BIG NOTE!!!!!!:

YOU WILL ALL HAVE TO REVIEW THE NEW CHAPTERS FOR I HAVE REPOSTED THEM! I HAVE MADE MANY CHANGES, EXPECIALLY TO YUME, AFTER FINDING MY PLANING SCRIPT! I'VE REALIZED THAT I HAD MADE CHANGES THAT I REALLY SHOULDN'T HAVE. PLEASE, PLEASE FORGIVE ME! ;;

Look out for:
- Shuichi's new appearance. I'm not keeping his pink hair and violet eyes, and have adopted the Shuichi from the OVA (mahoganny/brown hair and ..emerald eyes) -- I think he looks much better this way. (NOTE: Haven't seen the OVA Shu-chan? ..http://s81. Possible upcoming lemons (not posted on can be found elsewhere)
- SLIGHT OOC - more so in the surroundings of the characters - nothing serious to be worried about
- Cheating, lying, sinning, and all that other good stuff...

WARNING: This story is of adult yaoi (boy loves boy) nature. If you are offended by relationships consisting of two males, and their sexual lives, then I would advise you not to read on.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Gravitation or the lovely hot boys in it. Maki Murakami does.

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Chapter 2

(Shuichi's POV)

So, little did I know that the new "fuck toy" Yuki spoke of was to become his wife.

It was all over the news -- in both America and Japan. Famous romance novelist Eiri Yuki and world-renouned actress, Yume Sakura, were to be wed. Yuki had proposed to her at a galla, a get together for the actors that were produced by the high time record company, "Free Spirit", located in New York. While Yume was preforming on stage, Eiri stood silently, had waited for her to finish her debut before proposing to her live on stage.

And I missed it. It was all over TV, and I missed it. Worst of all, everyone around me knew so. Why hadn't they told me?

"We were scared, Shuichi..."

I slowly raised my head to look at Hiro, who was sitting at the end of my bed. He had read my mind, it seemed.

I looked shocked. "Scared...? Why is it that you all need to be scared?" I couldn't believe how terrible my voice sounded, and it was difficult for me to remember that it was mine. It didn't sound like mine, but it was. And I knew that the my words may have been a bit harsh, but man, they deserved them.

Ever so slowly, my dulling emerald eyes glanced around the room, seeping in everyone present in my bedroom. Ryuichi, K, Fujisaki, Hiro, Reiji (if you know nothing about Reiji, she apears in volume 9 of the Gravitation manga series, and she's completely in love with Shuichi)... They had all been here since I had came home -- a bit after the accident in the living room. All I had wanted was to be alone, yet I didn't want them to leave, either. I didn't want to be all by myself at this time, yet I couldn't shrug off the anger. How dare they keep this from me.

"We figured that the news would be a little too dramatic, Shuichi. We wanted you to be in the right state of mind before telling you anything," K replied. Hesitantly, he finished his statement. "I mean...As of know...You're emotionally and physically unhealthy and the last thing we needed was for that to get any worse."

It was then that I snapped my head up and glared at him with hard eyes.

"Unhealthy?!" K almost looked terrified at my sudden outburst. "What's that supposed to mean, huh? Can I even get any more unhealthy than I already am?!"

Nobody said anything, silence claiming the bedroom.

"...I... I can never heal... I can never get better... And I can't cut a deeper wound than the one that's already been cut..." I lowered my eyes. "Yet you can say that things can only get worse." Through the corner of my eyes, I took a short look at the shattered picture frame that lay upon my night stand. Hiro had saved for me. He had cleaned up everything in the house, left no glass pieces that had previously scattered the floor, and made sure things were ready to leave. I was moving into his place. I was going to start a new life.

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(Yuki's POV)

So. Hiro was right. Shuichi truly didn't know about my relationship status with Yume.

Sighing, I reach over to turn off the television. I hadn't really expected what he told the interviewer. I thought he would have at least moved on in some way or another, but it seems he hasn't. And that friend of his tells me that things have only gotten worse since I've left him. At this point in time, there's no doubt about it that I feel just a little bit guilty. I know that I shouldn't, but I do. I feel like slapping myself silly when I look back at how I had treated him throughout our relationship, and how cruely I had left him. Sometimes, I would really like to feel him in my arms again, which confuses me. I left him. Why should I be feeling these things? I shouldn't be feeling these things, but my heart tells me otherwise.

I wasn't happy when I left him. It was difficult to let him go, I'll admit it. And sometimes I feel like I left him... almost unwillingly.

And it's because of the same cursed excuse that I have been beating myself with when I first started getting closer to him.

He was better off without me.

I had always pushed him away and tried to force him out of my life. But in the end, I had no choice but to give up. He just wouldn't accept the fact that there was the possiblity that he couldn't have me in his life, and so he had begun take over. This may sound a bit selfish, but hell, I can't say I didn't warn him. I knew that I would hurt him, just like everyone else that I had ever cared about. I knew it. And even though I had loved him, I couldn't bring myself to let him into my heart completely.

But now I want that to change. I truly do want him in my life, in my heart. I had thought that all this time I had gotten over him, but I'll admit that I still do love him to some degree. And when I began to realize the fact, I could finally give myself an answer as to why I had so many problems trying to fall in love with Yume once we had first hooked up. Truth be told, sometime I'm not sure if I can say that I do love her.

So why did I propose to her again? Why would I ask such an important, life-involved question to someone that I don't truly care about?

...Why am I playing with her delicate heart? Why would I do this all over again...?

