nessie" he said.
"How?! I'm a monster! I attacked my own brother. I hurt my own family and boyfriend when they tried to protect him" I said.
"You're not a monster Nessie" Carlisle said.
"Yes I am. I can't even control my own thirst" I said.
"Nessie being a vampire is not easy. Thirst is a part of vampire life. We can help you control it" Carlisle said.
"What about my other family?" I asked.
"You have to tell them the truth. They know something's up now. They love you and deserve to know" he said. "They're coming now"
Jacob was right. They were happy to see me but they also seemed different. They looked weary of me. Even Ryan looked scared. I guess he should be, I kinda attacked him too.
All of my vampire family left. I didn't miss how Jacob and Ryan glared at each other. If looks could kill.
"Nessie, I'm so happy you're awake" mom said she said before going over to and kissing me.
Tyler limped over to me "It's so good to have you back sister" he said. "I was so worried about you"
"How can you all be so calm after...everything?" I asked.
"We still love you no matter what" dad said.
"and I still care about you too" Ryan said.
"But why? Aren't you scared of me?" I asked.
"We are scared, but we are also very confused" mom said.
"I attacked Tyler! You should all be running for the hills now" I said.
"You are a part of our family. We always look out for each other no matter what" Tyler said.
"It's true. We still love you no matter what" mom said.
I didn't understand them. Normal people would be scared of me right now. They look scared, but apparently not scared enough to abandon me?
I had to tell them the truth. They needed to know now. Even though it will change their opinion of me drastically.
"I need to tell you all something" I said.
They all looked worried now.
"What is it?" mom asked.
"There's a secret that I've kept for 12 years" I said.
"What are you saying?" dad asked.
"I'm not who you think I am" I continued and then stoppd.
They looked really scared now.
"What are you saying Vanessa?" Tyler asked.
Silence.
"Can you just say it already. Can't you see you're killing us here?" Ryan asked.
My hands were shaking and my palms were sweating. My heart was going impossibly fast and thanks to the stupid machines everyone could hear it. I had never been this nervous before. The way they kept staring at me didn't help, in fact it made things worse.
I took a deep breath. "My real name is Renesmee Carlie Cullen and I'm half vampire"
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