Chapter 15: Not Giving Up

Renesmee's POV

I couldn't just sit here and do nothing. I had to go after him. I needed to go after Jacob. His heartbroken howl had ripped right through me and shattered my heart into a million pieces. I started crying and it was at that moment that I realized I was in love with Jacob too.

I had every intent to go after him. I couldn't leave him that way. I started wheeling myself in the direction that he had gone. I was only stopped by someone grabbing onto the handle of my chair.

"Where are you going?" Ryan asked.

"I'm going after him" I stated. "Now let go!" I said with so much venom in my voice that it scared even me. As soon as he let go I was off. I was going as fast as I could in the direction that the howling came from.

Maybe it was stupid, maybe it was reckless. After all is really a smart idea for a handicapped person to chase after a wolf who could easily be hundreds of miles away, wallowing in pain right now? No it probably wasn't a smart idea. He probably hated me now and wanted nothing to do with me.

"Jacob! Jacob!" I screamed over and over again to no avail. People looked annoyed by me and my screaming. Some even offered to help me, but no one could help me. I can't just say I'm looking for a horse sized wolf. People would think I'm nuts after all.

It was starting to get really late, and my arms were killing me from propelling myself as fast as I could on the wheelchair. I should have just given up and gone home, by now my family was probably very worried about me. And by family I mean all humans and vampires. I'm sure my human mother would have called my vampire family by now. Oddly enough, I didn't care about them worrying about me right now. What I cared about was finding my Jacob. I couldn't leave him that way. I couldn't rest in peace knowing that I caused him so much pain. I needed to make things right with him, even if he did hate me now.

"Jacob!" I continued to scream. I was sure that I would lose my voice come morning time now. I had never screamed so much in my life.

It was starting to get really dark now and I was wishing that I had at least brought a flashlight with me. I had nothing on me, no cellphone, no flashlight, not even a wallet. I hadn't thought this through very well and if I didn't find that idiot named Jacob soon I was going to happily beat him to death, and I didn't care if I were still in a wheelchair or not I'd still find a way, the next time I saw him for making me do this. Okay, it's my fault, but still he could at least make himself easier to find.

On top of everything else it started pouring buckets of rain. This just wasn't my day. Now would probably be a good idea to just go back home before I catch pneumonia on top of everything else. My heart sunk just at the thought of not finding Jacob tonight and I started crying.

I was in a deserted area crossing the street when one of my wheels got caught on a crack and I tipped over, landing sideways on the street. Headlights suddenly flew around the corner and were headed straight towards me. The driver was going much faster than he should in this rain, and it was clear that he hadn't seen me and that he wasn't going to stop.

I did the only thing I could think of in that minute. I screamed as loud as I could, even though there wasn't much volume left in my voice anymore. Just when the car was about to hit me something yanked me out of harm's way and took off running in another direction. At first glance I thought it was a grizzly bear, but upon closer examination I could tell that it was wolf Jacob. It was Jacob who just saved me. He carried me to a cave of some sort and took me deep inside where it was warmer. He gently placed me on the floor before going to lay down right next to me. His unnaturally high temperature did wonders to my frigid body. He licked my face and I kissed his cold wet nose.

Maybe, maybe he didn't hate me after all. Then he just suddenly got up and left. Was he abandoning me? He wouldn't do that, would he? Maybe he would, after all I am the one who hurt him.

To my relief he returned a few minutes later as a human.

"Just what the hell were you doing out there?! Were you trying to get yourself killed?!" Jacob sounded mad now.

"I was looking for you, you big idiot!" I shouted.

Now he had gone from angry to confused. "You were? Why?" he asked.

"Because I couldn't let you just leave the way you did. I needed to see you Jake" I said.

"Why, you have that boyfriend of yours to make you happy. You don't need me anymore" he said. I could see just how much this was hurting him.

"You're wrong" I whispered.

"What do you mean that I'm wrong? I saw you kissing him" he said. He was starting to shake violently now.

"He kissed me, I didn't kiss him back. And I do care about you because I'm in love with you too" I blurted out.

"You? Wait, what?" he asked.

"I'm in love with you too" I said. It was starting to get really hard for me to talk now because my teeth kept on chattering from the cold.

"You love me?" he asked. He didn't sound like he was sure if to believe me or not.

"Yes" I said.

"But you love him too?" he asked.

"Yes" I couldn't deny the truth.

"Not again" he said.

"What do you mean by that?" I managed to say through my chills.

"Did you know that I was in love with your mother?" Whoa! I sure as hell wasn't expecting that one. I wasn't sure if I should be disturbed by that or not.

"No" I said.

"Well I was, but she was in love with your father more than she was with me. But when I imprinted on you it didn't matter anymore" he explained.

There was a pause before he continued. "I thought I was done with love triangles the moment that I imprinted on you. I never thought that there would be another guy this time" he said.

Poor Jake.

"But this time is going to be different" he said.

"How?" I asked.

"I've gained experience from the last time. Now I know exactly how I'm going to fight for you and I'm going to win you over. You love me, and that's all I needed to know" he said. "I'm not giving up" he added.

The chills were starting to get really bad now. When he got really close to me I could feel the heat radiating off his body, and it felt good.

"You okay Nessie? You don't look so good" he said.

"I'm fine, just really cold" I said. "But your body heat makes me feel a whole lot better" I said. That's all it took for him to get really close to me.

"You know you would get warmer faster if you took off your clothes. Survival 101" he said. That giant grin of his made me smile.

"Really?" I asked.

"Yup" he said.

"Okay, but I'm going to need some help" I said. Unfortunately I always needed help dressing and undressing now. I couldn't wait to regain the use of my legs. I hated being dependent on others for basic stuff.

It was embarrassing that Jacob had to help me strip down to my underwear. It was even more embarrassing when he took off most of his clothes, saying that this is the way that I would warm up the fastest.

His warm arms embraced me.

"You know that boyfriend of yours is an idiot for letting you leave like that" he said.

"Why?" I asked.

"Because no person in their right mind would let a handicapped girl go off on her own when it's almost dark just to go mindlessly searching for someone. You don't even have a cellphone or anything to contact anyone with" he said. "for a guy that claims he loves you, he surely is doing a horrible job of keeping you safe" he said. "I'm going to rip him apart next time I see him" Jacob was working himself up again and I had to calm down.

"It's okay Jake, we are here together" I said.

"Yeah you're right" he said.

I fell asleep in his arms that night.

When we woke up the next morning we were startled to see both of my families there. Both sets of my parents were looking murderously angry at me. Then I remembered that Jacob and I were both barely clothed. There was no doubt that they were thinking the worse.

Oh crap am I in trouble.

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