If this is how I really feel, I should break the news to her before she gets too far with planning the wedding, which to me, is very tempting to call off.

But something's holding me back... Something's telling me to keep going with this marriage. But what?

I'm getting frustrated, and need to keep my mind off this for a while. Pulling out a cigarette, I place it between my lips and lite the end of the paper, inhaling the nicotine into my lungs. After moments of allowing the drugs to flow through my bloodstream and relax my body, I glance at the phone of the side coffeetable and decide to make a call.

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(Tohma's POV)

"I can't believe that kid," Seguchi whispered under his breath. His name, his image, his words, his appearance... They were all over the news.

'What bad publicity...'

The president of NG Productions turned off the TV that rested on his desk and stood. Grabing his jacket from the back of his chair the blonde-haired man shrugged the coat over his shoulders and exited his office.

'This has gone too far,' he thought. What he needs it Eiri. He needs him back in his life. That may sound rediculous, considering that he's the reason why Shuichi is suffering so badly. But Shuichi says that having Eiri again would only hurt him even more. We know that he can't afford for his heart to be broken once again, but although we would all risk it in order to have Shindou-san happy again, but it's not our decision to make. It's his.

But for now, all we can do is be here for him until he comes to face reality completely.

"As soon as I get home, I'm ordering a moving truck to drop by Shuichi's apartment. At this moment, he needs to get away from anything that reminds him of Yuki Eiri so that he can have some times to recollect proper emotions for him, and actually do something about it!"

As soon as he entered the porch of his house, Tohma felt something familiar begin to vibrate on the side of his leg. Quickly searching through his pocket, he found and dug out his cell phone. The C.I.D. first specifies that the caller is long distance.

Seguchi-san's left to wonder who it is until moments later, a name appears on the screen. And it's a name that he's become to adapt to.

Yuki, Eiri.

He grinned. Maybe it wasn't going to be Shundou-san's decision after all...

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(Yuki's POV)

Now then. How shall I accomplish this without the chance of Yume knowing?

I just got off the phone with Seguchi and we've arranged to have a meeting somewhere secluded in Japan where everyone could enjoy themselves while they took the month off work. Yes, I have decided to travel back to my homeland after all. I need to be around the people I know, expecially one particular person whom I'm dying to see. Literally. I feel as if I could kill anyone and anything that stands in the way of my meeting him. But unfortunately I think that I just might have that opportunity. How is it possible for me to book flights and travel all the way across the world without Yume knowing where I'm going? And if she discovered that I was going back to Japan, she would no doubtedly refuse to let me go. Either that, or she would insist on accompanying me on my trip, which would result in utter chaos.

Not that it matters. Even if she's there with me, Shuichi would still be on the top of my priority list. But this way, if she follows, I can kill two birds with one stone.

"Are you off the phone now, Eiri? I need to make a call to my producer. He said something about a movie shoot that he's planned for next week. You coming with me, hun? It'll be a few weeks before I return," Yume said, standing in the doorway.

"Actually, Yume, I'm going to visit family at Tohma's summer house in Lake Jasper." The answer was blunt. Nothing too special. "I need some vacation time. And a reunion with some people I know." I failed to mention who, because that would only give her more suspicion and worry her more. I don't want to make her too upset, for it already seems like she isn't all that happy upon hearing the news that I'll be leaving, and leaving to Japan of all places. But it doesn't matter what she says to me, I have made up my mind and I will be going to Japan, whether or not she supports me and my ways.

Yume frowned. "Can't you come to Manhatten instead? I wanted to start planning the wedding while we had free time," she said softly.

Indeed. She wasn't fond of the fact at all.

I made a quick glance at the ring which was wrapped around her small finger, shimmering in the dull light that was set in the den. How many times had I felt like tearing off the damned piece of gold from her hand and throwing it into a hungry fire?

"Yume, we have all the time in the world to think about the wedding. But for now, I would like to go see my family." I felt her hazel eyes on me as she stared into my own with a challenge. But as soon as the battle had begun, I could already see her begin faulter under the pressure of my glare, and her eyes softened and cast downwards. It was silent as we said nothing for moments to come.

"...I don't want you to go..." she spoke in almost a whisper, hurt evident in her voice. It was then that something struck my heart. I could see how much I meant to her and how much love she has for me. I had never paid much attention to Yume and what she held for me, all that she had done for me... It was tempting to just hold her and take the pain away, to tell her that I'm staying here with her, that we'll get started on the wedding, that I love her... But... Then a picture of Shuichi pops into my head and I am reminded of memories like this that we had been through. All the times when I had threatened to leave him, or have left him, or even went away to go visit my father and brother in Kyoto, his look gave him the same meaning. Shuichi was the only person who could fill the hole in my heart.

"I know, I know," I said rather softly. Despite my earlier internal conversation, I couldn't help myself as I rose from the couch and walked over to her. I stood before her noticing that she wouldn't look at me, and I knew exactly what she was thinking about. We were engulfed by silence, neither us wanting to say anything, and I just pulled her into a soft, gently hug, sighing to myself. This may be a bit harder than I thought...

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A/N: Ok, this chapter was basically about how things are going to get started and how Yuki feels about the whole situation. He's a bit out of character, but I have reasons for that. Anyways, this chapter was more like an introductory. So, is Eiri falling for Yume now? Maybe. But that's for me to know and for you to find out!

P.S: I was too lazy to find a Beta for this story, and I didn't review it all that much, so bear with me. heartbreak

R&R please!