thanks again for the awesome review! I tried to make this interesting chapter, but I don't know if I succeeded. they are here so young and foolish. and rather emotional too. hurting and getting hurt. thank god tomoyo came around. those two just doesn't seem to be able to fix things just by themselves this time around. usually I don't like her around, but...well. friends are always good things.

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The next day he went back to school and sat on his place. The first lesson he was rather pleased with the situation since there was no one to send him notes and other ways distracting him from the lesson.

But when the break started Fai stormed away from behind him and acted like he didn't exist. He just shrugged, that was fine by him, it wasn't him who had yearned company. The next lesson instead of being air to the blond he could feel ice daggers being stared at his back. And it made him a bit uneasy. He hadn't meant to make the blond angry, only to make him leave. Or shut up. Not like he cared why the other couldn't or wouldn't smile for real.

He grew irritated and by the time of lunch he was glaring back to Fai whenever their eyes met.

He was sitting at the end of a table and eating his lunch when someone sat opposite of him. He knew it wasn't the blond since they continued to occasionally exchange glares through the room.

"Hi" a girl's voice said. He just glanced the girl, who had long black hair and was rather short. To his disturbance she reminded a bit of his mother. The girl smiled at him and continued talking.

"you must be the knew student, right?" he just nodded. No reason to deny it. And the girl seemed rather harmless and more normal than the blond. And when talking of the devil, the blond looked at his direction and seeing the girl next to him the blond frowned. He grinned, it was great to annoy the blond for a change.

"I'm Tomoyo."

"Kurogane" he said back and wiped the grin away. The girl nodded towards Fai

"You have made an impression. I have never seen him showing negative emotions towards anyone. What did you do?"

he shrugged.

"Nothing much"

the girl tilted his head to the side.

"Hmm." the girl looked at Fai for a while in thought. When Fai looked towards them again she waved him a bit. Fai gave her a smile and glared him once more before turning back to his table. He growled. The blond was such and asshole. He wasn't the one who caused headache and talked to no end.

"You know he is an orphan?"

he looked at the girl curious

"No, I didn't. He didn't actually tell me anything about himself"

the girl gave a dry laugh.

"That's normal for him. I live in the same neighborhood so I know this much about him, but he hasn't told anything about his live in the orphanage or his previous family. But he is sweet. Too kind even. He always try so much to help and please everyone." the girl shook his head. "Until you came around that is. I really am surprised to see how much he seems to hate you. It's rather funny" the girl smiled brightly and he rolled his eyes. Great. Another loony. Like that annoying blond wasn't enough. He send one more glare to the blond and the girl opposite him broke out laughing. So he sent one death glare for her too.

"What's so amusing?" he snarled. The girl shook her head cheerily

"Nothing much. I just can't wait to see what you two will do next"

"I don't want to have anything more to do with him." he spat and poked his food.

The girl sighed

"That much anger cannot be good for you." then she grinned "Besides, if that's true, why are you spending so much time glaring him and paying attention? Don't try to lie, I know you came this spot just so you could glare him back."

"I did not!"

she laughed again

"Yes you did. He was here first."

he was silent and decided to ignore the girl. Maybe she would be that much more normal than Fai and actually go away. She sat there and ate her salad. When she was nearly done she talked again.

"Don't get me wrong. I am on your side. He needs to let out some of his steam too. He has been holding everything in for too long" the girl locked eyes with him and he saw the sadness and determination in her eyes "You can help him. I see you have already started it. And he can help you too. You need some friends anyway." she stood up ad gathered her tray. "Well, of course you have me now too."

"We are not friends" he said

"But I am your friend. And I'm sure you will consider me as your friend sooner or later."

with a joyful bye she left him sit there alone. He munched in deep thought and stole a look at the blond. There he as faking a smile and laughing airily at some of his friend's joke. But he was sure the smile still did not reach his eyes. He shook his head. The girl had disturbed him. He couldn't help but to be a little curious about his past. Even though he knew that pasts should be left behind. But he also knew that pasts could come haunting. He sighed and run a hand through his hair. God damn it. Was he really planning on apologizing to the blond? But he better leave that for tomorrow and be sure he wanted it.

The rest of the day he spent partly listening teachers and partly watching the blond. If the girl was right and there was something dark in the blond's life, then they weren't that different. The blond faked a smile and he pushed everyone around. And it had the same effect. No one was too close to them. He knew he had turned into a rather pessimistic and isolated person, but he thought he had a good reason for it. Even though both him mother he loved and his father he respected had had private talks with him, telling him that he should not push everyone away. That being alone wasn't the right solution. That he would be missing something important if he would live like that.

Watching the blond he couldn't help but think that they had a point. He hadn't seen any problem with being the way he was, but seeing the blond doing similar thing it just seemed so wrong and twisted.

He sighed and scribbled on his notebook. He did a ninja drawing. Eh enjoyed drawing, it calmed his thoughts and relaxed him. Yeah, he should try not to push everyone away. Maybe he would find in here someone worth his trust. He also knew that it would be anything but easy. He had stopped trusting people and had just fed his distrust with every possible occasion. He sighed and colored the ninja's clothes black. It had cool chest armor and sturdy boots made for kicking others. He glanced around. No, he didn't see anyone he would be even distantly interested to hang with. He rolled his eyes to himself. What was he, a girl? Why the hell would he go soft just because there was a girl who claimed to be his friend and because of a crazy blond who couldn't stop pretending. The tip of his pencil broke and he silently cursed.

"What are you doing Kurogane?" the teacher asked standing next to his desk. He had been so deep in thought he hadn't realized the teacher had been making rounds.

"Nothing much" he mumbled and tried to hide the drawing without being caught. With his luck, he failed of course. The teacher yanked his notebook and looked at the drawing silently for a while.

"Well. I guess that's as good career as any" the teacher said.

"Yeah, in a fantasy world." he heard Fai mumble behind him. The teacher heard it too and said reproachfully

"Fai. I meant drawing. Not being a ninja" the whole room snickered now when they guessed what he must have drawn. He wanted to vanish in thin air. The teacher placed the notebook back onto his desk and said

"You are indeed skilled but focus on the lessons here and do that on your free time, okay?" the teacher talked to him like he would have been five years old. It embarrassed him even more, and Fai had noticed the tone too because he heard muffled giggles behind him.

His hands curled into tight fists when he tried to remain calm. He couldn't afford to cause a fuss here. And his parents would probably kill him for that. They were rather scary when mad. He focused on breathing and tried to zone out all the noises. Yes, the blond was digging his own grave. No, he couldn't shove the blond into it here and now.

He swore he wouldn't draw again at school. And he swore he would not apologize from the blond. He was just like everyone else. Selfish untrustworthy bastard. And stupid one at that.

He sat there fuming the rest of the day and when the school ended he yanked his backpack with him and stomped out, kicking all the cans and other trash on his way. It helped him to vent out some of his anger but not his embarrassment or the slight hurt. He had for short moment thought that the blond wasn't a bad person. Just extremely idiotic. But so he was proven wrong.

the next chapter. will come when it will come. I can't promise anything because I don't know what will happen in life.